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A/N:This takes place of the season finale,Please review!
Iwalked off of the airplane out to where Mom was supposed to be.I saw her standing there,"Mom!"I ran over to her and she hugged me.
"Oh my gosh,I don't want you to ever leave me again,ever."she said smiling.
"Can we go?now?I can't wait to see everyone."I said,wanting to see Jess.
"You don't want to stop and get something to eat?"she asked.
"No,we can go to Luke's when we get home."I said brightly.
"Uh,that's not a good idea."she said as we walked into the parking garage.
"Why not?Mom,I've had to go six weeks with no Luke's.I need Luke's."I said.
We got to Stars Hollow."I still think this is a bad idea."she said."Oh,I forgot to tell you,rebel without a cause is back."she added.
I smiled."Jess.And why would that be a reason not to go to Luke's?"I asked.
"Because I hear homicide is illegal."she said,only half joking.
"Hardy har har,we need Luke's."I said ignoring her reason.
She sighed,"Fine,but don't expect Luke to be friendly to me."she pouted.
We walked into Luke's."Hi,Rory.Welcome home."Luke greeted me.
"Thanks,I'm glad to be back.I haven't had a decent cup of coffee in six weeks."
"Well,let's fix that."he grabbed a cup and poured.Then I saw Jess come down.
"Thanks Luke."I said,then Jess walked over closer."Hi,Jess."I said.
"Hi."he replied with a slight nod.Not as warmly as I'd hoped.
This surprised Luke and Mom even more than it did me.
"How was Washington?"he asked indifferently.
"Pretty boring.We listened to a bunch of political speakers,took lots and lots of notes.Paris chased them around so much that they hid in the bathroom."I said with a small smile.
"Huh,interesting."he said,his tone and look would suggest otherwise.There was no sincerity in his voice.None.
"So,how was your summer?"I asked to try to again start a conversation.
"Pretty boring."he said still with no emotion.Okay,obviously not doing the conversation thing.
"Uh,Rory,"Luke started through his confusion."Do you want something to eat?"he asked.
"Yeah,can I have a burger and fries,please?"
"Sure,Lorelai?"
"Yeah,same thing thanks."she said,equally as surprised and confused with Jess and me."Why does it seem like your friend Jess,is about as happy with you,as my friend Luke,is with me?"she asked in a whisper.
I frowned slightly,but didn't answer her."Well,have you read anything good lately?"I asked.
"Not really."he answered.
I half smiled,"Is there any subject that would get more than two words?"I half joked.It was true.
He almost half smiled,but then I got a shocker.Some blonde had been standing behind me and she decided to move beside me and she leaned over the counter and kissed Jess.I was looking at this awful display to my right and my mouth fell open only slightly.I closed it after a second.Oh my gosh! Iknew I had this look like I had just been stabbed or shot,because,Luke and Mom were looking at me with really concerned faces.But that's how I felt,in fact those would have probably felt better.My eyes started to burn as my heart slowly shattered.Finally,they seperated after what seemed like an eternity.
She looked at me,"Hi,"she said.
Homewrecker!! "Hi."
"Rory meet Shane,Shane,Rory."he introduced.
"Five words."I said as my heart fell to my feet.Jess just introduced me to his girlfriend.
"Are you guys friends?"she asked.I wasn't sure of what to say.
"Yeah,"Jess started."She comes to the diner a lot so-"
"No."I interrupted him.Thus causing Mom,Luke,Jess,and Shane to look at me slightly surprised.Just a diner customer?No.
"Oh."she said confused.
"Not really,like he said,I just come to the diner a lot.Well,I used to,but I haven't for awhile.But no,we're definitely not friends.Acquaintences if anything,but probably not even that.Oh!Speaking of friends,"I turned my attention from Shane Back to Mom"Mom,I have to go,I promised Paris I'd call her as soon as I got home,so,I have to go."I stood up."See you at home."I said.
"Rory,"Mom started.
I ignored her and made a beeline for the door,where I coincidentally ran into Dean."Dean."
"Hi."he smiled.He gave me a quick kiss. "Hey,I have to call Paris,So could I just call you in a little while,then maybe we could do something."I was in too big of a hurry to talk,I was fighting tears.
