A/N: Tis me! Sorry about the next Mafia chapter taking so long, I'm a bit low on inspiration. So to make up for it, I give you all some angsty Stannen!


Gannen has to keep busy. If he doesn't, his mind will wander. And it always wanders back to the same person.

Steve.

He shouldn't have fallen for him. Steve had been cruel, ruthless, and in all honesty, absolutely insane. But for some reason he loved him anyways. He'd never understand why. He was supposed to be his protector, and nothing more. But even now, when he closed his eyes, he would still envision Steve in his mind. Why his both his mind and heart had decided to torment him like this, he'd never know.

He remembers when they had pulled his body out of that damned river. He should've been happy. The war was over, and the Lord that ignored every rule, every code of honor they had was dead. And yet he could only stand there, berating himself for failing him. He was supposed to be his protector, damn it! He was supposed to keep him safe! That was his duty as Steve's protector.. to ensure that this didn't happened. And he failed.

So he'll do everything he can, to try and forget. Try to forget that he failed. Try to forget him. Try to keep his mind busy so those memories don't come flooding back. To try avoid looking at Darius for too long, because he looks too much like his father.

It never works. One way or another, he remembers. And no matter how much wishes he could forget, his dreams will be forever haunted by Steve. And he can't tell which hurts more. Knowing Steve will never hear his apologies for failing him, or knowing there is no way that his love made into Paradise.

A/N: What do you guys think? Am I good at angst?