The slightest touch to my skin hurt, the pain was excruciating, i felt everything they were doing to me, and although i was not awake i still felt them, I heard them. But i could not scream, could not move and i didn't know why, what was i doing before? My car...my car broke down and i was waiting for someone to drive by and ask them for help or a ride to a nearby town. Then the black car came, a small car enough for four or five people, they stopped. I asked for help, i saw one of them, his eyes fierce and dark, high cheekbones, dark hair that covered his right eye. He didn't say anything, but the one on the passenger seat was talking to me, he asked what happened, his hair was impossible to forget, bright blonde, nearly white. They got out of the car, just two of them, the smaller one, the one that talked offered me a bottle of water and then nothing. Just black.
I fluttered my eyes open, but saw nothing. Nothing at all, just black. My breath fastened, i felt sweaty and did not know why, what if they raped me and wanted to dump me in some lake? I was at the edge of hysteria, what the heck happened to me? I saw a dark figure coming towards me.
"Ji, i thought he was going to be out for a while." said a low husky voice, dull in a way. I heard light footsteps coming, they somehow sounded cheerful. "It has been a while Tabi" said the other voice, it was beside me. "What do you want from me?" i managed to choke out, Ji or whoever it was chuckled. "You're in heaven" he said, in a innocent tone. I was not in heaven, heaven was a place i could see and be happy in. But i wasn't, i was laying on something cold and i was frightened. I struggled, but it seemed like i was tied to something.
"Lee Seunghyun." he said, i think he was reading something. "That's what it says on your ID" he continued, slowly, my vision was becoming clearer. I saw his white-blonde hair, but his face was still blurry. "That's too complicated, i don't want to mix you two" he said.
"Seungri?" my heart stopped.
How did he know what people called me, my friends and family. Was he stalking me? Did i know him from somewhere? I waited impatiently for my vision to be clear. And it was, his was was not familiar, i didn't know him. "How did you know..?" i stopped mid-sentence, and waited for them to talk, "I know you, I've seen you in my dreams, Seungri" he said, caressing the side of my face. I looked at him in horror, i looked around. It looked filthy, like it wasn't cleaned in years. "We're in the basement" he whispered. I was tied to a silver bed thing, like those things that doctors use to examine dead bodies.
I tried to sit up, "Get me off of this thing!!" i yelled, panicking. Ji backed away, his face dark. "Tabi, give him a lesson, he has to learn to obey me" he said, his voice cold. I looked at Tabi, he smirked but it disappeared as soon it was there. He came towards me, he roughly pulled at my pants, ripping them off, along with my underwear, i felt my throat close, preventing me from screaming. I felt cold.
I looked at Ji in horror, "No, no, no. Please I won't do it again, please" i begged, the words rushing out. He was smiling, "You have to learn" he said, sitting at the head part of this bed thing. "Hold his arms" said Tabi, his low voice sent shivers down my spine. Ji held my wrists, tightly. The strap that held me down was off, Tabi took it off. He tied my ankles at the sides of the bed. Tears blinded me, blurring almost everything from my sight. Tabi, grabbed my thigh tightly, spreading my legs apart, at this point i began to sob.
"This is so messed up" i whispered.
He unbuckled his belt, his pants falling down to his ankles. He smirked as he positioned himself. And without a warning he entered, i let out a cry. It hurt, my legs were slightly shaking. "Please, stop" i sobbed. Tabi, Seunghyun started to move, he kept his eyes on me, i arched my back, making Ji drop his grip on my right wrist. I placed it on Seunghyun's chest, trying to push him but it did no good. "Ugh...." i let out a small moan of pain, he smirked again, his eyes were taunting me. He moved a little faster, "Ji, let go of my hand" i breathed out, he did, i placed the other hand on his chest and tried my best to push him away, it was the drugs that were making me so weak. He moved faster and harder. "No!" i said, i felt my heart explode with shame. I felt dirty. He began to pump my member rhythmically, i was panting, out of breath because of the crying and the unwanted pleasure. Unknowingly, i placed my hands on his shoulders. I gave up, i let him do it. It was probably going to be over in a few minutes anyway. Jiyong caressed my face again, his fingers tracing along my tears. "So beautiful" he murmured, Seunghyun let out a quiet grunt as he released himself. I gasped, releasing myself too, onto his shirt. It didn't seem to bother him, he just took it off and threw it aside. I felt like puking.