"Sure."Then he asked,"Are you okay?" He had just gotten back from six weeks in Chicago.
"Yeah,just Paris."I lied.I forced a smile that I hoped would cover the heartbreak that was on my face.
"Okay," he leaned in and kissed me once more."I'll see you later?"
"Definitely.Bye."I fake smiled and started walking home as fast as I could.
Of course I wasn't walking for long,because Mom drove up beside me,"Get in hon."
I did."Hi."I said.
"Sweetie,what was that?"she asked.
"Nothing.That was nothing."I lied.
"It didn't seem like 'nothing'.What happened to friendish?And defending him,and visiting him in New York?I don't think people do all of that for not even an acquaintance."she said.
"Look,I'm not always right.I,at the time,thought maybe we were friendish,but we're not.He's annoying and apparently my conversations are only worth two words.And I have so many better things to do with my time,so does he apparently.So whatever.But no,we're not friends or friendish,or even friendly.He's just there."I said.
"Uh huh."
"Yes,and you were right."I continued in my rant."I shouldn't have been hanging out with Jess,it doesn't matter now,what's done is done.But I learn from my mistakes and I'm definitely not going to make them twice.Why should I be his friend?"I pushed my hair back be hind my ear."He's a rebel,I'm not.Not meant to be paired."I finished.
"I admire your attitude."
"Thank you."
After a few seconds,"You have feelings for Jess."she stated.
"Yes I do.Feelings of antipathy,animosity and just plain dislike."I said.
"Okay,those aren't the kind of feelings I was thinking."
"Well that's how I feel about him."I said.
"Sure."she said unconvinced.
"I do."I insisted.I mean he has a bad attitude,he always skips class,he won't even try to do his schoolwork,he's wasting all of the brains he has.And,he likes Ernest Hemingway.Not to mention,he hates Dean and Dean hates him.And I've been a bad girlfriend because of Jess,so I'm going to fix that."I said,but didn't feel like that was enough so I instantly added this lie.,"I'm happy for him."
"Oh yes,of course,that's why you looked like someone pulled your heart out of your chest,threw it on the ground and jumped up and down on it,Now it makes since."she said sarcastically.
I sighed,"I'll get over it."I resigned.I couldn't hide it from her,so there's no use in trying.
"Animus feelings too?"she asked.Well,yeah,I imagine that I'll be avoiding him,so smile, you don't have to go to Luke's anymore.After a second and no reply,she went on."Why?"she asked."You guys were friends,you can't deny that."she said.
"Well fine,we were.I guess our friendship just wasn't as strong as I'd hoped."Not to mention I screwed up royally by kissing him and leaving."Oh well,he has 'come back Shane', I have 'Jan and Dean' ,everybody's happy."I said.
"You're not."she said simply as we pulled into our driveway.
"Well I will be."I answered stubbornly.
We were home for a few minutes and I decided to call Dean."Hello?"
"Hi,Dean."I said.
"Hey,Rory."
"So,I have to go to my grandparents' tonight,but I have time for a walk before I go.If you want."I added.
"Sure,I'l be there in a few minutes."he said.
"Okay."
"I love you,bye."
Uh."Bye."I hung up.How rude was that.
I sat down and read Jane Magazine for a few minutes then I heard the doorbell ring.
"I got it."I called out and went to open the door."Jess."Agh!Go away!!
"Hi,expecting someone else?"
"Yes."I answered.
"So,since when do you hate me?"he asked.
"I don't hate you.I just played archaeologist and found some animosity,didn't want to put it to waste."I said.
"Why are you the one mad at me?"he asked.I don't know,gee,I wonder.Could it have something to do with my heart being broken???I probably shouldn't be mad.But I am.
I looked over my shoulder,"Well,as much as I would just love to stand here and talk to you,ther's a dirty dish in the sink with my name on it.Bye."I went to shut the door,but he put his arm up and held it open."Excuse me."
"A dirty dish isn't urgent."he said.
"Fine.The kitchen is on fire.Bye now."I shut the door.I turned around and leaned against the door for a moment to ease the hurt.Then I walked in the livingroom to the couch.
