A/n:
In light of the today's chapter 449 of FT titled 'Zeref and Mavis', I decided to write my own version of what may have happened. I hope you like this four part story.

Choice

Summary: By the time I make that choice... I didn't think I'd fall hard for one more person… ZerVis

Part 1

Zeref

'You've been here all along?'

To a person who worried about a stranger like me…

'Aren't you lonely?'

To a person who cared for me…

'It's okay. You can touch them'

To a person who made me feel the warmth of a touch…

'You have very kind eyes and I don't believe those rumours'

To a person who said such kind words to me despite knowing that I was the most feared black wizard of all times….

What did I leave?

'You used Rou?!'

What did I do?

'It's not that you've stopped growing…. You've become an immortal, just like I am…'

What did I ask?

'Have you chosen what kind of lives you will be taking… at your own discretion of course?'

What did I say?

'You don't know the true meaning behind taking a life. And once you find out, everyone around you will disappear'

To a person who believed in me…

To a person who thought 'I was a good man' unlike what the rumours said…

I left her with three things: heartbreak, tears and a choice…

I caused her heartbreak by revealing the true nature of the person I am…

I'm the reason for her tears she had been shedding since she found out about the curse I inflicted upon her.

I left her with an impossible choice she would never want to make – the option to choose who to kill.

It must've been hard for her to hear me say all those nasty words. She ran away as soon as I was finished with what I had to tell her.

They must have crushed whatever trust she had in me. She must have been devastated with the new revelations she had to have.

I was sure of one thing though- things probably won't be the same ever again.

She probably won't ever run to me again or try to make me happy. Neither would she hug me in her happiness.

She might never even come near me out of fear that I'd bring her other misfortunes.

It however doesn't bother me…

It's no big deal to me. She is just like any other human…

I always wondered how she was different from others. She made me do things which I otherwise wouldn't have done. Teaching her and her bunch of friends magic when I couldn't even be near them. It always bothered me. It bugged me how she pulled off such impossible things out of me. Yet she was ordinary… just like any other human being.

No matter how ordinary she is, she is still a human being which I can't kill… An immortal… to put it in a different way, someone belonging to the same species as me…

That's why she can come near me, hug me, stand beside me or sit close to me… I was surprised when she did all those things- to a point I could've believed my curse has ended. When she revealed about the usage of 'Rou', everything fell into place… She had potential… She could be the only person I can touch or be near….

'So it's true… you've always had it in you… the power to walk alongside me'

To such a person who was now capable of being the only friend I can have…

What choice did I leave?

What choice will she make?

What outcome will she choose?

A smile formed on my lips. She was running away. It was like watching myself in the mirror when I first discovered the curse. I was in denial. I couldn't understand what happened. Everywhere I went, people, plants, animals or anything living was stolen of its life force. I didn't figure out things until a few years and when I did, nothing was left that would come near me. People began running away from me. They feared me yet a few idiots desired my power- they wanted my curse. But they didn't know they were asking for hell right away.

She was going through a similar phase. Instead of her learning over a long time, it was better I tell her what was going to happen. We might save a few lives in this process than the actual damage would be. After all, I know how precious a life is. I bet she does too… But she still has a lot to learn about it…

So, I smile. I can't deny that I'm not happy. After all, I can have a companion in this eternal journey.

But seeing this world for who knows how long….

I somehow am sad thinking of all the pain she needs to go through in the distant future…

Eternal life isn't something you should wish for, even if in a dream. It is just a life shrouded with sorrow and lined with pain. The clouds that are cast upon it are so thick that one can't see the silver lining everyone claims to be present…

But that isn't even the worst part.

The worst part is…

I never intended for it to turn out like this…

I never thought this would kill her this way…

If I did… I wouldn't have taught her magic at all 10 years ago.

A/n: Any thoughts? Do you like it? Well, you may say nothing happened in this part... It was basically Zeref reflecting on his thoughts and words... But expect something in the next part.

Anyone wants to share their thoughts on ZerVis in today's chapter. I'm open for a chat. I was so happy to see the whole chapter full of Zeref and Mavis. My heart stil flutters thinking about it.

But I hope you did enjoy the manga chapter too... if you neglect my ramblings here.

Bye. I've gotta sleep. A class early in the morning... *yawns* *I don't wanna go*