Summary: Syaoran Li returns after 5 long years, but then notices that he
missed almost too much in his life in Tomeoda. But when he goes to talk to
Sakura... he realizes that he missed everything. (warning. Contains suicide
and eating disorders.)
Disclaimer: I have no ownership of CCS. If I did it would probably end up being a soap. CLAMP owns CCS, not me. Don't sue because I have no cash.
Rating: PG-13, only because it includes severe angst and health problems. You'll see.
Kero: Can I have a pudding? Me: Shut up, we have to get on with the story... Kero: Maybe later then!
OH YEAH!
'words' = thoughts "words" = talking words = me rambling
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Sakura Kinomoto, age 16 walked down the block as rain began to fall. 'Damn, I forgot my umbrella again. Why is it always ME?' She skated faster towards the school, almost slipping once or twice.
"Sakura you're late again. What did I tell you about being late?" The principal said to her.
"Not to be, I know!" Sakura ran into homeroom yelling I'm here and sat down.
The principal turned to where the young girl had just run into and sighed. 'That poor thing, she'll die if she doesn't put just a little bit more weight on.'
-Back in Homeroom-
"As I was saying before," The teacher shot a nasty look over to Sakura. "We have a new student with us today. Everyone please welcome Li Syaoran." Sakura propped herself up on her desk slightly and smiled.
Tomoyo looked over amazed, 'She's... smiling... she really missed him didn't she?' She glanced to the empty desk next to her and sighed, 'I wish he'd come back to me. I miss him too.'
"Hey Sakura-chan," He whispered to her as he passed. Her smiled widened to go ear to ear. "Hey Syaoron-kun." She turned around to him. "I missed you."
"Sakura Kinomoto what are you doing?" The teacher yelled.
"I asked her to show me around the school, she was just telling me that she would, its nothing TOO horrible." Sakura turned to face Syaoron, his eyes were cold as ice again. She shook slightly as she turned back, and the class went on.
The class ended and Sakura walked out into the hallway, Syaoron came up behind her and gave her a hug. 'Wow, she's thinner than I remember...' Sakura turned around and smiled.
"Hey Sakura!" Tomoyo yelled down the hallway, "Its LUNCH time! Let's go!" Sakura grabbed Syaoron's hand and ran down to Tomoyo and out to lunch. No trust me it won't be all mush, mush. Sakura's got a bad attitude.
Sakura, Tomoyo, Chiharu, Takashi, Rika, and Syaoron all sat on the ground under an evergreen tree. Each of them had a lunch but Sakura; Tomoyo looked over at her and stared as if she was talking.
"I forgot it alright?" Sakura muttered.
"That's the tenth time this... Sakura, what's going on?" The small group all stared at Sakura. Tomoyo was right, Sakura had changed, her style and habits. Her clothing had gone from simple and slightly tight, to extremely loose. She had barely eaten anything in the past month and she was rarely on time anymore.
"I... Tell the teacher I went home because my father picked me up, ok Tomoyo-chan?" Sakura's eyes had tears threatening to overflow.
"You need to get help Sakura-chan... please, for me." Tomoyo said softly to her. Sakura walked off school grounds, and headed home. Tomoyo sat there amazed by Sakura's actions.
The end of the day neared and the school was dismissed. Everyone went their separate ways, Syaoron to soccer, Tomoyo to the video taping club and everyone else home. I'm SO sorry, I don't know what everyone likes to do.
Syaoron walked out of the guy's locker room and glanced at the cheerleaders. He noted that Sakura had come back and was in uniform.
Flashback
"F-I-G-H-T, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight those knights yea, F-I-G-H-T, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight those knights, They won't know what hit 'em, So go on team let's beat them!"
Sakura was a foot on one of the mounts, holding up another girl. Syaoron smiled at her as the mount fell back to the ground.
End Flashback
She was up in the mount now, she had never been up in the mount. This is Hentai free... don't even think of nasty stuff He looked at her, her legs were thin as sticks, her figure had filled out, but you could practically see her bones.
