Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
Her phone, gently placed on her coffee table, vibrates. Knowing who it is, Tori can feel her world turning inside out. She can't take it anymore. It's him. He's calling her, because he knows she saw him with that other girl.
After lying on her bed for another hour and sobbing like the world just ended, she gets up after the phone sends a signal one more time. This time, it's a text message.
She decides to look at it, and glues her eyes onto the screen.
Ryder: I'm sorry. Call me when you can. I still love you.
And, she still loves him because it's only been one day. But, she doesn't want to be his second one, his used piece of trash, so she throws the phone on the floor and steps on it, until her best friend walks in on her, and sits with her for the rest of the night.
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
"Hey, I don't know you too well," he had told her, "but I like you."
She had smirked at him, and he had smiled at her, giving her a light kiss on her lips on their first date.
What she didn't know was that he was seeing someone else at the same time. She would be his daytime, and the other girl was his nighttime partner.
How could he kiss her goodnight and rock her to sleep, and then just walk off to someone else?
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
She tried to walk away from it. She even confronted him about it, because she knew, that letting it go would be a big mistake.
"I'm sorry," Ryder had told her a week after she asked him, "I left her. I only love you."
She smiled at his pleasurable words, slipping into his arms, and trying to forget everything that had happened.
She knew she wouldn't be able to forget about it immediately, and she didn't. Yet, Tori didn't think that, his "I love you" and his sweet kisses were false. She didn't know that they weren't for her; even if they were, they weren't enough.
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell,
It wasn't a fairytale, but she inwardly laughed at the moment that she thought it was. Why would she ever believe his words?
Beck, her best friend, had told her, and she still remembered what he had said to her.
"He asked me out!" Tori yelled at him, gleefully embracing him.
"Tori, I respect your decision," he started off, and Tori understood that Beck's big words meant something bad was coming at her.
"What is it?" she had asked him, when they were out on a frozen yogurt date – even though they didn't like to call it that.
"Nothing," he said, but then decided he would have to break it to her, "I've heard too much about him."
He had told her straight out, but she replied to Beck saying that he had told her he loved her and she thought she was smart enough to tell the difference between a good and a bad person.
But, no, she wasn't. She was a failure in her mind right now.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and left me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
The girl that believed in knights in shining armor had lost; she had lost against the villainous witches in her fairytales.
Why was it that Hollywood seemed like such a small town to her today? It was like word of her story had spread like a fire, attacking her and engulfing her in the flames of her own sorrow.
Tori would still lie down on the ground, trying to stop herself from crying and screaming. She couldn't dare to step into school where everyone shot her glances of disgust or signs of sympathy.
She couldn't bear to see him either….why was it that Hollywood was too small of a town for her sorrows to escape?
She had lost it, lost the belief of love, passion. She didn't have it in her anymore.
Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
She still remembered when she cried in his shoulder.
She still remembered when she would fall asleep in his lap.
She still remembered when he would look her in the eyes and say,
"I love you."
She was so dumb to think that it was real. Because, it wasn't.
And now, she was only hurt. Nothing more.
I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight the upper hand
She was standing on his front porch, and she could see the other girl in there, smirking at her viciously. The girl held an expression on her face that clearly had "he's mine" written all over it.
"What are you doing?" she had yelled at him. He walked towards her, while slipping his arm into his shirt that had been lying on the floor until now.
He still walked towards her holding his hand out as if she would still let him hold her.
"This is the second time!" she yelled again, "How could I have forgiven you before?"
"Tori, no!" she could hear as she stomped off, and stepped into her car and walked away.
That day, she promised herself she would never give Ryder a second chance. She would never look back.
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
She dreamt about him every night. Before and after the incident.
Before, it was a dream of princes and princesses, sugar castles, and lollipops. Not literally, but it was along the lines of that.
She never knew that it would end up like this – at all.
After, her dreams are filled with crying, death, and everything a girl of seventeen wouldn't want to experience.
And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
The phone rings again…and again. Her Beck is sitting next to her, being the only supportive one for her; yes, that boy is all hers. He is her best friend.
"Pick it up," he says fiercely, "You cannot run away from this, Tor."
She stares into his eyes, sensing that he is telling the truth. She has to tell Ryder how she feels once and for all.
Yet, she is afraid. She is hesitant, so Beck presses the accept button on her phone and holds it up to her ear.
"Face him…" he says, "and give him every bit of the truth."
She pauses and can hear his voice on the other side of the phone. And, it feels as though her world has gone blank. Beck can feel the fear emitting out of her, so he squeezes her left hand and brings it up to his mouth, giving it a light kiss.
"Hello?" she breaths into the phone quietly.
"Tori, I'm so happy you picked up." he says to her. Now, she can't stop crying on the other side of the line, because she is hearing his voice again, knowing that she can't treasure it like before.
"What is it?" she says, and she feels like she is choking on the bitter words.
"Victoria Vega," he says taking deep breaths that could be heard over the line, "I still love you very much. Will you take me back? Please?"
Tori is painfully biting her lip, holding back her weaknesses and telling him practically, "No."
She can hear him inhale sharply on the other side of the line. He lets out a sigh and asks her another question.
"Do you love me?"
"No." she says, and cuts the line.
She doesn't know if her emotion was because of telling Ryder the truth about her feelings, or whether it was because Beck was still sitting next to her, holding her hand tightly, and brightly smiling at her.
But, she feels happy on the inside. It's something she hasn't felt in the past month.
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday,
Who might actually treat me well
Three days later, Beck takes her to the mall. She's still upset about everything, but being with Beck just makes her happy.
Today, there's something about him, that's making her tingle on the inside. It's something that is making her smile and laugh. Something that she feels…just clicks…
But, why?
Then a week later, she presses her lips onto his. He doesn't understand what she's doing at first, but he responds quickly. But honestly, it doesn't matter because she has no idea what's happening to her either.
She feels emotion in that kiss. It is passionate and burning, but she doesn't care because it feels just right.
"What brought that on?" he asks her, after she breaks the kiss and puts her head on his shoulder.
"I don't know," she says, "but, you kissed me back."
And it's not weird that she says it that way, because they're best friends, and if they don't work out, they're going to laugh about it years from now.
However, he says something that surprises her so much that she kisses him again, more passionately than before.
"I've always loved you, Tor."
And, she knows that she will be happy with him.
This is a big world; that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now
She can't ever forget what happened with Ryder, but being with Beck is like living the life she'd always wanted.
He's the one that can handle her talk on and on without a break.
He's the one that can buy her the perfect necklace that says B+T on it.
He's the one that can watch her play the piano for hours.
They're going out for only a month, now, and she's forgotten her past as much as she should.
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now…
There's no way she'll be going back.
Disclaimer: I do not own Victorious or the song used in this one-shot.
This one shot is dedicated to StrangelyBeautiful3 for requesting this song called White Horse, by Taylor Swift. We may have started on a sad note because Bori isn't together in this for most of it, only in the end. However, I do hope you liked it as much as I did!
Remember to review with MORE than just a song request. If you have already requested a song, please wait until I put that song of yours up and then you can request another one because I already have 11 or something one shots to work on along with my other story!
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