As I see you sitting across me
A thought crosses my mind
In all the name of
Happiness and Despair
How can you be so kind yet so cruel
At the same time?
How can your wonderful smiles
Cause me so much pain?
Why is it now…
…whenever you hug me,
My heart bleeds?
You're so close
Yet it feels like we're oceans apart
Just listening to a sad song
My tears are bursting out
My heart weeps
My smile fades
My hands tremble
My teeth grits
Why am I still wanting?
Why am I still yearning?
You're nothing but
Out of my reach
You're a visible dream
To admit the truest of truths
I don't want to be alone
I want you to love me once more
I don't want to keep crying
I want to drown in everything that is you
I don't want to keep enduring this pain
I want you to be mine again
I don't want to be frowning behind your back
I want your love
In all honesty
My beloved
I had always wanted to ask
Can you even tell…
If my smiles are true?
If my eyes hadn't cried?
If my heart is a million pieces?
And that it still belongs to you?
