AN: I know it has been a long time sense I have wrote anything and seeing how I left two stories unfinished. But this just hit me and I'm not going to pass it up, especially with how close to home that InuYasha hits as well as some of the lyrics. Yes, you got it. This story is going to be a song based fanfiction so each chapter is based on one song from the album. I do not own InuYasha nor do I have any copyrights to Linkin Park.
Song Lyrics
Narration, "Speaking", 'Thoughts'
Lost In The Echo
Yeah, yo
You where that foundation; Never gonna be another one, no.
I followed, so taken; So conditioned I could never let go.
Then sorrow, then sickness; Then shock when you flip it on me.
So hollow, so vicious; So afraid I couldn't let myself see.
That I could never be held; Back up, no, I'll hold myself.
Check the rep, yep you know mine well; Forget the rest, let them know my hell.
There and back, yet my soul aint sell; Keep respect up, the best they fell.
Let the rest be the tale they tell; That I was there saying…
'I can't believe it… I fell for it again… How could I have been so blind?' Kagome thought to herself as she leaned against the tree she hid behind once she saw InuYasha embracing Kikyo tightly and whispering in her ear. She couldn't hear what he was saying of course but from the looks of the embrace and the feeling you get in the area she knew it was romantic.
She felt like her world was crumbling beneath her yet she didn't know how or what to hold onto. Could she even hold on? What was there for her to do besides finish her duty to get the jewel and destroy Naraku? It was her fault that the tama was shattered and Naraku was wreaking havoc on innocent souls. It was a calling she noticed the past few years that her soul was more awake being back in the feudal era.
And these promises broken, deep below.
Each word gets lost in the echo.
So one last lie, I can see through.
This time I finally let you; Go, go, go.
She closed her sapphire blue eyes and took a steadying breath. When she opened her eyes, staring out into the open, she had a determination in her eyes. She was going to let go of her love for InuYasha. Well, at least her romantic love. She would always love him as a friend, a brother even. But it is clear that his heart was destined and belonged to Kikyo. It was selfish of her to try and take it for herself when it wasn't hers to take.
A small sad smile broke onto her face as she stood up, quietly so the couple wouldn't notice her, and made her way back to Kaede's hut where the others were waiting. She definitely needed some time with her sister-heart, Sango.
Little did she know that a pair of golden eyes did notice her the entire time but decided to let her think she went unnoticed.
Test my will, test my heart; Let me tell you how the odds gonna stack up
Y'all go hard, I go smart; How's it working out for y'all in the back, huh?
I've seen that frustration; Been crossed and lost and told no
And I've came back, unshaken; Let down I've lived and let go
So you can let it be known; I don't hold back, I hold my own
I can't be mapped, I can't be cloned; I can't C-flat, it aint my tone
I can't fall back, I came too far; Hold myself up and love my scars
Let the bells ring wherever they are; Cause I was there saying…
Just as she was about to enter the hut, Kagome paused as she felt a familiar yet unfamiliar tingle run up her spine. 'What was that? No, who was that?' She wondered to herself as she slowly turned around.
Just as she did she could have sworn to herself she caught a glimpse of silver running between the trees in the dark. She kept staring at the spot she could have sworn she saw the silver at, wondering if she really saw it or not but then decided it may be just lingering thoughts on her decision.
She knew she made the right one but at the same time she also felt like her heart was lighter, like she was weighing herself down by trying to make herself think that she was InuYasha's one and only love and that he was meant to be for her. She realized that she was meant to meet him, to free him from his cruel and unfair prison, to heal his wounded heart, to show him love and friendship, and to prepare him for a life that he wasn't ready to have 50 some years ago. 'But at the same time,' Kagome thought with a slight smile, 'I think I was also meant to bring Kikyo back to heal her in the same way too.'
"Kagome-mama!" Shippo yelled as he tackled Kagome threw the mat and snuggled against her. "I missed you!"
Kagome couldn't keep the warm, motherly smile off of her face as she fell to her bottom on the ground wrapping her arms around her son. "I have missed you too. You've been a good boy while I was gone, ne?"
She felt Shippo nod enthusiastically against her and she giggled. "Good, let's go in. I'm sure that everyone else would like to see me even though you announced I was here."
And these promises broken, Deep below
Each word gets lost in the echo
So one last lie, I can see through
This time I finally let you go! Go, go, go.
The pair of golden eyes was glad she wasn't able to catch him. He was starting to get sloppy, he was never sloppy. But for some reason this particular female just will not leave his mind and when he caught her scent in the air, he knew his younger brother was busy with his female and couldn't protect her, but he also knew deep down there had to be another reason why he was checking on her and hyper aware of her.
'Hn, maybe this one should check with a healer. Maybe I am getting sick.' Sesshomaru wondered to himself but he felt his beast laughing at him for that thought even he knew that was a pathetic excuse to cover it up.
He quickly looked up when he heard the fox kit yell her name and saw him tackle her to the ground. He couldn't help the slight smirk that had formed. 'She makes an excellent mother.' And he felt his beast purr in agreement.
But his hidden contentment was quickly ended as he sensed his brother starting to make his way to the hut. He took one last glance to the hut where he couldn't see the miko but knew she was in there, safe with her brother and sister as well as her kit. He then turned to head deep into the woods back to his own small pack while forming a plan in his mind to try and be around the particular female more.
No, you can tell 'em all now; I don't back up, I don'd back down
I don't fold up, and I don't bow; I don't roll over, don't know how
I don't care where the enemies are; Can't be stopped, all I know, Go Hard!
Won't forget how I got this far; And every time, saying…
InuYasha tensed when he caught whiff of Kagome's scent, 'Shit. I'm in for it now.' He thought as he took a quick breath and walked in the hut. Unlike the other times when he would come in late, the others would stop talking and the air would become thick with tension. This time however he was greeted with the warm welcoming smile of Kagome.
"How's Kikyo InuYasha?" she asked sweetly, no hint of malice or anger. It took him by surprise. "K-keh. She's fine. Said that she hasn't heard any rumors of Naraku lately. It's worrying her he's being so quite and hidden."
Miroku, who was also quite surprised with Kagome's turn around behavior, shot Sango a knowing glance that something happened between their little sister and dear friend. "I also find that quite troublesome. Maybe we should head out in the morning in the opposite direction Kikyo-sama came from to see if maybe he just has been in a different area?"
Sango who was looking into the fire while petting Kiara in her lap nodded, "I think that sounds wise. What do you think InuYasha, Kagome?" She looked up at the two.
Kagome looking deep into the fire as if she was seeing something the others weren't was silent, waiting for InuYasha's response but when she got the feeling the others were looking at her she looked up and nodded firmly. "I agree with Miroku-kun. It is a good idea to do." She looked over at InuYasha and smiled softly, "What does our leader say?"
Kagome had to hide the giggle that threatened to escape as InuYasha's ears perked at her calling him their leader and he looked at them, "I say that's what we do. We should get to sleep so we can get a move on it early in the morning." The rest nodded and readied themselves for bed.
And these promises broken, deep below
Each word gets lost in the echo, so one last lie I can see through
This time I finally let you go, go, go.
"InuYasha?" Kagome whispered.
"Yeah wench?" InuYasha responded not opening his eyes.
"Just so you know, I want you and Kikyo to be happy. I'm going to try and find a way to bring her back so you two can be together. I will stay by your side but as a friend and sister if you let me."
InuYasha was shocked to say the least his eyes snapped open and he looked at the woman who he was glad to have as a friend. He smiled and nodded to her, she returned the smile.