Jess stood there at the door watching her silhouette leaning on the door then finally disappearing to the livingroom.Then he too walked away,but not before meeting Dean at the end of the driveway.
"What are you doing here?"Dean asked.
"Havin a tea party."Jess replied sarcastically.
"You're so funny I almost forgot to laugh."Dean replied.
"That's a bummer."
"Why don't you stay away from my girlfriend."Dean warned.
"Why don't you try and make me."Jess said."Bye bagboy."And with that Jess left.
Dean could blow fire by now.He shook his head as Jess walked away.He went up to our door and rang the doorbell.
"I got it again."I called toward the kitchen where Mom was
.
"'Kay,if it's Jess,tell him I said 'hi'."she called back.
"Oh you're funny."I said,then opened the door."Hi,Dean."
"Hey."
"Mom,I'm going for a walk."I called.
"With?"
"Dean,of course."
"Bye then."
We walked out onto the road.
"So,I saw Jess isn't in New York anymore."Dean finally said.
"No,he's not."I replied.
"And you knew this?"
"Yes I did."
So,you know that Jess is in StarsHollow again?"
"I said yes."Can we please not talk about him?
"Why would you not tell me that?"he asked.
"I guess it slipped my mind,or I didn't have time."
"Just a quick 'hey Dean,Jess is back' took too long?"
"Look Dean,I forgot to tell you,I'm sorry if Jess isn't on my mind every breathing moment!He doesn't occupy my every thought!"I accidentally snapped."I just have other things on my mind.Besides,who cares if he's back?You don't even like him."I said hotly,despite my trying not to snap at him.It wasn't meant for him.
"Exactly,I hate him!But see,it's the whole him not hating you thing,that makes me want to know if he's here or in New York."he argued.This is great.
"Yes,I know you hate him,I'm not blind,I would have to be if I didn't know that."I pointed out.
"Rory,I didn't say that you were.I just-you should have told me!That way,when I bump into him leaving your driveway,'he said,letting me know that he knew Jess had been there."I wouldn't be quite as surprised.That may have been nice.You know,if my girlfriend would have maybe clued me in,"he said,frustrated.
I sighed,"This is charming,Well next time,check the diner and maybe take a headcount,so that you can see if another male our age is near.Just in case it slips my mind."I said.**(a/n:Yes I know she's being kind of a jerk,but sometimes when someone breaks your heart you lash out at other people,sorry)**
"Another-"he scoffed,"That's not what I was saying either,you just twisted my words.Did I say you had to report any male within a mile,'cause that's not what I heard."he replied angrily and slightly defensive.
By now we had made it to the square and stopped."Why are you doing this?"I asked him.
"Why am I doing what?!"he asked.
"Why are you making such a big deal about this?"I asked.
A few people walking by suddenly slowed to a stop and listened to our heated arguement with intent interest.
"I'm not,you're the one that snapped at me as soon as I mentioned Jess' name.It seems like everytime Jess is mentioned you snap at me,we always fight about him."he said,which was pretty much the truth.
"That's because you act so jealous of him.Why?"I replied.
"Everyone in this town knows why I have to be jealous of him,Rory!!Well,no,with the exception of your stand-in,she probably doesn't!"he got louder.We were too wrapped up in our arguement to notice most of Stars Hollow,including Jess and Shane,were now watching.
"You know you don't have to yell,and what on earth are you talking about?"I asked.
"Oh you know what I'm talking about!"he replied,too wound up to be quiet.
"No I don't!"I shouted back."Stand-in?Have you gone crazy?"
He slightly controlled his anger."The blonde,I don't know her name."he said frustrated.Causing Shane to frown.
"You mean Shane?"I asked lowering my voice with an unitentional disgusted look.
His eyes widened,"See!"he got louder again.Shane and Jess were both listening,interested,and with good reason.
"What?I knew her name?How is that some hideous crime?"I asked.
"No.The way you looked and felt at saying her name.Jealousy was written all over your face."Shane looked at Jess to see his reaction,it was pleased.
"Oh please."I rolled my eyes.I didn't care if it was true.
