SWEET SENSATION OF LOVE

DISCLAIMER:I don't own Gakuen Alice and Sakuya Ookochi (Kaikan Phrase) though I wished to be.


Coming Home

"I swiped my net in the air...

the butterfly that fell into my hands that day...

spun me a web, that is named Forbidden Fruit..."

"Remember this; I will never stop loving you, even it costs me my life… I love you, goodbye." That was the last sentence I heard from his lips.

It was still lingering in my ears. The days went by so fast. It seemed like I heard it just a few minutes ago, but the truth really hurt me. It was like a blade cutting through my heart multiple times.

Yeah these feelings, loneliness and pains were still continuing for the past three years now. The man I had deeply fallen in love with was the man who saved me from danger and died for the sake of my own stupidity.

Right now I was alone in the darkness without any clue on how and when I could see light again. The darkness inside me was slowly killing me.

Despite this, I had to be strong to cover up all the pain inside me. I didn't want my family and friends to be in troubled again.

I'd been pretending to be a happy-go-lucky little brunette for so long. I'd already gotten used to showing my fake smile to everyone except of course to my best friend, Hotaru Imai.

She is the only one who could see the inner me. She is always by my side whenever I needed a person to talk to. She know what I really feel even when I didn't utter a single word.

That is what I like about having Hotaru at my side.

After that traumatic incident three years ago, Hotaru never left me. She had always comforted me and never failed to make me feel a little bit better. But sadly I admitted that it wasn't enough to make me forget the past… the past that turned my whole life upside down.

My life was not complete anymore. It seemed there was a space inside me which was empty. No. It was actually like my other half had gone missing.

The half of me had already passed on to the other world; to the world that I wished to be in.

Enough of these crazy thoughts!

Right now, I needed to prepare my things and get myself ready immediately or else my big brother was going to help me to the other world earlier than I thought.

Not that I didn't want to. It was just that I didn't want to look like an ugly panda if ever that happened.

"Mikan, you're going to be late for your flight! Hurry up! They won't wait for you, ugly pig."

Grrrrr, hearing his voice make me appear like a monster from his nightmares. Oh, I forgot to introduce him.

Well unfortunately, he is my elder brother, Reo Sakura, 21 years old and a university student at St. Nicholas University here in California.

He is taking engineering as his course.

"Okay, okay… I'm coming just a few minutes." I said hurriedly.

"Pffft yeah, like you were really hurrying your lazy butt." Reo-san said.

"Enough already, stop teasing Mikan. She can't finish her packing if you're just standing there. Go help her now." Aw! I love him so much.

By the way, he is our eldest brother, Rei Sakura, 24 years old and an intern doctor from a prestigious medical school.

"Thank you, Onii-san! You heard him, Reo-san? Hurry up and help me carry this heavy bag." I evilly smiled at him.

"Sigh You're really lucky today, ugly panda." Reo-san said while giving away an evil aura.

Whoosh, it really scares me off but I'm sure I will miss this face of him.

Right now my big brothers and I were going to the airport. I was leaving this lovely state of America.

I was sure I'll going to miss California. After three years, I had already adapted to the way of life while living here.

But I had to leave now; I already missed my hometown, my very own country, Japan. Hotaru was definitely waiting for me there and I really missed her. It was quite a long time since I saw her face and I couldn't wait to hug her tightly.

****At the Airport****

"Are you ready? Do you have everything you need? While you're still here, make sure you have everything." Rei-san thoughtfully said.

"Yeah everything is ready. Don't worry Onii-san." I smiled at him making sure that everything was in order.

"Here, don't lose this address. That place will be your new home when you reach Japan. And don't go there by yourself. Wait for Hotaru and ask for the direction. Got it?" Reo-san said with a worried expression on his face.

Sighed, I will definitely miss my big brothers.

"No worries! I'll be fine. Hotaru will come to fetch me as soon as I arrive there." I said cheerfully.

"Fine, okay go inside now; you're going to be late. Be careful. I don't want any trouble once you're already there. Watch your steps. You know what I mean, little girl." Rei-san warned me and kissed me on the forehead as a farewell.

The truth is that his words are scary and it hurts me a little. I know he was just concerned but it is still painful. I had them troubled and made them worry because of what happened three years ago.

