I've longed for him. I've prayed for him. And I will continue to do anything just to see a content smile on his face. My name? Sophie. His name? Andrew. It all started when we met on tinder. Very pathetic, if you ask me. But that does not matter now for I am his and he is mine. I'd introduce him to my friends online and they'd silently message each other as if to show approval on our relationship. The only problem, though, is we're miles away. Cliché? Maybe. I don't care, really. We'd talk for hours and hours about sweet and sour. He'd tell me all his hobbies like doing Ed Sheeran, at least that's what he says; and I'd tell him all of my desires and problems and he'd comfort me as if he is beside me holding my hand at the park.
It's been 2 years and I know that this relationship is not at its climax yet. A very long way to go. He'd hang out with his new-found friends and I'd tag along. He is everything to me, yet I, a stupid white girl, have never said the L-word yet to him when he's said it a billion times. What can I do? Is this the right decision to make? Is this what my heart truly desires badly that it would make my knees very weak even when he's not beside me? I love the feeling, but I don't know if I love him. I would sometimes ask my Filipino friend, Christopher, for tips since I believe that he is experienced with love. He would sometimes reply with, "Just be yourself. Know the answer." and I've found that to be really annoying. Despite the stupidity of his answer, I reply with, "Thanks, you helped a lot." with a genuine smile on my face. I know that I have to say it to him one day. One day, I shall stand up from this park bench and tell the whole world, "I LOVE ANDREW.", I accidentally shout in my room, enough for my family to hear.
After that awkward talk with my family and "convincing" that I was just practicing for a play, I go straight to Skype and PM him, "Hey." Knowing the time, he's probably asleep right now. To say that I was surprised to see him reply was an understatement. "Hey.", he says. I was breathing heavily. With a sigh, I reply, "Andy, I have to say something." He immediately replies with, "That what? You're cheating on me? Yeah, I know, It's okay, I've been cheating on you with your friend Christopher too. ^-^"
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