"I'm serious.Heck,it wouldn't surprise me if you already had a picture of her on a dartboard!"he shouted annoyed.
"Oh my gosh."I said quieter,"That's mature Dean."I said sarcastically.
"Yeah well,excuse me,I'm sorry it doesn't make me jump through hoops that my girlfriend is jealous of some other guy's
girlfriend.Please forgive me."
"You've lost it.That's not true."I lied,being sure to avoid his eyes.
"I really wish you'd make up your mind."he said.
"And I wish I knew what you were talking about."I retorted.
Then Dean finally noticed the crowd of people,"Could we walk?"
"I'd say that's a good idea." I walked over to him and we walked a few feet so that we were away from the crowd.Neither of us noticed Jess and Shane."Okay now,"we stopped,"What are you talking about?"I asked even though I knew.
"I'm talking about you liking Jess."he said slowly,so that I'd finally get it,and annoyed.
"I do not.You obviously didn't witness or hear about my little performance earlier."I said thinking I'd found my defence.
The people only followed us over here.But we didn't notice.
"What are you talking about?"he asked.
"Earlier,when I was lucky enough to meet Shane.It was a little scene that ended with Jess thinking I hated him.I went-"
"That was only because you met Shane,and it made you mad."he cut me off.
Stop being right!!"Look,that's not true."I lied,getting quite tired of arguing.Not noticing the crowd was still watching.
"Really?"he asked rediculously."So that's why you can't look me in the eye?"
I ignored this."Really."I said reducing my voice severely.Trying to sound sincere in telling this bold faced lie.
"I think it's true Rory."he said also severely lowering his voice.
"No,you have to believe me,"Because I'm lying through my teeth.I still didn't notice Jess or Shane.
"You like him."he said.
"I don't."I insisted.
"You like him."Dean said nodding.
"I don't."I shook my head.
"Rory,you like him."he insisted.
"Are we playing word tennis?"I asked getting slightly annoyed.
"No,"he then noticed the crowd."Okay,this time let's walk and not stop."he suggested.
"Good idea."I agreed.This is none of Stars Hollow's business.We started walking again.
"Are you sure you don't like him?"he asked,even though he knew I did.I think he was going to look the other way again.Was.
"Yes,I'm sure.I love you Je-"No I did not! "uh,Dean.I- Dean."I tried desperately to cover it.
He stopped abruptly and I could feel how angry he was.With reason.Very good reason.He turned to face me."You."he took a deep breath"You just said-!"he cut himself off shaking his head.
"Dean,I didn't mean-it was an accident,we had just been-"I was all ready to give a lie to explain myself.
"Rory!You just said I love you Jess to me!"he cut me off.
Yeah,you know,I did."No!"I don't know why I tried to deny it,how could I? "I-I it was-it was just-we had just been talking about-and I don't- I can't believe that I almost said that.I don't-"I decided to stop,this was a waste of time,I was getting nowhere."I'm sorry."I finally said softly,looking at the ground,wishing to just disappear.But no,I didn't even deserve to diasappear.
"Whatever."he said.Jess could no longer fight a smile.A few people noticed and looked at Jess.
"I'm sorry,I honestly don't know what else to say."I said.
He nodded,"That's because there is nothing else to really say,is there?"
I just kept my eyes focused on the ground,I couldn't look him in the eye.No.There really isn't.
"I guess there's nothing left to hide now.There's also no reason to pretend that we have a relationship anymore.We don't."
Shane didn't want to believe any of that.Who would?She put her arm around Jess.That's not true,she kept telling herself.He,however,didn't return the arm around her,instead he just kind of moved away from her.She,taking the hint,put her arm down.It's not true.Is it?
Are you aware of what you make me feel,baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you,like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?Here's what I have to say.
Shane started to realize that eferything Dean was saying was true.He was right.She crossed her arms unhappily.
Am I just some chick you placed beside you?
To take somebody's place.
When you turn around,can you recognize my face?
She looked at Jess one more time,hoping to be wrong.But the look she saw in his eyes when he was watching Rory,told her more than enough.She moved up closer to Rory and Dean."He's right."she said pointing to Dean.
A/N:Please review!!
