"A Thousand Miles"
It may never be enough just to wish something not to happen, things always do. And most of the time we don't want them to.
Disclaimers: I own neither The Underland Chronicles nor this song by Vanessa Carlton – "A Thousand Miles"
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
It was over; anyone could see that. After the sobs heard in the hospital, it was obvious. Why had he let his mom take them to Virginia? If he had only stayed in New York, she would not be dead. They would be happy, in love. But no, he had been in so deep a pit of self-pity that he didn't care what happened next. Now he was running, in no direction in particular.
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
"First Ares, now this?" his voice seemed choked and small. How would he possibly pull himself out of this?
"What's your plan?" Ripred's voice ran through his brain like wildfire. "I don't have a plan. Never did. My life is at a stand still. At sixteen his life was gone in his eyes. What was he without her?
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...
His mind wandered to flying on Ares with her.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
He imagined her floating away, then Ares vanishing, he fell, upwards. He was growing older with every moment.
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
He knew it had been coming; Howard had informed him that she was ill. He didn't know she was THAT ill. He had often been in tough times and thought of her thinking of him. But had she been after all? Or too busy coughing up blood to notice?
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories
He had been a fool now that he thought about it. He hadn't thought she would fall into a relapse. He hadn't even known what she was ill with at the time. Now he did. The red death had taken his love's life, like it had done so many other men and women's.
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...
Oh had badly he missed her now. He felt that he needed her to even keep waking up every day.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
He was now falling up again, this time growing younger, than older, then younger.
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't...
Her laugh, Her odd half-smile, so like her uncle, Hamnet's. Her silver-blond hair. Now it was all gone. Going to be sent down the Waterway. He wanted to go with her, be with her.
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
He was being hoisted onto a flier now. How had he gotten here? "What's your plan, what's your plan?"
"I'm going home. I'm never going to come back, I'm through with this place. Too many bad memories here."
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
Too many bad memories. Too many to remember at the same time. He needed to get away from here, from Regalia, from the Underland.
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder...
But he wanted to stay, see her one last time, before he never returned.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...
Falling…falling…falling…
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Not aging this time. Just falling up…falling…
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight
A/N: SAD! I don't know why I wrote this, but I did. You never know what might happen. But Greggy will always be oblivious. –sobs- WHY MUST YOU BE STUPID GREGOR?