I looked at Ji, his eyes tracing along my jawline, i realized i was free. I sat up, wincing. I took my pants that were on the floor and put them on, not meeting anyone's eyes. "Do we understand each other now?" said Ji, looking at me with his big brown eyes. I nodded, hugging myself. I scratched at my arms, i felt disgusting. "Now lay back down and let me do what i have to do" he demanded, i obeyed and did what i was told to do. I lay on the metal bed. "Now let me finish your tattoo" he muttered, mostly to himself but i caught it. I quickly sat up. "A tattoo?" i said anxiously, he nodded happily. I lay back down, it was just a tattoo, it was just a tattoo. I kept repeating in my head. He took my arm, pulling the sleeve up. I looked at it, on the inner side of my arm there was a marking. I've never seen it before.
He took the needle that was on the counter beside the bed. He burned it with a lighter, i felt my heart shake, "The marking shows that you belong to me" he said, "So that the other Seekers don't take you from me" he added, what on earth was he talking about? "A seeker is someone like me, taking beautiful beings and making them mine. It's like a cult, an underground world" he explained, dipping the needle in ink. He was a freak, an insane piece of shit. I gave him a disgusted look. He sent me a warning look. "Be careful" he growled. I kept my eyes to the ceiling, ignoring the needle going in and out of my skin. I swallowed the lump in my throat.
I closed my eyes, tiredness was creeping in, slowly pushing me into slumber. I hoped i was never going to wake up again.
Next thing i knew i was in someone's arms, probably Seunghyun because by the looks of it Ji was too skinny to lift me. I opened my eyes, and i was right, it was Seunghyun who was carrying me, i panicked, "Let go of me" i said, nearly growled, straightening my back. He placed me on my feet. I looked around, it was white, the walls, furniture, the rug. And glass. It was decent looking, clean and simple. "Where are we?" my voice sounded strange in my ears. Ji suddenly appeared in front of me, "My house" he said, smiling at me. I stood next to him, avoiding standing next to Seunghyun. Seunghyun let out a "humph" and walked into the hallway and into a room. "I'm Jiyong by the way," said Jiyong, smiling at me, "you can go home, to where ever you live but you come when i tell you to. If you don't we will look for you and you'll get the same treatment you got today and you are going to go in the cage for a couple of days" he explained, the words not quite sinking into my mind, what the heck did he think he was? I was not some dog he could tell fetch and sit. "Telling the cops won't work, Seunghyun's father was a cop, i killed him because he didn't want me and Seunghyun to be together, my father is a cop, some of the cops are Seekers too. Don't try telling anyone else, I'll just kill them and kill the people they talked to and so on and so forth" he said, smirking, folding his arms across his chest. The lump in my throat was impossible to swallow "But it's against the law to keep a slave" i said, trying to reason with him. It was a stupid thing to do, he was insane nothing was going to change his mind. "Rules are meant to be broken" he said, through his teeth, "Don't push it" he warned. "I'm being nice, you can go run along and do what you do but you come back when i tell you to" he said, made it clear. I nodded once, "Where are my keys?" i asked, looking at his face. "We left your car, I'll let you borrow mine" he said, throwing me his keys. I caught them, i ran out of the house and into the little black car. And drove away, fast.