A/N:This takes place of the season finale,Please review!
Iwalked off of the airplane out to where Mom was supposed to be.I saw her standing there,"Mom!"I ran over to her and she hugged me.
"Oh my gosh,I don't want you to ever leave me again,ever."she said smiling.
"Can we go?now?I can't wait to see everyone."I said,wanting to see Jess.
"You don't want to stop and get something to eat?"she asked.
"No,we can go to Luke's when we get home."I said brightly.
"Uh,that's not a good idea."she said as we walked into the parking garage.
"Why not?Mom,I've had to go six weeks with no Luke's.I need Luke's."I said.
We got to Stars Hollow."I still think this is a bad idea."she said."Oh,I forgot to tell you,rebel without a cause is back."she added.
I smiled."Jess.And why would that be a reason not to go to Luke's?"I asked.
"Because I hear homicide is illegal."she said,only half joking.
"Hardy har har,we need Luke's."I said ignoring her reason.
She sighed,"Fine,but don't expect Luke to be friendly to me."she pouted.
We walked into Luke's."Hi,Rory.Welcome home."Luke greeted me.
"Thanks,I'm glad to be back.I haven't had a decent cup of coffee in six weeks."
"Well,let's fix that."he grabbed a cup and poured.Then I saw Jess come down.
"Thanks Luke."I said,then Jess walked over closer."Hi,Jess."I said.
"Hi."he replied with a slight nod.Not as warmly as I'd hoped.
This surprised Luke and Mom even more than it did me.
"How was Washington?"he asked indifferently.
"Pretty boring.We listened to a bunch of political speakers,took lots and lots of notes.Paris chased them around so much that they hid in the bathroom."I said with a small smile.
"Huh,interesting."he said,his tone and look would suggest otherwise.There was no sincerity in his voice.None.
"So,how was your summer?"I asked to try to again start a conversation.
"Pretty boring."he said still with no emotion.Okay,obviously not doing the conversation thing.
"Uh,Rory,"Luke started through his confusion."Do you want something to eat?"he asked.
"Yeah,can I have a burger and fries,please?"
"Sure,Lorelai?"
"Yeah,same thing thanks."she said,equally as surprised and confused with Jess and me."Why does it seem like your friend Jess,is about as happy with you,as my friend Luke,is with me?"she asked in a whisper.
I frowned slightly,but didn't answer her."Well,have you read anything good lately?"I asked.
"Not really."he answered.
I half smiled,"Is there any subject that would get more than two words?"I half joked.It was true.
He almost half smiled,but then I got a shocker.Some blonde had been standing behind me and she decided to move beside me and she leaned over the counter and kissed Jess.I was looking at this awful display to my right and my mouth fell open only slightly.I closed it after a second.Oh my gosh! Iknew I had this look like I had just been stabbed or shot,because,Luke and Mom were looking at me with really concerned faces.But that's how I felt,in fact those would have probably felt better.My eyes started to burn as my heart slowly shattered.Finally,they seperated after what seemed like an eternity.
She looked at me,"Hi,"she said.
Homewrecker!! "Hi."
"Rory meet Shane,Shane,Rory."he introduced.
"Five words."I said as my heart fell to my feet.Jess just introduced me to his girlfriend.
"Are you guys friends?"she asked.I wasn't sure of what to say.
"Yeah,"Jess started."She comes to the diner a lot so-"
"No."I interrupted him.Thus causing Mom,Luke,Jess,and Shane to look at me slightly surprised.Just a diner customer?No.
"Oh."she said confused.
"Not really,like he said,I just come to the diner a lot.Well,I used to,but I haven't for awhile.But no,we're definitely not friends.Acquaintences if anything,but probably not even that.Oh!Speaking of friends,"I turned my attention from Shane Back to Mom"Mom,I have to go,I promised Paris I'd call her as soon as I got home,so,I have to go."I stood up."See you at home."I said.
"Rory,"Mom started.
I ignored her and made a beeline for the door,where I coincidentally ran into Dean."Dean."
"Hi."he smiled.He gave me a quick kiss. "Hey,I have to call Paris,So could I just call you in a little while,then maybe we could do something."I was in too big of a hurry to talk,I was fighting tears.
