Title: Pieces of a Whole
Author: alianora
Email: alia@silverspiral.net
Spoilers: S1
Summery: Michael sees Maria.
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I wonder what the others see, when they look at her? Do they see all of her? Or just pieces?
Sometimes, I wonder which is the real her.
Liz sees a life long friend, full of wacky ideas. She sees a girl who talks too much and too fast and with her hands flying around her face. For Liz, she is Stability.
I think Alex sees the girl who needs protecting. From the world, from me, maybe, I don't know. She and Liz are "his girls," and he wants to keep them that way. For Alex, she is Loyalty.
I don't really know what Max sees. He probably sees a connection to Liz, a way to monitor her life while not getting involved in it. To Max, I think she is Communication.
Isabel and Tess are harder to figure out. They see someone who does not belong, who intruded on their little world. For them, she is Outside.
Kyle is probably the one who sees her the most like I do. He's known her as long as Liz has, but I can see it in his eyes sometimes. He knows who she is. Or he thinks he does. For Kyle, she is Truth.
I see her that way too, sometimes.
I 've moved three times. And when I've gone to bed before unpacking, I know that I will wake up to find that there is cereal in the pantry and milk in the fridge. That's just the way she is. Stability.
I don't feel like running anymore. Sometimes when I look up at the sky at night, I forget what I'm searching for, because all I can think of is the glow in the dark stars she stuck on the ceiling. And I have to turn away and try to find my bearings again. Loyalty.
I don't like words. Max has never understood that. But language does not slip away from Max, he always knows just what to say. I don't. And she doesn't mind. She waits for me to find the words. And when I can't, she will just give me this smile, and I know she understands anyway.. She is my voice. Communication.
She will never fully understand who I am. I'm ok with that, mostly. But there are still times when I want to scream at her that I am not who she thinks I am. The problem is, I think I am. And sometimes I hate it. Outside.
She won't let me delude myself. Or her, for that matter. She always knows how to knock me right on my ass when I'm being stupid. She's not afraid to call me on anything she thinks I'm wrong on. Truth.
So what do the others see? They see parts of a whole, but never the big picture.
I don't think they can fully know her. Liz knows her secrets, but its me that knows her deepest fears. Alex has held her while she cried, but its me she clings to when she wakes up from a nightmare. Max talks to her, but I don't think he actually hears her until she mentions Liz's name. Tess and Isabel avoid her, but they don't know that she worries about them being alone. Kyle expects her to always be able to shrug everything off, but I've seen the Teflon mask slip, leaving her angry and frustrated and crying over something stupid that I did.
I see her as she is. I see Maria.
What do you see?
Author: alianora
Email: alia@silverspiral.net
Spoilers: S1
Summery: Michael sees Maria.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wonder what the others see, when they look at her? Do they see all of her? Or just pieces?
Sometimes, I wonder which is the real her.
Liz sees a life long friend, full of wacky ideas. She sees a girl who talks too much and too fast and with her hands flying around her face. For Liz, she is Stability.
I think Alex sees the girl who needs protecting. From the world, from me, maybe, I don't know. She and Liz are "his girls," and he wants to keep them that way. For Alex, she is Loyalty.
I don't really know what Max sees. He probably sees a connection to Liz, a way to monitor her life while not getting involved in it. To Max, I think she is Communication.
Isabel and Tess are harder to figure out. They see someone who does not belong, who intruded on their little world. For them, she is Outside.
Kyle is probably the one who sees her the most like I do. He's known her as long as Liz has, but I can see it in his eyes sometimes. He knows who she is. Or he thinks he does. For Kyle, she is Truth.
I see her that way too, sometimes.
I 've moved three times. And when I've gone to bed before unpacking, I know that I will wake up to find that there is cereal in the pantry and milk in the fridge. That's just the way she is. Stability.
I don't feel like running anymore. Sometimes when I look up at the sky at night, I forget what I'm searching for, because all I can think of is the glow in the dark stars she stuck on the ceiling. And I have to turn away and try to find my bearings again. Loyalty.
I don't like words. Max has never understood that. But language does not slip away from Max, he always knows just what to say. I don't. And she doesn't mind. She waits for me to find the words. And when I can't, she will just give me this smile, and I know she understands anyway.. She is my voice. Communication.
She will never fully understand who I am. I'm ok with that, mostly. But there are still times when I want to scream at her that I am not who she thinks I am. The problem is, I think I am. And sometimes I hate it. Outside.
She won't let me delude myself. Or her, for that matter. She always knows how to knock me right on my ass when I'm being stupid. She's not afraid to call me on anything she thinks I'm wrong on. Truth.
So what do the others see? They see parts of a whole, but never the big picture.
I don't think they can fully know her. Liz knows her secrets, but its me that knows her deepest fears. Alex has held her while she cried, but its me she clings to when she wakes up from a nightmare. Max talks to her, but I don't think he actually hears her until she mentions Liz's name. Tess and Isabel avoid her, but they don't know that she worries about them being alone. Kyle expects her to always be able to shrug everything off, but I've seen the Teflon mask slip, leaving her angry and frustrated and crying over something stupid that I did.
I see her as she is. I see Maria.
What do you see?