* * *
I wished that everything the night before was a dream, i wished that none of it was real. I prayed but the soreness i felt proved that it was real, the sting on my inner arm proved it was real. And the car keys that were still in my hand proved that it was real. I unwillingly opened my eyes, my head ached and my eyes were trying to adjust to the brightness of my room, i forgot to close the curtains last night. I realized how sticky my skin felt, i shuddered, remembering the events that the night before happened. I scratched at my arms again, wanting to scratch away the disgusting feeling. "SEUNGRI! Where the hell were you last night?!?" i heard my mothers voice as she came into my room. Her hands resting on her hips, her foot tapping loudly against the floor. I slowly looked up at her face, her eyes burning with fury. "My car broke down..." i whispered "Whose black car is that?" she demanded. I kept my head low, not wanting her to see me grimace. "Jiyong" i said thickly, trying to push the lump in my throat down. "Who the fuck is Jiyong? What relations do you have with him?".
"He's my friend mom, he lives on the quiet side of the city" i said, the quiet side was her favourite. She stood there for a while, probably trying to decide whether to punish me or not. She sighed, she'd forgiven me. "Why are you bleeding?" she asked, staring at my arm, i looked at it. The tattoo was bleeding? "Nothing, it's nothing. I probably scratched myself at soccer practise" i lied, i was never good at lying but i was good enough to deceive my mother, or at least she pretended to. "Okay" she said, smiling at me. "Take a shower, you look filthy hon" she said as she left my room. I felt filthy too, awful, disgusting. I scratched at my skin, my neck this time, up to my chin. Maybe a shower would make me feel better.
I stood in the shower, staring into space, not really knowing if the water flowing down my face were tears or the water from shower head. I didn't really care, i was alone, i was crying and i wasn't going to show anyone, or tell anyone. I had to keep this secret, they were going to hurt my loved ones if i said one word. I scrubbed hard, hoping the disgusting sticky feeling would go away.
* * *
"Seungri, are you sick?" my mother asked one morning, i was too ashamed to look at her. "I'm fine" i murmured, pushing my cereal around the bowl. I didn't want any food in my stomach, i didn't want to puke again. She let out a sigh, she continued to eat. "Why is your skin all red?" she asked, her eyes trailing along the scratch marks on my arms "It's just a rash mom, it'll go away" i reassured her, pulling my sleeves down, she looked at me for a long time. Eventually she left, she always did. I just sat there, wondering if i should go to school or not.
In the end i decided to go, hoping my friends would cheer me up or make me feel a little better. I took Jiyong's car to school, the only transportation to school other than the city bus. That was a big no no with my mother, she was the type that thinks about a drive by, shooting random people. She worries way too much in my opinion.
My friends gave me strange looks when i got there.
"Seungri? Whose car is that?" said my friend Daesung, his smile nearly blinding me. "A friend of mine" i said, putting the keys into my pockets as i walked towards his smiling face. "Where were you last weekend?" he asked, keeping the atmosphere easy, i nearly winced. "I was...hanging out with old friends" i lied, not looking at his face. I could almost hear him frown. "Seungri.." he began. "Look, i don't want to talk about it okay? I'd rather not." i interrupted, slightly walking faster.
He didn't follow me, which i was thankful for. I wasn't in the mood for happy-go-lucky friends, in fact i wasn't in the mood for anything. I entered the school, everyone was staring at me. I wondered why.
I ignored them and continued to walk.
And then it happened, i was pushed into the boys bathroom. Someone knocked me to the ground, i didn't say anything. I looked up and was shocked by what i saw.
"Hey there! Did ya miss me?" he said, smiling evilly at me. His blond hair falling over his eyes. It was him, it was Jiyong. "What are you doing here?" i asked, my voice high. I was confused and scared. He was here with me, we were alone. I didn't know what he could do to hurt me, he had a lot of options. After all, he was creative.
"I'm here for school silly" he said, placing his skinny hands on his hips. He was smiling at me, flashing his perfect white teeth at me. "What do you want from me?" i whispered, looking down to the floor. My heart was racing, i was afraid. I felt him stare.
"Get up" he said, his voice demanding.