"Sure."Then he asked,"Are you okay?" He had just gotten back from six weeks in Chicago.
"Yeah,just Paris."I lied.I forced a smile that I hoped would cover the heartbreak that was on my face.
"Okay," he leaned in and kissed me once more."I'll see you later?"
"Definitely.Bye."I fake smiled and started walking home as fast as I could.
Of course I wasn't walking for long,because Mom drove up beside me,"Get in hon."
I did."Hi."I said.
"Sweetie,what was that?"she asked.
"Nothing.That was nothing."I lied.
"It didn't seem like 'nothing'.What happened to friendish?And defending him,and visiting him in New York?I don't think people do all of that for not even an acquaintance."she said.
"Look,I'm not always right.I,at the time,thought maybe we were friendish,but we're not.He's annoying and apparently my conversations are only worth two words.And I have so many better things to do with my time,so does he apparently.So whatever.But no,we're not friends or friendish,or even friendly.He's just there."I said.
"Uh huh."
"Yes,and you were right."I continued in my rant."I shouldn't have been hanging out with Jess,it doesn't matter now,what's done is done.But I learn from my mistakes and I'm definitely not going to make them twice.Why should I be his friend?"I pushed my hair back be hind my ear."He's a rebel,I'm not.Not meant to be paired."I finished.
"I admire your attitude."
"Thank you."
After a few seconds,"You have feelings for Jess."she stated.
"Yes I do.Feelings of antipathy,animosity and just plain dislike."I said.
"Okay,those aren't the kind of feelings I was thinking."
"Well that's how I feel about him."I said.
"Sure."she said unconvinced.
"I do."I insisted.I mean he has a bad attitude,he always skips class,he won't even try to do his schoolwork,he's wasting all of the brains he has.And,he likes Ernest Hemingway.Not to mention,he hates Dean and Dean hates him.And I've been a bad girlfriend because of Jess,so I'm going to fix that."I said,but didn't feel like that was enough so I instantly added this lie.,"I'm happy for him."
"Oh yes,of course,that's why you looked like someone pulled your heart out of your chest,threw it on the ground and jumped up and down on it,Now it makes since."she said sarcastically.
I sighed,"I'll get over it."I resigned.I couldn't hide it from her,so there's no use in trying.
"Animus feelings too?"she asked.Well,yeah,I imagine that I'll be avoiding him,so smile, you don't have to go to Luke's anymore.After a second and no reply,she went on."Why?"she asked."You guys were friends,you can't deny that."she said.
"Well fine,we were.I guess our friendship just wasn't as strong as I'd hoped."Not to mention I screwed up royally by kissing him and leaving."Oh well,he has 'come back Shane', I have 'Jan and Dean' ,everybody's happy."I said.
"You're not."she said simply as we pulled into our driveway.
"Well I will be."I answered stubbornly.
We were home for a few minutes and I decided to call Dean."Hello?"
"Hi,Dean."I said.
"Hey,Rory."
"So,I have to go to my grandparents' tonight,but I have time for a walk before I go.If you want."I added.
"Sure,I'l be there in a few minutes."he said.
"Okay."
"I love you,bye."
Uh."Bye."I hung up.How rude was that.
I sat down and read Jane Magazine for a few minutes then I heard the doorbell ring.
"I got it."I called out and went to open the door."Jess."Agh!Go away!!
"Hi,expecting someone else?"
"Yes."I answered.
"So,since when do you hate me?"he asked.
"I don't hate you.I just played archaeologist and found some animosity,didn't want to put it to waste."I said.
"Why are you the one mad at me?"he asked.I don't know,gee,I wonder.Could it have something to do with my heart being broken???I probably shouldn't be mad.But I am.
I looked over my shoulder,"Well,as much as I would just love to stand here and talk to you,ther's a dirty dish in the sink with my name on it.Bye."I went to shut the door,but he put his arm up and held it open."Excuse me."
"A dirty dish isn't urgent."he said.
"Fine.The kitchen is on fire.Bye now."I shut the door.I turned around and leaned against the door for a moment to ease the hurt.Then I walked in the livingroom to the couch.