The game ended, 20-15 home. The cheerleaders were listening to Sakura, "Let's do the routine for the competition next week, okay?" There was a flurry of arrangement and the cheerleaders were dancing to their own beat.
After their practice, Syaoron met Sakura at the front gates. She remained in uniform until she got to the house. "Sakura, listen to me."
"If you're going to lecture me about how damn thin I am, I'm leaving. Tomoyo-chan already has tried this. Now go ahead, run to Tomoyo behind my back and ask her what happened. SHE doesn't even know." Sakura spat. She ran down the block to her house for the second time that day.
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"Is Tomoyo there?"
"Yes sir, I'll get here immediately." The man got off the phone and put Tomoyo on.
"Moshi, Moshi?" said Tomoyo.
"Hello?"
"Tomoyo speaking, who's this?"
"One guess..."
"Syaoron?"
"Wow, you forgot me that quick?"
"ERIOL?!" Eriol jumped on his side of the line and held the phone a foot away from his ear. "OH MY GOSH! HOW ARE YOU DOING?!"
"I'm alright thank you, and you?"
"I'm fine, Syaoron's here, Sakura's dying, everyone else is fine." She smiled.
"I'm here in Japan, do you want me to come talk to her?"
"No, you can talk to Syaoron and me though!"
"Now?" He questioned.
"Later, but its important, and Syaoron and you need to know. I got to get goin' I have outfits to make!"
"Ja ne Tomoyo!"
"Ja!"
Tomoyo twirled around her room, squealing happily. 'He's home.' Was all she could think for the afternoon.
WolfLi has come into the chat. MagicDude has entered this chat. StylinClothin4lyf has entered this chat.
StylinClothin4lyf: Hey!
WolfLi: Hey
MagicDude: Yo.
StylinClothin4lyf: Im worried about Sakura
MagicDude: Wuts up wit her?
WolfLi: Did I miss sumthin?
StylinClothin4lyf: Shez lik anorexic or sth
MagicDude: WHAT?
WolfLi: Thats not funy Tomo
StylinClothin4lyf: No kiddin Li
WolfLi: So she lost weight... wuts ur point
StylinClothin4lyf: Excuse me but u think 70 pounds is alright for a 16 yr old?????
MagicDude: 70?!
MagicDude: Uhh did she evr think of getin help??
WolfLi: Lemme guess... thats wut were here 4 rite?????
StylinClothin4lyf: Yep. But this iznt like her shez usualy cookin food 4 us... 6 mos ago she stopped eating entirely
MagicDude: Why 6 mos ago
WolfLi: Ileftsixyearsago
StylinClothin4lyf: Her father died...
WolfLi: And Touya?
StylinClothin4lyf: Still at home... rarely hez in college
MagicDude: Ah damn fones ringin gtg!
MagicDude has left the chat.
StylinClothin4lyf: Im scared, she wuz neva like dis...................... now shez close 2 dyin
WolfLi: Shit... I shoulda been here soonr... Im goin 2 talk to her now...
StylinClothin4lyf: LI NO!
WolfLi has left the chat.
StylinClothin4lyf: damn...
He walked up the path to her door with his hands in his pockets. 'Sakura if you are really that way, you've lost me.' He thought as he rang the doorbell.
"COMING!" a voice rang from inside the house. The door opened revealing Sakura in a short dress. "Yes, how may I help you?" Her voice was defiant.
"Anorexic? Is that what you've become? Wow. Deal with your problems better. When you want to talk, call me. If you don't call, then that just sucks. Because if you gave up hope, then your friends did too. See ya Sakura." She stared at his back as he walked off.
"It's not your fault." She piped up suddenly. "Not entirely at least."
"Oh really?" Suddenly Syaoron was interested in this conversation, and sat down on the porch. Sakura sat down next to him, and then crossed her legs.
"Its more my fault than anything. Depression drove me. You see, what happened first is you left me. Then they kicked me off of the squad because I missed a few practices. Then," she suddenly choked. "My father died in a car crash five years ago," and she paused, "today."
