Summary: A call full of so many feels. He just wants her to go home. To go back to him. This is just ... Ugh! This is just so heartbreaking for me, guys.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters. If you think there's a reference in there, then, it isn't mine.
I got this idea somewhere. It's angsty. I wrote this a 3 months ago when I was trying to study for my Physics quiz then "BOOM!" this happened. I think I barely passed on the said quiz but I managed to get my grades up. Anyway, enjoy the angst guys! ;D
Hey Princess
"Hey, Princess" she smiled and pressed the phone tightly on her ear. She secretly loved it that he calls her that especially with that tone of his voice. He sounded like he just woke up. She imagined him pressing his lips to hers just like he always did in the morning.
"Haymitch," she uttered like she was out of breath. She hadn't slept for weeks now.
"It's been awhile," oh that's a lie, she thought.
"It's been way too long," she countered. A part of her hates him that it had been way too long. Yes, she was tying some knots in the Capitol about the Games but she didn't expect that it was going to be long enough to –
She rolled on the bed facing his side. There were so many thoughts running inside her head. Maybe if she didn't go to the Capitol, they would be together now. She just wanted to see him again and run her hand in his dirty blond hair.
"Did ya' miss me?" She knew it was meant to be a tease but she heard him sigh. She nodded though he can't see her.
"So much," she murmured. I miss you so damn much that it hurts, she thought. She bit her lip and gripped the sheets, forcing herself not to cry but –
"I miss you, Eff." That broke the dam. His voice was pure of longing. She didn't know she would hear that kind of voice from him.
She felt her pillows were really wet but she didn't care. She was just silently crying as she ran her fingers on his cold side of the bed.
"Oh no, don't you dare cry for me, sweetheart." Damn him for guessing that! "Hell, I think the geese would run away if you start crying loud."
She chuckled at him for his dry humor though tears didn't stop rolling down her cheeks.
"Just –" he sighed. "Come home, Eff. I'll stop drinking."
She rolled her eyes automatically. She always did that whenever he said that he'll stop drinking.
"Stop rolling your eyes. I can see you from here. Well, at least I'll try to stop okay. It's not easy 'ya know?"
"Don't be too hard on yourself, 'Mitch" she hated herself. She really really hated herself because this was all her fault. If she just stayed in Twelve, this would never happen.
"Stay alive." He always said that.
Now, she hated those words. "Noooooo," was her silent plea. How could she stay alive when –
"I'll be waiting for you at home."
"I don't want to live if you're not home, Haymitch." Her lips were trembling. The phone fell from her lithe shaky hands. She curved herself into ball, knowing that this call was going to end. She was grasping her legs tightly with her arms. Her eyes were red and puffy. Her world was still breaking apart.
"Bye, sweetheart." It ended. It. Just. Ended. Just like that. The voicemail ended just like that.
She cannot freaking forgive herself for not picking up her damn phone when he called. She forgot what she was doing back then but she was sure now that it wasn't important. If she knew that that phone call was going to be the last time that she would speak to him, she would answer it quickly and god, she would've even told him she loved him. So much. Too much, in fact because she felt like she was dead, just like him. It would've been a lie if she said that she didn't love him too much.
"Don't go," she muttered in a very weak voice. "Please, come back to me, Haymitch" she pleaded though she knew those words were a lost cause. She sniffed. The bed sheets didn't smell like him anymore. The aroma of alcohol didn't envelope the house. She indeed scared off the geese when she cried so hard that night when she came from the Capitol and found out what happened to him.
"Come home, Haymitch. I'm here now..." she begged. She just wanted to be with him but that wasn't an option anymore so...
click
"Hey Princess,"
I posted this 3 months ago on Tumblr so some of you might read this already.. Please write me a review! Thanks! ;D
.Elle.