I did what he told me, i got up. He pushed me into one of the stalls, he locked the door behind him. He pulled me by my collar. He crashed his lips against mine. I didn't know how to react, should i push him away? Or just stay completely still till it was over? I quickly picked the second one. His skinny fingers trailed along my jawline. He tasted of cigarettes and something sweet i couldn't quite place. Like honey and lemons. I wondered what i tasted like to him. He pulled away to look at me, i felt cold the second his lips left mine. I immediately wanted more, it was like the taste of him had me craving for more. He smirked.
He got down on his knees, i only stared. He unbuckled my belt and pulled my pants down to my knees. I had to look away. I let out a shaky breath as he flicked his tongue over the head of my member. "Stop" i said, begged him. He didn't listen to me. "You're big" he whispered, i couldn't look at him. I felt the sticky feeling again, it was creeping in the back of my mind. Slowly seeping in. "Stop it" i growled this time as i pulled him up by his collar. I pushed him against the wall, he didn't flinch. "You like it rough huh Seungri?" he taunted. "I said stop it" i nearly yelled, i realized that people might hear us. He pouted, and almost immediately i felt sorry. He pushed me back, "I'm going to do it, whether you like it or not" he said, as he got down his knees again. I gulped, frightened by what he might have done to me for pushing him. Disobeying him.
"You're hard, are you turned on by me?" he taunted again, flicking his tongue over the head of my member. I let out a small moan, unwanted pleasure pulsed through me. He put my member into his mouth and i couldn't hold it in. I let out a moan.
"Seungri? Is that you?" It was Daesung. Shit, i mouthed to Jiyong. But he continued. I rolled my head backward and held back a moan, i shot a death glare at Jiyong. He only smirked. "Yeah, it's me" i said, my voice shaky. "What are you doing?" he asked, what the hell? I was in a bathroom stall what else could i be doing? "Dae...now is not a good time to talk" i said.
"Oh right, well see you in class. Don't be too late" he said, his voice full of concern. He seemed to have left. "Ji, let's not do this here" i whispered to him, afraid that there might be people inside the bathroom. He didn't even look at me, he continued to do what he was doing.
He didn't stop until i released into his mouth. I had managed to stay quiet, letting out small moans instead of loud ones. He stood up as be wiped his mouth with the sleeve of his shirt. "Let's go" he said, his voice barely a whisper. I pulled up my pants.
"Ji...I‒" my voice trailed off, he placed his arms around my neck. He pressed his lips against mine. I hesitated but placed my hands at his waist.
* * *
Everyone stared as i entered the class. "Glad you could join us Seunghyun" said Hyori, pushing her glasses back. I hated when people called me Seunghyun"I'm sorry, i was...Busy" i said, slightly bowing at her. "Whatever, go sit down" she said, sending me towards the back. I walked towards my seat, which was next to CL's. Her jaw dropped as she saw me coming her way. I sat down and placed my textbooks on the desk, i sighed. I turned to face her.
"What the heck happened to you?" she asked, her eyes trailing along my neck. I groaned. "Don't ask." i said. CL was sort of like my best friend, i knew her since kindergarten, lived next to her. "They are purple" she commented, her jaw still low. She seemed somewhat amazed and sort of disgusted.
"Are they that noticeable?" i asked, whispered. Everyone was still staring.
She nodded, as she turned her attention to the board. She wrote down what Hyori wrote on the black board.
I opened my textbook, looking for the page we were working on.
"Hey everybody, can i have your attention?" i heard a male voice say, i looked up. It was the principal.
"Everyone this is Kwon Jiyong, he's a new student" he said, as Jiyong walked in.
Everyone gasped as they looked between me and Jiyong. I felt stupid, the marks on his neck were dark as mine. Very bold and noticeable. He grinned. "Nice to meet everyone" said Jiyong, waving at everyone.
* * *
"Who is that?" he texted.
"CL" was my reply.
"I want you to fuck her".
I didn't know what to say.