Jess stood there at the door watching her silhouette leaning on the door then finally disappearing to the livingroom.Then he too walked away,but not before meeting Dean at the end of the driveway.
"What are you doing here?"Dean asked.
"Havin a tea party."Jess replied sarcastically.
"You're so funny I almost forgot to laugh."Dean replied.
"That's a bummer."
"Why don't you stay away from my girlfriend."Dean warned.
"Why don't you try and make me."Jess said."Bye bagboy."And with that Jess left.
Dean could blow fire by now.He shook his head as Jess walked away.He went up to our door and rang the doorbell.
"I got it again."I called toward the kitchen where Mom was
.
"'Kay,if it's Jess,tell him I said 'hi'."she called back.
"Oh you're funny."I said,then opened the door."Hi,Dean."
"Hey."
"Mom,I'm going for a walk."I called.
"With?"
"Dean,of course."
"Bye then."
We walked out onto the road.
"So,I saw Jess isn't in New York anymore."Dean finally said.
"No,he's not."I replied.
"And you knew this?"
"Yes I did."
So,you know that Jess is in StarsHollow again?"
"I said yes."Can we please not talk about him?
"Why would you not tell me that?"he asked.
"I guess it slipped my mind,or I didn't have time."
"Just a quick 'hey Dean,Jess is back' took too long?"
"Look Dean,I forgot to tell you,I'm sorry if Jess isn't on my mind every breathing moment!He doesn't occupy my every thought!"I accidentally snapped."I just have other things on my mind.Besides,who cares if he's back?You don't even like him."I said hotly,despite my trying not to snap at him.It wasn't meant for him.
"Exactly,I hate him!But see,it's the whole him not hating you thing,that makes me want to know if he's here or in New York."he argued.This is great.
"Yes,I know you hate him,I'm not blind,I would have to be if I didn't know that."I pointed out.
"Rory,I didn't say that you were.I just-you should have told me!That way,when I bump into him leaving your driveway,'he said,letting me know that he knew Jess had been there."I wouldn't be quite as surprised.That may have been nice.You know,if my girlfriend would have maybe clued me in,"he said,frustrated.
I sighed,"This is charming,Well next time,check the diner and maybe take a headcount,so that you can see if another male our age is near.Just in case it slips my mind."I said.**(a/n:Yes I know she's being kind of a jerk,but sometimes when someone breaks your heart you lash out at other people,sorry)**
"Another-"he scoffed,"That's not what I was saying either,you just twisted my words.Did I say you had to report any male within a mile,'cause that's not what I heard."he replied angrily and slightly defensive.
By now we had made it to the square and stopped."Why are you doing this?"I asked him.
"Why am I doing what?!"he asked.
"Why are you making such a big deal about this?"I asked.
A few people walking by suddenly slowed to a stop and listened to our heated arguement with intent interest.
"I'm not,you're the one that snapped at me as soon as I mentioned Jess' name.It seems like everytime Jess is mentioned you snap at me,we always fight about him."he said,which was pretty much the truth.
"That's because you act so jealous of him.Why?"I replied.
"Everyone in this town knows why I have to be jealous of him,Rory!!Well,no,with the exception of your stand-in,she probably doesn't!"he got louder.We were too wrapped up in our arguement to notice most of Stars Hollow,including Jess and Shane,were now watching.
"You know you don't have to yell,and what on earth are you talking about?"I asked.
"Oh you know what I'm talking about!"he replied,too wound up to be quiet.
"No I don't!"I shouted back."Stand-in?Have you gone crazy?"
He slightly controlled his anger."The blonde,I don't know her name."he said frustrated.Causing Shane to frown.
"You mean Shane?"I asked lowering my voice with an unitentional disgusted look.
His eyes widened,"See!"he got louder again.Shane and Jess were both listening,interested,and with good reason.
"What?I knew her name?How is that some hideous crime?"I asked.
"No.The way you looked and felt at saying her name.Jealousy was written all over your face."Shane looked at Jess to see his reaction,it was pleased.
"Oh please."I rolled my eyes.I didn't care if it was true.
