The idea just came up , it' a mixture of Ghost of girlfriends past and Christmas carol and many others probably but not exactly the same and it won't be long one or two more so tell me if you like it or not .

Disclaimer : don't own any thing .

' I don't believe you ' she blurted out tears burning in her eyes not believing that after all those years of unrequited love that the man that friendzoned her would feel the same way especially when she was finally accepting her defeat and moving on with another man .. it had to be a trick .

He closed his eyes swallowing her accusation determined to stay calm because it wouldn't do them any good if they were both fuming .

'But this is the truth ,it is the truth of how I feel .. you can refuse my love but you can't deny it Teresa ' his eyes blurred with tears ..all his life he had never cried for a woman that wasn't his wife and after their murder he had never thought that the one who would bring him literally to his knees would be Teresa Lisbon .

Tears fell on her cheeks and she shook her head her face hardening then quietly left the place .

Jane's eyes followed her then lingered at the door after she left for long not knowing when it had all started or what should he do now the interrogation room suddenly closing up on him and he felt he couldn't breath.

So nothing was what he decided , he quickly just walked out of the place then to his Airstream to lick his wounds privately .

Teresa just went to the next bar willing herself to drink until she forgot his name or her whole messed up life .

After she agreed to accompany Marcus to DC she thought that the hard part was over but then she had looked into Jane's warm deep eyes and suddenly she felt as if her tongue was tied in a knot and her irregular heartbeats threatened of the possibility of a heart attack if she went through with the talk and told him that she was leaving him ..that he would be there next day but she won't and as days passed it seemed impossible to say anything so surrendering to her cowardliness shameful of her own actions she stopped trying and decided to leave it to the coincidence when he surprised her one day after he brought her her morning coffe .

' Lisbon , do you believe that there is a rumor about you transferring to DC already ' he said grinning trying to sound casual no intention of showing that he had even thought about that being a truth even after Cho assured him that it was .

She looked like deer caught in headlight and slowly rose from her chair ' Jane , I .. it's not a rumor 'she said her voice so weak and sad .

His gaze shifted from friendly to cold ' You were going to DC without even telling me about it ..what was your plan ? that I wake up one day and come here to an empty desk and a note '.

She breathed heavily her eyes like a fire from anger ' You know It wouldn't have let it go that far and I would have told you .. and I funny that scenario you made up Jane since all I had from our last far well was a voice message 'she hissed grudge and pain on her breathe .

He swallowed obviously hurt and she immediately regretted her words taken back by the shame and pain she saw in his eyes ' Jane ..i am sorry .. I didn't mean ..'.

He smiled a sad smile and put up a hand to stop her from going on ' No need .. I guess I deserved this 'he said then left the bullpen in quick steps to the elevator .

' What can I do for you honey ' said the bartender and she snapped out of the flashback .

' Whiskey . please ' she said and the middle aged woman smiled at her in sympathy obviously used to people sinking their troubles in the intoxicating glasses .

She had just finished the third glass when she felt a little light headed so she decided to stop there before she wouldn't be able to drive herself home and she didn't want really to call Pike to drive her when she wasn't in a mood for answering a question about the reason behind her gloominess .

She opened the door to her house a little tipsy and exhausted so she just took off her shoes and threw them on the floor each in a corner across the room then fell on her couch when she heard a familiar voice female voice ' That's not a way a lady treated her shoes ' she jumped straight and regretted moving fast when room started spinning and she saw no one so she decided to take a shower to relax after the emotionally exhausting day so she left the tube to be filled then took her tooth brush and started washing her teeth and when she bent to wash her mouth and back up and looked in the mirror she screamed then turned around slowly putting a hand on her mouth eyes wide .

The dark haired woman folded her hands in front of her chest and raised her eyebrows ' Teresa Marie Lisbon ..is this how you greet your mother ..you are lacking some manners young lady ' .

Sorry for any mistakes , Next : Lisbon takes a stroll in Patrick Jane's memory palace .