A tear fell down her pale, gaunt face. "And I just didn't know who to turn to. Tomoyo was too busy with Eriol, and you weren't able to contact me. So I dealt with it my own way. And I know I sound so stupid saying this because.... it sounds so pointless now."
"Then go back... eat something!" He almost yelled, but restrained himself. Only in fear of scaring her away.
"You don't get it do you?" she spat. "It's not that easy!"
"What do you mean?"
"I lost half of my closest friends. The team accepted me again, and I'm still stuck in friggin' 'gothic anorexic girl' status. No one wants to be around me anymore," her eyes glittered with tears. "Its sort of like they'll catch the anorexia disease as everyone calls it. I miss being around all the people that loved me. They all dissed me out and went on with the preps."
"You haven't lost me." He said quietly, hoping that she would realize what he was saying.
"Yes I have. I lost you a long time ago. The day you left and got together with that blonde bimbo slut." A tear streamed down her face now, Syaoron flinched.
"Publicity. That's all it was Sakura."
She dug into her bag next to her and pulled out a packet of pictures. She found a newspaper clipping and shoved it into his face.
"THIS is publicity? You're half naked and you call this publicity? You think I sunk low. Like I said Syaoron... you lost me." She ran into her house and slammed the door.
"Shit." Was the only phrase Syaoron could say after that.
StylinClothin4lyf has entered the chat. MagicDude has entered the chat. WolfLi has entered the chat.
MagicDude: Tomo... I love you!!
StylinClothin4lyf: I love you too Eri! :-!
WolfLi: Cut the crap. Mush junk sux.
MagicDude: sry cute descendant.
StylinClothin4lyf: and?
WolfLi: shes po-ed and me.
MagicDude: y did u go over 2 her house neway?
WolfLi: cuz shes my friend, n I luv her...
Cherryblossoms41985 has entered the chat
StylinClothin4lyf: seriously li, get ova urself and talk to her
Cherryblossoms41985: damn. Tomo. If u invited him im outta here
StylinClothin4lyf: sakura... listen we love you.
Cherryblossoms41985: you and eri. Dumbass loves bimbo in HK
WolfLi: That's NOT TRUE
MagicDude: sry... I got hungry
Cherryblossoms41985: lystn, if ur gonna lecture me again... im outta here
WolfLi: I dun wanna lecture u... I 3 u sakura
Cherryblossoms41985: ya rite n saki is blue... killin myself is fine wit me. Touya doesn't care
Cherryblossoms41985: hes too caught up in his life wit yuki in college so if I die, cards go to li...
Stylinclothin4lyf: sakura...
Cherryblossoms41985: ew... I dun feel well... leavin
WolfLi: Sakura?
MagicDude: wha did I miss?
Stylinclothin4lyf: she didn't leave
Stylinclothin4lyf: im gonna go check on her... bbl sayonara!
Stylinclothin4lyf has left the chat.
Tomoyo didn't even try to call a driver. She put on her white tennis shoes and ran ten blocks. When Tomoyo arrived at Sakura's house she was parched and out of breath. Still, she banged on the door furiously to get Sakura's attention.
"SAKURA!" she screamed. "SAKURA OPEN THE DOOR!"
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Sakura had sunk to the floor with tears in her eyes and a butter knife in hand. "I'm so sorry Tomoyo. I'll miss you." The last thing Sakura saw was her reflection in the mirror, the last she heard was Tomoyo sobbing.
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Tomoyo's walk home was slow and dread filled. She didn't want to say that Sakura was dead, nor did the want the group to believe she was alive. As she walked she hear sirens blaring and speeding down to Sakura's house. This only caused more pain and she fell to the ground full out sobbing. 'I wish I could have stopped you Sakura.'
Syaoron and Eriol had come running and passed Tomoyo, but walked back to her. "I hate her. She killed herself because of me and her stupid brother." Her words were silent, but you could tell it was all because she was upset.