"I'm serious.Heck,it wouldn't surprise me if you already had a picture of her on a dartboard!"he shouted annoyed.
"Oh my gosh."I said quieter,"That's mature Dean."I said sarcastically.
"Yeah well,excuse me,I'm sorry it doesn't make me jump through hoops that my girlfriend is jealous of some other guy's
girlfriend.Please forgive me."
"You've lost it.That's not true."I lied,being sure to avoid his eyes.
"I really wish you'd make up your mind."he said.
"And I wish I knew what you were talking about."I retorted.
Then Dean finally noticed the crowd of people,"Could we walk?"
"I'd say that's a good idea." I walked over to him and we walked a few feet so that we were away from the crowd.Neither of us noticed Jess and Shane."Okay now,"we stopped,"What are you talking about?"I asked even though I knew.
"I'm talking about you liking Jess."he said slowly,so that I'd finally get it,and annoyed.
"I do not.You obviously didn't witness or hear about my little performance earlier."I said thinking I'd found my defence.
The people only followed us over here.But we didn't notice.
"What are you talking about?"he asked.
"Earlier,when I was lucky enough to meet Shane.It was a little scene that ended with Jess thinking I hated him.I went-"
"That was only because you met Shane,and it made you mad."he cut me off.
Stop being right!!"Look,that's not true."I lied,getting quite tired of arguing.Not noticing the crowd was still watching.
"Really?"he asked rediculously."So that's why you can't look me in the eye?"
I ignored this."Really."I said reducing my voice severely.Trying to sound sincere in telling this bold faced lie.
"I think it's true Rory."he said also severely lowering his voice.
"No,you have to believe me,"Because I'm lying through my teeth.I still didn't notice Jess or Shane.
"You like him."he said.
"I don't."I insisted.
"You like him."Dean said nodding.
"I don't."I shook my head.
"Rory,you like him."he insisted.
"Are we playing word tennis?"I asked getting slightly annoyed.
"No,"he then noticed the crowd."Okay,this time let's walk and not stop."he suggested.
"Good idea."I agreed.This is none of Stars Hollow's business.We started walking again.
"Are you sure you don't like him?"he asked,even though he knew I did.I think he was going to look the other way again.Was.
"Yes,I'm sure.I love you Je-"No I did not! "uh,Dean.I- Dean."I tried desperately to cover it.
He stopped abruptly and I could feel how angry he was.With reason.Very good reason.He turned to face me."You."he took a deep breath"You just said-!"he cut himself off shaking his head.
"Dean,I didn't mean-it was an accident,we had just been-"I was all ready to give a lie to explain myself.
"Rory!You just said I love you Jess to me!"he cut me off.
Yeah,you know,I did."No!"I don't know why I tried to deny it,how could I? "I-I it was-it was just-we had just been talking about-and I don't- I can't believe that I almost said that.I don't-"I decided to stop,this was a waste of time,I was getting nowhere."I'm sorry."I finally said softly,looking at the ground,wishing to just disappear.But no,I didn't even deserve to diasappear.
"Whatever."he said.Jess could no longer fight a smile.A few people noticed and looked at Jess.
"I'm sorry,I honestly don't know what else to say."I said.
He nodded,"That's because there is nothing else to really say,is there?"
I just kept my eyes focused on the ground,I couldn't look him in the eye.No.There really isn't.
"I guess there's nothing left to hide now.There's also no reason to pretend that we have a relationship anymore.We don't."
Shane didn't want to believe any of that.Who would?She put her arm around Jess.That's not true,she kept telling herself.He,however,didn't return the arm around her,instead he just kind of moved away from her.She,taking the hint,put her arm down.It's not true.Is it?
Are you aware of what you make me feel,baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you,like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?Here's what I have to say.
Shane started to realize that eferything Dean was saying was true.He was right.She crossed her arms unhappily.
Am I just some chick you placed beside you?
To take somebody's place.
When you turn around,can you recognize my face?
She looked at Jess one more time,hoping to be wrong.But the look she saw in his eyes when he was watching Rory,told her more than enough.She moved up closer to Rory and Dean."He's right."she said pointing to Dean.
A/N:Please review!!