It is in the past now for everyone except me as it is still clear as ever to my heart that it's slowly killing me. He just didn't want it to happen again and neither do I.

That's why he reminded me, though I was touched because he just showed his concern to me.

"Yes Onii-san. I will not give you any serious headaches anymore. But promise me you're going to find some woman to marry when I get back, okay?" I teasingly told him and something shocking that I never expected to happen but it did happened!

He blushed! I never intend to make him blush but he did!

Huh! Something out of the ordinary is going on with him. I laughed inwardly.

Someday I will certainly find out what his love life status is.

Right now, I just let it pass.

"Hey ugly panda, don't forget to call us if you have a problem, okay? Even if it will make us mad or worried don't hesitate to call. If someone makes you cry, just dial my number and leave it to me. Do you understand panda? Hmph, I'm going to miss you too, little girl." Reo-san said with teary eyes.

I was already missing my big brothers right now.

"And by the way say 'Hi' to Hotaru for me." Reo-san told me.

I smell something fishy here too, but never mind. It was just my wild imagination taking me over right now.

"Okay! I'll definitely not forget your words, Reo-san." And I kissed him on the cheek.

"Mikan, don't forget this." Rei-san handled me a small bottle. I already knew what it was.

"This is your additional medicine from Dr. Fitzpatrick. If you feel your heart aches, immediately drink one of these tablets, along with your other prescribed medicines. It's a painkiller. As long as it is painful take this, okay? And call me after." He informed me.

"Don't worry, I'll take it and call you." I assured him."I'll be fine. Don't worry for nothing, Onii-san. I promise I'll call and e-mail both of you every time I'm free." I showed them my trademark smile.

"See you soon. I love you both, bye!" I waved my hands in farewell until I couldn't see them anymore.

I left California alone. As a matter of fact, this was my first time traveling by myself. It was a little bit tense coming home without informing my other friends except for Hotaru.

I knew they might be mad at me for not informing them, but I didn't want to broadcast to the whole town that I was coming home and made some big deal about it.

It made me sick just thinking about it especially if Sumire would have known about it earlier, though I missed Permy too.

****At the Plane****

WELCOME ABOARD

This is it. I'm going back now. I'm ready to face everyone, every person who insulted my dignity. I'm now ready to fight my fights.

I'm not the Mikan I used to be three years ago. I am now a fighter, a powerful woman, independent, and a totally different Mikan.

Oh God! Please, let me stay like this until the end. I wished everything I thought right now would come true. Dear God, let my wish came true.

WE ARE NOW IN JAPAN

Holy Ghost! Why do I feel so nervous and excited? Is this normal? Should I go back to California and hide for the rest of my life? Something is not right.

I felt goose bumps. No not this time! I need to be tough. I was getting off the plane now.

Oh God my feelings hadn't changed. But I badly want to see Hotaru now.

****Outside the Airport****

Oh my! I can't see Hotaru. This is bad. Why is it so crowded right now? I felt teary and I really couldn't find Hotaru.

Waaaaaaah! Did she forget what day I'm coming back? What should I do? How am I supposed to go by myself?

"Mikan!" I just heard someone familiar calling my name. I looked around but I can't find anyone familiar.

Someone tapped my right shoulder and I turned around. There I saw a Goddess with raven-colored short hair and purple eyes.

I'm positive! It's Hotaru!

"~HOTARUUUUU!~" I gave her a bear hug right away.

And surprisingly she didn't hit me like she usually did but instead she hugged me back tightly.

I felt like crying. Not in a sad manner but it was because I'm happy. I finally got to see my best friend again.

"Hey stop it already you baka. My expensive shirt is now wet because of you." She released me from her embrace and faced me to wipe my tears away.

I smiled. "Sorry. I got carried away. It's just because I missed you so much!" I lightly hugged her again and kissed her cheeks.

I remembered when we were kids. Our playmates sometimes accused us of being yuri because we held hands every time we walked together, hugged each other, even kissed.

But of course we were kids back then so it wasn't meant like that. It was just a normal act for us as best friends.

Little Hotaru never shared any emotions not even a single one to other kids expect me of course! As we grew up, she learned how to show her feelings especially when she was annoyed. She was fond of shooting our classmates with her baka gun.

