Miss: All right, I was reading over this and found so many mistakes! So I'm fixing it up slightly, please if you find any more errors PM me! Thank you!
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The days were long in the beginning, always on the move. We had to get all the seals, for the sake of Sylvarant. But no… We never did that. We ended up going to another world, Tethe'Alla, learning the true meaning behind Cruxis, Mithos, and even… him. It was not something I wanted to know. His betrayal was painful, very painful… Even though I kept strong, pretending that it didn't bother me, it didn't hurt, it didn't mean anything… but it did.
We saved the worlds, destroying Cruxis. When this happened I thought my angel, the one I had come to love, would come back for me, would tell me he felt the same… But I guess he didn't care. I waited for three years, everyday that he didn't come killing me slowly, ripping my heart to pieces.
It was midsummer. A warm day, the sun shining down on me, but inside I was dark and rainy. I was about to do it, as I stared into the deep, rippling, blue lake, the silence surrounding me like a veil. I was going to end my suffering, end the pain I felt, end it all…
I glanced around once, sure nobody was there. I took a good breath, catching a glimpse of my scarred arms, I closed my eyes. All I had to do was jump…
"Raine?"
My eyes flashed open as I spun around quickly, putting my arms behind my back. My heart was racing, not only because it startled me, but also because it was him. But it didn't last long. It slowed to its normal pace, and my face took on the look it had gained over the years. The one that worried and frightened my brother and my companions…
My eyes darted downwards, taking a glazed over look as I studied the ground near his feet. My silver hair, now just above my elbows, fell smoothly, casting my face into the dark shadows, exactly as I was inside.
I know I should've felt happy… at least a bit…. But I guess I had fallen so far, and was so oblivious to those around me… But I could feel him watching me, looking over me as I stood before him. My shirt tattered, with blood on the ripped sleeves, and drips of red splashed on my pants.
His feet began to move slightly closer and I closed my eyes, wishing him away. After all the years I had waited, he had come… And now I wish he were gone. I hated him, for leaving me, but I loved him so, for coming back… I didn't know what I felt.
My eyes flashed open, darting upwards as I felt his gentle touch on my arm. He was trying to look at my arms… I could see myself, reflected in his deep, beautiful, chocolate eyes as I pulled my arm out of his reach, taking a step back. I turned my head, looking behind me at the lake. I was right beside it… only centimeters from my freedom…
He must've noticed me looking at it, or had figured out what was going on because what he did next surprised me. He grabbed me gently, yet forcefully, around the waist and turned me to the other side of him. After putting my feet on the ground he pushed me back.
"What do you think you're doing?" His voice echoed through my head.
My legs trembling, I stumbled back a few steps, my arms coming out from behind me to give myself balance. But still, I fell down onto the green grass. I sat quietly, keeping my head low, my arms out at my sides, holding me up.
Slowly I lifted my head, meeting his eyes which were level with mine. He looked me in the eye for a long moment, before turning his attention to my arms. My own eyes stayed locked on him, watching his face.
I jerked slightly, feeling him grab me by the wrist, holding my arm up slightly to get a better look. He was acting almost as if he didn't believe what he was seeing, with slight shock being shown through his mask. His eyes were slightly widened, mine were fogging from tears.
"Raine… Why…?"
He stammered over his words, unsure of what to say, of what was going on. He ran a warm finger carefully down one of my scars, tracing it delicately. A frown appeared and he let my arm drop back to the ground, his eyes returning to my own.
"Why aren't you speaking?"
I closed my eyes at his question. 'Because I don't know what to tell you…' I thought to myself. My eyes fluttered open again, one tear falling down from my eyelash. He had moved. He stood now, his side to me, his head turned away. His arms were folded across his chest, sword hanging from its sheath.
"I thought you were stronger then this Raine… I thought you would be able to wait a few years before I came back…"
I had failed him. My eyes fogged, completely destroying my vision. My mouth opened, wanting to speak words, wanting to yell at him, yet speak gentle words… But nothing came out, just a raspy breath of air.
My entire body shook as I sat on the ground. Now I really had nothing to live for. He wouldn't have me any more. I was scarred and tarnished, ruined in all aspects. I pulled my knees up to my body, wrapping my cut arms around them.
"I… I'm sorry…"
His head turned back to me, his arms dropping. He watched me carefully, as if waiting for me to continue talking. I felt my own warm tears, rushing down my cheeks, the salty taste seeping into my mouth.
"I'm… a-a failure… I'm a w-wreck. I-"
"I agree that you are a wreck, but not quite a failure Miss Sage."
Miss Sage? He couldn't be… Sadness filled me, even more so then before as I realized he wanted nothing to do with me.
"Do you realize what you've missed these past years? Everything you could've done? Raine… tell me. What have you truly accomplished by doing this to yourself?"
He bent over slightly, holding out his hand for me. Hesitantly I took it, his warm hand encasing my small cold one. I went to let go, after being pulled to my feet, but he held my hand. I looked up into his face again, my long bangs covering my eyes.
"I-"
He cut me off again, this time putting a finger from his free hand against my lips. What was he doing? Was he playing with me? My legs were still trembling, with fear.
"Have you thought of the others? Of how they must be feeling? How they are reacting to your reactions?"
His words were penetrating through me, maybe only because he was looking me straight in the eye. His hand still gripped mine, and the warmth from it felt heavenly.
"B-"
Once again he silenced me with his finger.
"Or did you do this for yourself? To make yourself feel better? Not caring if it killed you, if it killed those who love you?"
I felt a pain through my chest, my heart. My own hand closed around his, holding it tightly. Before I could even open my mouth, to say a word he pulled me against him, wrapping his arms around me.
I stood there, in his arms, my head buried in his chest. My salty tears where spilling from my eyes as I cried, and cried. There was nothing else I wanted to do, nowhere else I wanted to be. He held me slightly tighter as his voice came again soft and gentle.
"It'll be okay, Raine…"
I didn't know if I could trust his words… He had spoken all truth before this, breaking me down in order to save me. But I didn't know… Was he going to help me, just to watch me fall? Harder, faster, and stronger then before?
I felt one of his hands, gently running its fingers through my hair, caressing it.
"Sh… I'm back Raine, and I won't ever leave you again… I promise."
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