SO FINALLY... THIS IS THE MUCH ANTICIPATED SEQUEL TO "A SHADOW OF YOU" I HOPE I DID THIS JUSTICE
disclaimer: i do not own the show, but i think even if i did i would entertain myself with writing little fics just for you hehe
"Shine On" by Rascal Flatts I was lost in darkness and sinking sand Shine on, shine on, shine on me Lord knows that I'm not perfect but I sure do try Shine on, shine on, shine on me Shine on (let your love shine) Shine on, shine on, shine on me Shine on, shine on, shine on me
Well I was barely nothing, a broken man
But you picked up the pieces of my heart in your hand
Then you came and showed to me love's second chance
Whenever something's missing
You're exactly what I need
Your love has shown me the light and now I finally see
So shine on, shine on, shine on me, yeah
And I see the man that I can be in your eyes
Well there are times I still get lost in yesterday
But you put the past behind me and you light my way
Whenever something's missing
You're exactly what I need
Your love has shown me the light and now I finally see
So shine on, shine on, shine on me, yeah
Shine on (on me)
Shine all your love on me, yeah
(Your love on me)
Shine all your love on me, yeah
Whenever something's missing
You're exactly what I need
Your love has shown me the light and now I finally see
So shine on, shine on, shine on me, yeah
Won't you keep on shining, yeah
Won't you keep on shining your love
Down on me, baby
Won`t you keep on shining, yeah
Won`t you keep on shining your love
Yeah, you're exactly what I need, baby
Yeah, you are
If there were ever a moment that Derek Shepherd prayed, this would be one of those moments. He had no idea how he had managed to sit through the surgery, watching his sister work on his fiancé in a way that he never thought would be needed.
She had worked meticulously, her eyes staying completely focused, and her head in the zone. He knew that she was good. He had seen her operate a thousand times before, but this time had been different, and they both had known.
Derek looked up at the Statue of Jesus Christ that stood in the centre of the church. His eyes seeing it, but also not, in a way that he had never considered before. He had never contemplated returning to the church, or even returning to his faith. From the moment he had heard of his fathers death, he had hated god, and everything his church had represented, and now, to be standing in one again, praying to God that he will be forgiven and that Meredith and their child would come through this strongly, he found in himself, a forgotten strength.
He moved away from the aisle, and took up position in a pew, just thinking that if he sits a moment, and lets the world stop, that maybe everything that was happening would just stop, and fall back into place.
He had no idea how long he had already been here. He knew that he had been there from the moment his sister had announced that it was time to close. At that stage the heart monitor was beeping softly, as was the foetal monitor that had been watched under the careful eyes of Addison. Still though, time had drifted slowly, and he knew that he just needed to sit. He needed to sit and pray, and hope that God would not rip away another thing that he had loved so much. He needed to know that this was not going to be another way for God to punish him for whatever sins he may have committed in the past. He need to know that they would live. That the child that he had conceived with the love of his life would remain safe in his fiancé's womb and that she too would stay safe, her heart beating, fixed in a way that couldn't be described.
He knew that if everything went well and that if Meredith pulled through that he would be quick to rush her down the aisle wanting to make sure that he could call her his wife, not wanting anything more than that for the moment, but also he knew that there would be no thanks he could give that would be suffice to his sister for saving his world, his family, his life.
Bowing his head, he closed his eyes, and cupped his hands as he began to pray.