A/N: I'm not big on Rolivia but I wrote one. It's a bit smutty! Happy reading :)
Amanda Rollins was in deep shit. Not only did she have a gambling problem but her debt had resulted in her getting her ass beat. So as embarrassing as it seemed she had to tell her captain about her addiction, and endure an investigation with IAB.
She was sitting in his office, tears pouring from her eyes when Olivia Benson walked into the room with a declaration of information on a case they were currently working. She felt so small in front of the woman she had been working beside for nearly a year. Not only did she look up to the brunette, but she had deep feelings for her, and at that moment she cursed her very existence being caught crying in front of her.
'She probably thinks I'm weak' She told herself.
She excused herself, and made her way to the door of the crib barely noticing the patter of footsteps behind her. She froze when she felt fingers grasp her upper arm, and spin her around.
"Liv?" She gasped.
"Are you ok?" Olivia asked pushing them both into the crib.
What could she say? She had shown weakness, and there was no way to take that back. But she still tried to hold onto her dignity. She wiped the few tears trailing down her face, and smiled weakly.
"I'm fine. I just need a minute" She said clearing her throat.
'You look so fucking hot today.' She thought.
"You don't look fine to me, Amanda" Olivia said releasing Amanda's arm, and folding her arms underneath her breasts.
Amanda took a few moments to study the older woman's body as she had found herself doing repeatedly for months. She took in her full, supple breasts, her curves, her nice round ass and her strong legs.'oh...fuck' She thought. She needed Olivia to leave, NOW, before she acted on her impulses.
"I'm r-really fine Liv...Thanks but I don't ne-"
"You know I've been at this a longtime, and I know how to read people. I don't know what happened but if you feel like talking about it, I want you to know you can come to me." Liv said dropping her arms to her sides.
Amanda, then did the stupidest thing that would later turn out to be the best thing she ever did. She stepped closer to the brunette, grabbed her face with both hands, and kissed her full on the mouth. She was marveling at how soft those rosy lips were and how natural they danced with her own, when Liv gently pushed her away.
Olivia had been wrestling with her feelings for the blonde the moment she walked into the squad room. To know that the feelings were mutual, made her life happier. She placed both hands onto Amanda's hips, and sighed.
"Amanda..."
"I'm sorry! So sorry Liv! God I'm an idiot!" Amanda said silently cursing herself.
Liv pulled Amanda flush against her, and smiled.
"No...it's not that...it's just I didn't want this to happen here..." Liv said softly.
"Wait?...What?" Amanda said looking into dark brown eyes.
"I have feelings for you Amanda. I've had feelings for you for awhile actually..." Liv said dropping her gaze.
'Theres no way...' Amanda told herself.
"Why didn't you say anything?" Amanda asked curiously, wrapping her arms around the brunettes neck.
"I had been such a bitch to you the moment you got here-I thought any chance I had was shot to hell..." Liv explained, looking away from her.
"Why don't we go somewhere and talk about this?" Amanda suggested.
"Your place?...or mine?" Liv asked uncertainty laced in her tone.
Amanda had watched the older detectives work from afar before she even transferred into SVU. She had watched her work a victim in denial, and go at a perp without breaking a sweat. But with all of that knowledge she still didn't 'know' her. So she made up her mind.
"Yours" She said sure of herself.
The tension in the car ride to Liv's place was palpable. It took every ounce of strength they had not to touch each other. That one kiss seemed to be the match that lit the flame.
As they walked through the lobby of the brunettes apartment complex their hands brushed together, they paused looking into each others eyes, both needing to know if the other had felt that spark that coursed through them.
Liv had barely unlocked, opened and closed the door before Amanda had thrown her against it with the fierce need of feeling her lips on hers. She cupped the young blondes head, sighing blissfully into the kiss.
They kissed against the door for long minutes before pulling away, in need of oxygen.
Liv laced her fingers with Amanda's and led her to the couch. They stared at each other for a few moments, taking each other in. As much as Liv wanted to take her then and there, she wanted to know why she was crying.
She carressed her cheek - Amanda's eyes closed, leaning into the contact.
"Why were you crying in the captains office?" She asked softly.
Amanda's eyes snapped open, and she sighed. How do you tell the woman you love you're weak? She took in a breathe and exhaled.
"I, uh...someone beat me up last night. And the reason I got beat up is because I owe that person a lot of money..." She said looking away from Liv's gaze.
Olivia clenched her teeth, and sucked in a deep breath. Who would dare beat on Amanda?
"Who?" She asked icily.
"His name is Murphy. He didn't know I was a cop Liv" Amanda said quietly. She still refused to look her in the eye.
"I want to see..." Liv said gently.
Amanda looked at her then, dumbstruck, when she came to the realization Liv wanted to see her bruises. She stood, and slowly began to unbutton her shirt. She paused when the buttons reached underneath her bra. Liv sensed her reluctance.
"It's ok..."Liv said encouragingly.
Liv pulled her back to the couch, and finished unbuttoning her shirt for her. She slowly pushed the fabric from Amanda's shoulders, holding eye contact. Until Amanda shrugged out of the shirt. Liv averted her gaze to the black and blue that marked her torso. She tentatively reached out, and brushed her fingertips across the area. Feeling Amandas muscles jump underneath her touch she whispered.
"Does it hurt?"
"It looks worse than it feels" Amanda said, tilting the corner of her mouth in a half smile.
Liv leant down and peppered Amanda's middle with light,soothing kisses. Amanda's hand found it's way into the chestnut curls, and grazed her scalp.
Liv groaned in satisfaction. She sat up and looked into Amanda's eyes. She cupped her face softly and brought their mouths together before trailing off to her jawline and neck.
