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Summary: a short drabble… Sirius' POV, it's set after the 3rd book when he's on the run with Buckbeak…. Just something that poured out – hope you like!
All Alone
They're after me again.
I can feel their eyes on my back as I traverse the open distance between tree and rock, will I ever be free?
I know there are people rooting for me but somehow it all becomes so insignificant when I'm alone here in the dark.
It's when I'm alone like this that all the questions come,
"does anyone love me, believe in me? Is there a reason for me to exist?"
It's when I'm alone that I truly feel the weight of the darkness all around me, pressing me in from all sides…
Somehow I make it through; just one more day is mine.
They tell me, 'just think of us when times get tough – remember that we care.'
They don't understand that it's easy to remember the words but that the feelings behind them are much too easily erased.
It's for their sakes that I put on a smile and start cracking jokes though inside I know that it'll never help because out there, where they're chasing me, I will always be alone.
When I was little would always say to me, "come on, be a man!"
I'd like to ask them now if they could know me, see what I have seen,
"Am I man enough now, Mother? Am I something to be proud of, to be awarded the honor of being called son? Have I earned the right to bear our name?"
I used to care what they all though. Not anymore.
The darkness taught me that.
The truth is that when they're chasing you, you really are all alone.
You could be voted the most popular in the class, have been told that you were the smartest in the whole school.
In the end it's only your opinion that'll matter, because in the darkness,
you really are all alone.
Well, that's it then…. Please review so you can tell me what you thought….
Cheers!
Andi