It had been 1 year since her death and I feel like it was yesterday. She was perfectly imperfect. She tired so hard to be the best mom ever, and from what my uncles tell me, it's because her own childhood. It wasn't great. I hope she knew, the light she brought to me.
2 years earlier
"Noah, hurry up!" Olivia shouted from the bottom of the stairs.
She checked her watch, realizing they are both going to be late. "Noah, I do have to be at work at a certain time as you do, come on!"
Upstairs in his room 16 year old Noah was shuffling through his drawers, looking for his assignment for his linguistics class. He really hated that class but it was that or something stupid, so he took it. At least, he wouldn't fall asleep in class. After hearing Olivia's last comment, he found it, shoved it in his bag, and ran downstairs.
"God, mom, I'm coming. I need my homework, you know" he said, grabbing his coat, drinking his orange juice and eating a bagel.
"Well, if you would put it in your bag as soon as finish, you wouldn't need to find it." As she got her purse, and coat on as well.
"Yeah, ok" he mumbled walking out the door.
Olivia shook her head and grabbed her keys and went out the door to start her day.
As she rolled up to his school, dropping Noah off
"Have a nice day at school, sweetie" patting his arms. He didn't like hugs anymore. Wow, her baby is a teen now. It's hard for her but she knew it would happen.
"Thanks Mom, love you, bye" he quick jumped out the black SVU and waved.
She waved back and called her Sargent, "Fin, I'm on way, sorry"
"No problem, Capt. I sent Carisi and Sophia, out on a DV call. Amaro and Rollins are finishing up some DD5s."
"Great, thanks. I'll be there soon, keep me in the loop with the DV."
"No problem. Bye."
She drove over to the precinct thinking about everything that has changed. She never thought she'd be captain, or have a older son, much less a little girl as well. With that thought she called her daughter. "Hello" a little girl answered
"Hi baby, you having fun with daddy?" "Oh yes, mommy. We go sledding and I made a snowman!" She said with excitement. "Oh yeah, that does sound very fun! where's daddy" smiling with just the sound of her voice. "He is right here, wanna talk to him, mommy?"giggling.
"Yes, baby" she heard shuffling and then voices in the background, which she assumed it was the t.v
"Hello, Liv?" He said with a bit of a surprise tone.
"Hey, Alex, I'm just calling to ask if you can bring Lucy to the precinct later, instead of the house?" She sense hesitation, she spoke again," it's just that Noah is going to spend a night at a friends and it would really help with time saving."
He coughed "uhh yeah, sure, of course. Am I gonna see you there or are you going to have your minion take her?"
She rolled her eyes," nope, I will definitely be there" saying as politely as she could.
"Okay see you at 6pm? Maybe we could all get dinner?" He said casually.
"Uhh I can't. We are going to a friends for dinner." She lied, she couldn't risk dinner with him again, it stirred up old feelings. Feelings that were no longer wanted.
"Yeah, sure." He huffed.
She parked and bid her goodbyes and I love yous to her daughter.
She walked in, said her hellos, got a follow up on the dv, and went to her office.