Syaoron's face paled. "She killed herself?"
All Tomoyo could do was nod as Eriol held her gently.
Disclaimer: I have no ownership of CCS. If I did it would probably end up being a soap. CLAMP owns CCS, not me. Don't sue because I have no cash.
Rating: PG-13, only because it includes severe angst and health problems. You'll see.
Kero: Can I have a pudding? Me: Shut up, we have to get on with the story... Kero: Maybe later then!
OH YEAH!
'words' = thoughts "words" = talking words = me rambling
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Sakura Kinomoto, age 16 walked down the block as rain began to fall. 'Damn, I forgot my umbrella again. Why is it always ME?' She skated faster towards the school, almost slipping once or twice.
"Sakura you're late again. What did I tell you about being late?" The principal said to her.
"Not to be, I know!" Sakura ran into homeroom yelling I'm here and sat down.
The principal turned to where the young girl had just run into and sighed. 'That poor thing, she'll die if she doesn't put just a little bit more weight on.'
-Back in Homeroom-
"As I was saying before," The teacher shot a nasty look over to Sakura. "We have a new student with us today. Everyone please welcome Li Syaoran." Sakura propped herself up on her desk slightly and smiled.
Tomoyo looked over amazed, 'She's... smiling... she really missed him didn't she?' She glanced to the empty desk next to her and sighed, 'I wish he'd come back to me. I miss him too.'
"Hey Sakura-chan," He whispered to her as he passed. Her smiled widened to go ear to ear. "Hey Syaoron-kun." She turned around to him. "I missed you."
"Sakura Kinomoto what are you doing?" The teacher yelled.
"I asked her to show me around the school, she was just telling me that she would, its nothing TOO horrible." Sakura turned to face Syaoron, his eyes were cold as ice again. She shook slightly as she turned back, and the class went on.
The class ended and Sakura walked out into the hallway, Syaoron came up behind her and gave her a hug. 'Wow, she's thinner than I remember...' Sakura turned around and smiled.
"Hey Sakura!" Tomoyo yelled down the hallway, "Its LUNCH time! Let's go!" Sakura grabbed Syaoron's hand and ran down to Tomoyo and out to lunch. No trust me it won't be all mush, mush. Sakura's got a bad attitude.
Sakura, Tomoyo, Chiharu, Takashi, Rika, and Syaoron all sat on the ground under an evergreen tree. Each of them had a lunch but Sakura; Tomoyo looked over at her and stared as if she was talking.
"I forgot it alright?" Sakura muttered.
"That's the tenth time this... Sakura, what's going on?" The small group all stared at Sakura. Tomoyo was right, Sakura had changed, her style and habits. Her clothing had gone from simple and slightly tight, to extremely loose. She had barely eaten anything in the past month and she was rarely on time anymore.
"I... Tell the teacher I went home because my father picked me up, ok Tomoyo-chan?" Sakura's eyes had tears threatening to overflow.
"You need to get help Sakura-chan... please, for me." Tomoyo said softly to her. Sakura walked off school grounds, and headed home. Tomoyo sat there amazed by Sakura's actions.
The end of the day neared and the school was dismissed. Everyone went their separate ways, Syaoron to soccer, Tomoyo to the video taping club and everyone else home. I'm SO sorry, I don't know what everyone likes to do.
Syaoron walked out of the guy's locker room and glanced at the cheerleaders. He noted that Sakura had come back and was in uniform.
Flashback
"F-I-G-H-T, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight those knights yea, F-I-G-H-T, fight, fight, fight, fight, fight those knights, They won't know what hit 'em, So go on team let's beat them!"
Sakura was a foot on one of the mounts, holding up another girl. Syaoron smiled at her as the mount fell back to the ground.
End Flashback
She was up in the mount now, she had never been up in the mount. This is Hentai free... don't even think of nasty stuff He looked at her, her legs were thin as sticks, her figure had filled out, but you could practically see her bones.
