As I see you sitting across me

As I see you sitting across me

A thought crosses my mind

In all the name of

Happiness and Despair

How can you be so kind yet so cruel

At the same time?

How can your wonderful smiles

Cause me so much pain?

Why is it now…

…whenever you hug me,

My heart bleeds?

You're so close

Yet it feels like we're oceans apart

Just listening to a sad song

My tears are bursting out

My heart weeps

My smile fades

My hands tremble

My teeth grits

Why am I still wanting?

Why am I still yearning?

You're nothing but

Out of my reach

You're a visible dream

To admit the truest of truths

I don't want to be alone

I want you to love me once more

I don't want to keep crying

I want to drown in everything that is you

I don't want to keep enduring this pain

I want you to be mine again

I don't want to be frowning behind your back

I want your love

In all honesty

My beloved

I had always wanted to ask

Can you even tell…

If my smiles are true?

If my eyes hadn't cried?

If my heart is a million pieces?

And that it still belongs to you?