Amanda moaned as Liv nipped her sweet spot on her shoulder. Liv looked into her eyes again.
"Is this ok?" She asked softly.
Amanda nodded. "More...please" She said biting her lip.
Liv tugged her shirt free from the waistband of her pants and shrugged out of it. Amanda's eyes couldn't help but drop to the cleavage revealed from the top of her royal blue lacy bra. She leant forward and kissed Liv's shoulder eliciting a moan from the brunette.
Amanda licked and kissed her way across Liv's collarbone, and up to her jawline.
"Amanda" Liv purred.
She could feel that achy throb between her legs build the more the younger woman touched her. But this wasn't about her,tonight. This was about Amanda.
Amanda ceased her assault on the older woman's body and looked into her eyes.
"Liv?" She asked confused.
Liv just smiled and shook her head. She wrapped her arms around Amanda and unhooked her bra, pulling it from her body, and tossing it onto the floor. She leant down, and gently suckled a nipple, swirling her tongue around it.
"Mmm..." Amanda moaned.
Liv cupped the other breast with her hand and lightly began to swipe across the nipple with her thumb.
Amanda played with her hair absentmindedly, her heart hammering in her ears. She unhooked the brunettes bra and pushed it from her shoulders. Liv sat up long enough to let the fabric slide from her body, and flung it to the floor. Amanda smiled as she admired the brunettes olive skin tone. Her eyes glistened as they fell upon her dark nipples. She leant forward and kissed both sensitive buds flicking her tongue against them.
"Manda" Liv groaned.
Amanda pulled back, and looked at the older woman with love, and desire.
"Liv if you don't fuck me soon I'm going to go insane" Amanda growled. Before playfully biting a nipple.
Liv moaned in pleasure, and pulled herself back together.
"There will be no fucking tonight, Amanda Rollins" Liv said, panting.
"But there will be love making" She quickly added when she caught sight of the younger woman's frown.
She pulled Amanda into her lap and fumbled with the buckle on her pants. And when she couldn't undo them she growled in frustration.
"Who the fuck makes these?!"
Amanda giggled and stilled her hands, and expertly released the buckle holding Liv's gaze.
"Do ya think you can get the rest honey?" Amanda drawled in her southern accent.
"Shut up!" Liv said pulling the younger woman closer so she could kiss her.
While their lips were locked together Amanda managed to undo Liv's pants with ease.
Somewhere between undoing Liv's pants, and Liv pulling hers down, Amanda had found herself completely naked in the older woman's lap. Wishing for skin to skin she assisted in divesting the brunette of her pants and matching panties. Throwing them haphazardly around the room. They paused to stare at each other, and lay light lazy kisses on shoulders, necks, nipples, and breasts.
Liv palmed over Amanda's perky breasts, the valley between them, and over her flat, toned stomach, tracing patterns there. She swept down and met wet, wanting heat. Amanda's breath caught in her chest.
"Liv...touch me please..." She begged.
Olivia obliged her by dipping, first her middle finger followed by her ring finger into the woman. She gasped aloud at how the younger woman's inner walls tightened around her fingers.
She began to thrust in and out of her slowly, achingly slow.
"Ohhh..." Amanda moaned.
She rested her head against Liv's shoulder kissing, licking, and nibbling at the skin there. She clasped the couch on either side of the brunettes head tightly. She began to ride the brunettes fingers to increase the friction.
"Mmm...ah...oh...Liv...don't...stop" She choked out.
Liv grasped her hip with her free hand, and stilled her movements.
"Not yet baby" She said softly as she took a nipple into her mouth.
Amanda hissed in approval, and threw her head back. Soft moans escaping as Liv continued with her deep, slow thrusts.
"Ohhh...ahhh...Liv...God" She moaned.
She could feel the burn in the lower part of her stomach signaling release on it's way, but she wanted more so much more. She was so close.
Liv began to feel her inner walls clench around her fingers, and she wanted desperately to taste her. She eased her fingers out of the blonde and slid out from underneath her. Amanda's brow furrowed with confusion and desperation she wasn't going to get the release she so badly needed.
"Shh, baby...I want to taste you" She soothed.
She pulled Amanda behind her kneecaps to the edge of the couch, and settled on her knees between her legs. She blew softly on the wet folds there reveling in the shudders that followed. She brought her nose close to the wetness and inhaled Amanda's scent.
"You smell good" She breathed.
Amanda whimpered in response.
Liv dove in spreading her outer lips apart she began to lick from Amanda's opening up to her clit.
"Fuuuck!" Amanda cried out grasping Liv's hair in a tight fist.
The brunette dipped and swirled her tongue down and around her folds.
"Th-There! Oh...so good!" Amanda cried out.
Liv continued to sucked her swollen clit into her mouth and stuck two fingers inside hard and fast.
"Please!" Amanda whined.
Liv began to thrust in short, deep thrusts. She looked up at Amanda her darkened brown eyes locked with Amanda's grayish-blue. She picked up her pace curling her fingers to rub against the blondes g-spot.
"Ohhh...shiiiiit" Amanda screamed her orgasm trapping Liv's head between her legs.
Her orgasm rolled in waves, crashing through her relentlessly. She released the brunette and brought her up beside her. She lay across her lazily, panting.
"Wow!" She breathed.
She pulled Liv into a kiss, licking her lip for entry. She moaned, tasting herself on the older woman's tongue.
"Your turn" She purred when they pulled apart.
"If you want me to... I can go if that's what you want" She added when she saw an unreadable look on the brunettes face.
"No. I do want you to. I want you to stay..." She said pulling the younger woman up and leading her to her bedroom.
Amanda decided it was now or never.
"I love you Liv" She said following her into the room.
Liv looked back at her and smiled. She loved her too.
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