The game ended, 20-15 home. The cheerleaders were listening to Sakura, "Let's do the routine for the competition next week, okay?" There was a flurry of arrangement and the cheerleaders were dancing to their own beat.
After their practice, Syaoron met Sakura at the front gates. She remained in uniform until she got to the house. "Sakura, listen to me."
"If you're going to lecture me about how damn thin I am, I'm leaving. Tomoyo-chan already has tried this. Now go ahead, run to Tomoyo behind my back and ask her what happened. SHE doesn't even know." Sakura spat. She ran down the block to her house for the second time that day.
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"Is Tomoyo there?"
"Yes sir, I'll get here immediately." The man got off the phone and put Tomoyo on.
"Moshi, Moshi?" said Tomoyo.
"Hello?"
"Tomoyo speaking, who's this?"
"One guess..."
"Syaoron?"
"Wow, you forgot me that quick?"
"ERIOL?!" Eriol jumped on his side of the line and held the phone a foot away from his ear. "OH MY GOSH! HOW ARE YOU DOING?!"
"I'm alright thank you, and you?"
"I'm fine, Syaoron's here, Sakura's dying, everyone else is fine." She smiled.
"I'm here in Japan, do you want me to come talk to her?"
"No, you can talk to Syaoron and me though!"
"Now?" He questioned.
"Later, but its important, and Syaoron and you need to know. I got to get goin' I have outfits to make!"
"Ja ne Tomoyo!"
"Ja!"
Tomoyo twirled around her room, squealing happily. 'He's home.' Was all she could think for the afternoon.
WolfLi has come into the chat. MagicDude has entered this chat. StylinClothin4lyf has entered this chat.
StylinClothin4lyf: Hey!
WolfLi: Hey
MagicDude: Yo.
StylinClothin4lyf: Im worried about Sakura
MagicDude: Wuts up wit her?
WolfLi: Did I miss sumthin?
StylinClothin4lyf: Shez lik anorexic or sth
MagicDude: WHAT?
WolfLi: Thats not funy Tomo
StylinClothin4lyf: No kiddin Li
WolfLi: So she lost weight... wuts ur point
StylinClothin4lyf: Excuse me but u think 70 pounds is alright for a 16 yr old?????
MagicDude: 70?!
MagicDude: Uhh did she evr think of getin help??
WolfLi: Lemme guess... thats wut were here 4 rite?????
StylinClothin4lyf: Yep. But this iznt like her shez usualy cookin food 4 us... 6 mos ago she stopped eating entirely
MagicDude: Why 6 mos ago
WolfLi: Ileftsixyearsago
StylinClothin4lyf: Her father died...
WolfLi: And Touya?
StylinClothin4lyf: Still at home... rarely hez in college
MagicDude: Ah damn fones ringin gtg!
MagicDude has left the chat.
StylinClothin4lyf: Im scared, she wuz neva like dis...................... now shez close 2 dyin
WolfLi: Shit... I shoulda been here soonr... Im goin 2 talk to her now...
StylinClothin4lyf: LI NO!
WolfLi has left the chat.
StylinClothin4lyf: damn...
He walked up the path to her door with his hands in his pockets. 'Sakura if you are really that way, you've lost me.' He thought as he rang the doorbell.
"COMING!" a voice rang from inside the house. The door opened revealing Sakura in a short dress. "Yes, how may I help you?" Her voice was defiant.
"Anorexic? Is that what you've become? Wow. Deal with your problems better. When you want to talk, call me. If you don't call, then that just sucks. Because if you gave up hope, then your friends did too. See ya Sakura." She stared at his back as he walked off.
"It's not your fault." She piped up suddenly. "Not entirely at least."
"Oh really?" Suddenly Syaoron was interested in this conversation, and sat down on the porch. Sakura sat down next to him, and then crossed her legs.
"Its more my fault than anything. Depression drove me. You see, what happened first is you left me. Then they kicked me off of the squad because I missed a few practices. Then," she suddenly choked. "My father died in a car crash five years ago," and she paused, "today."
