I had a dream about you the other day. No, no not that kind of dream. It was a happy dream. You were in my arms and everything. Just like old times, babe.
I'm writing you a short letter, but I promise I'll fill it with so much love. My men are sleeping and I have to turn the light off soon. I should probably get some sleep too, but I have to write to you.
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I want to tell you that I love you so much and I will be back soon… For you. I know you may hate me sometimes for leaving you, but I want to do something right in my life. I want you to be proud of me for doing something right. I know what you're saying. You're saying how you're already proud of me. I like that about you. You always see the good in people… You don't care about the bad.
I miss you so much. I miss your voice, your laugh… I miss looking into your eyes after waking up. I want to be over there. You don't know how much I just want to quit and come and get you. I just want you in my arms again. I know… I'm the one that ended it, but that was for your own good. You know that… I don't want you worrying. I want someone to take care of you when I'm gone, but I promised you what I'd do when I'm done right? I'd come back to you even when we're old. I will keep that promise.
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
So I guess I'm done. One of my men just complained so I have to go. I told him I'd grab his balls and shove it down his throat if he complained again. Same old me right?
I love you so much, Brittany. Take care and I'll see you soon.
Love, Santana Lopez
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
After reading the letter over and over again to make sure it was perfect, I put it into an envelope. I put it into my pocket and headed for my bed. It was old and dirty.
I closed my eyes and waited for sleep to take me, but instead I heard gun shots everywhere. I saw my men shooting at the enemy and I saw my men getting shot.
I quickly got out of bed and grabbed my gun. I shot at the enemy multiple times, but they keep getting replaced by others. There's too many of them.
There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
As I reload I felt a sharp pain on the left side of my chest and the next thing I know I was on the ground. The pain was incredible and I was gasping for air. One of my men came to me and put pressure onto the wound, but it wasn't helping.
"You're not going to die. We'll get the medics here..."
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
I reached down into my pocket and took out the envelope. I handed it to him and he looked at me confused.
"Brittany S. Pierce. Give it to Brittany." I coughed out some blood and my breathing started to slow.
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
He nodded his head and put his forehead on top of mine to reassure me that he would do so. He laid my head back down gently. He was about to go, but I grabbed his leg. He looked back down at me. His face showed that he was strong, but his eyes showed that he was scared that he was hurt. He was just a little boy to me. An 18 year old who joined the army a little too soon.
I slowly reached for the necklace around my neck and yank it off. I gave it to him and I smiled.
"Brittany S. Pierce" I said to remind him.
He nodded once again and ran off. I lay here looking up at the sky and how beautiful it was. Are you looking at the sky too, Britt? Oh how cruel the world can be…
And I don't know what I'm diving into
I couldn't feel the pain anymore, I felt nothing. I closed my eyes and then there was nothing.
I was dead.
Just hanging by a moment here with you…
The song is called Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse :)