A tear fell down her pale, gaunt face. "And I just didn't know who to turn to. Tomoyo was too busy with Eriol, and you weren't able to contact me. So I dealt with it my own way. And I know I sound so stupid saying this because.... it sounds so pointless now."
"Then go back... eat something!" He almost yelled, but restrained himself. Only in fear of scaring her away.
"You don't get it do you?" she spat. "It's not that easy!"
"What do you mean?"
"I lost half of my closest friends. The team accepted me again, and I'm still stuck in friggin' 'gothic anorexic girl' status. No one wants to be around me anymore," her eyes glittered with tears. "Its sort of like they'll catch the anorexia disease as everyone calls it. I miss being around all the people that loved me. They all dissed me out and went on with the preps."
"You haven't lost me." He said quietly, hoping that she would realize what he was saying.
"Yes I have. I lost you a long time ago. The day you left and got together with that blonde bimbo slut." A tear streamed down her face now, Syaoron flinched.
"Publicity. That's all it was Sakura."
She dug into her bag next to her and pulled out a packet of pictures. She found a newspaper clipping and shoved it into his face.
"THIS is publicity? You're half naked and you call this publicity? You think I sunk low. Like I said Syaoron... you lost me." She ran into her house and slammed the door.
"Shit." Was the only phrase Syaoron could say after that.
StylinClothin4lyf has entered the chat. MagicDude has entered the chat. WolfLi has entered the chat.
MagicDude: Tomo... I love you!!
StylinClothin4lyf: I love you too Eri! :-!
WolfLi: Cut the crap. Mush junk sux.
MagicDude: sry cute descendant.
StylinClothin4lyf: and?
WolfLi: shes po-ed and me.
MagicDude: y did u go over 2 her house neway?
WolfLi: cuz shes my friend, n I luv her...
Cherryblossoms41985 has entered the chat
StylinClothin4lyf: seriously li, get ova urself and talk to her
Cherryblossoms41985: damn. Tomo. If u invited him im outta here
StylinClothin4lyf: sakura... listen we love you.
Cherryblossoms41985: you and eri. Dumbass loves bimbo in HK
WolfLi: That's NOT TRUE
MagicDude: sry... I got hungry
Cherryblossoms41985: lystn, if ur gonna lecture me again... im outta here
WolfLi: I dun wanna lecture u... I 3 u sakura
Cherryblossoms41985: ya rite n saki is blue... killin myself is fine wit me. Touya doesn't care
Cherryblossoms41985: hes too caught up in his life wit yuki in college so if I die, cards go to li...
Stylinclothin4lyf: sakura...
Cherryblossoms41985: ew... I dun feel well... leavin
WolfLi: Sakura?
MagicDude: wha did I miss?
Stylinclothin4lyf: she didn't leave
Stylinclothin4lyf: im gonna go check on her... bbl sayonara!
Stylinclothin4lyf has left the chat.
Tomoyo didn't even try to call a driver. She put on her white tennis shoes and ran ten blocks. When Tomoyo arrived at Sakura's house she was parched and out of breath. Still, she banged on the door furiously to get Sakura's attention.
"SAKURA!" she screamed. "SAKURA OPEN THE DOOR!"
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Sakura had sunk to the floor with tears in her eyes and a butter knife in hand. "I'm so sorry Tomoyo. I'll miss you." The last thing Sakura saw was her reflection in the mirror, the last she heard was Tomoyo sobbing.
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Tomoyo's walk home was slow and dread filled. She didn't want to say that Sakura was dead, nor did the want the group to believe she was alive. As she walked she hear sirens blaring and speeding down to Sakura's house. This only caused more pain and she fell to the ground full out sobbing. 'I wish I could have stopped you Sakura.'
Syaoron and Eriol had come running and passed Tomoyo, but walked back to her. "I hate her. She killed herself because of me and her stupid brother." Her words were silent, but you could tell it was all because she was upset.
Syaoron's face paled. "She killed herself?"
All Tomoyo could do was nod as Eriol held her gently.