Oh yeah I forgot that I had not been exempt. She just stopped shooting me when we were… hmmm I kind of forgot when… wait let me think.

Aha! Yeah when I was diagnosed with heart failure at 14 years old, she stopped shooting me with the baka gun as often.

And she totally discarded it when that incident happened when I was 15 years old;

I honestly missed her old self. She was really mature now that we were 18 years old.

"Hey, you're daydreaming again. Are you okay?"

"Huh? Yup! I'm totally fine hahaha… I'm starving. Come on Hotaru let's have a 'Welcome Home' party for me! Just the two of us pretty please?" I showed her my puppy eyes and ha! It worked.

Sighed. "You didn't need to show that ugly face. Anyway we were still going to eat and of course it was your TREAT since it was your party. Got it?"

I pouted.

"You meanie. Fine my treat!" Like when we were kids, we held hands and got inside her luxurious car.

"How are Auntie and Uncle?" I asked.

"Mom and Dad are fine. They travel a lot nowadays." She coolly replied with no hint of sadness in her eyes.

It was usual for her to be alone at their mansion. Even her big brother, Saburano Imai, a 26 years old doctor, was now living in New York to handle their very own hospital there.

"Oh I see so tell me about school, tell me about our friends, tell me about what happened to all of you guys when I wasn't around."

"Are you sure? Do you want to know what really happened while you were away? Huh, Mikan?" I was shocked because of what she said. Actually, I didn't really know if I wanted to.

The more I think about it the more I'm afraid to hear.

She sighed. "Never mind nothing has really changed since then. You don't have to worry. Since you left this country, the issue died. We're here. Come on, let's eat now."

"Whoa! You're going to take me to the Old Spaghetti House? It's too expensive here! I can't afford your order. Let's just find some other restaurant."

"Baka come on, let's eat here. I was joking a while ago. I know this is your favorite place. Don't worry; it's my treat, but only THIS TIME." She pulled me across the entrance so I didn't have a choice.

I smiled but I still wanted to eat here so I'm happy!

We talked a lot while eating. She told me everything that had happened to our friends.

And I was happy that the group was still all here.

Yuu and Anna are now exclusively dating.

Mochu and Nonoko are now in their fourth year of dating and still going strong.

Koko and Sumire are on and off but they were still on good terms.

What was really shocking is that Hotaru and Ruka are now exclusively dating. Not that I didn't know Ruka's feelings toward her because we were classmates since 4thgrade and he'd already had a crush on her. But Hotaru? I never imagined that someday she would return those same feelings to Ruka.

"So since when have you two been exclusively going out? I mean Hotaru we never lost contact. We still sent e-mails every now and then but you never told me about it."

"He's been my boyfriend for a month now. Our last exchange of e-mails was two months ago Mikan."

"Oh I see .Ahmmm…sorry for that. I thought you hid it from me." I scratched my forehead in embarrassment.

When we finished our dinner, she drove me off to the address which Reo-san gave me.

Wow! The house is pretty cute. It's not a mansion like what I used to live in when I was a kid but it is not small either.

I'd be going to live in a two-story house from now on with a huge front gate two times my height but you can see the garden and a terrace inside.

Honestly, I loved the flowers I'm seeing right now.

"Thanks. Want to come in? Let's look at my new place together Hotaru!" I pulled her out of the car but she stopped me.

"It's already late, Mikan. I need to finish some documents for the school meeting tomorrow maybe next time."

"But! It's still early!"

"Sigh All you need to do is rest and prepares yourself for tomorrow. You're going to attend our school again remember?"

"Oh yeah I remember. But I want to have fun tonight. Come on lets go to the nearest club here. Lets rock and roll! Please?" For the second time I tried to use my puppy eyes on her.

I saw a vein pop around her temple. I knew we wouldn't be going out again that night.

"Mikan that stupid eyes trick won't work on me for a second time, baka. I'm in a hurry now so see you tomorrow." She got back in her car.

"Wait?" She opened her window. "Reo-san said 'Hi' to you. That's all. See you tomorrow." I smiled at her while waving my hands.

"Hn." Came her response.

I wonder what was going on between those two. Never mind Hotaru is now with Ruka and it's impossible to think about her and my big brother.

I pressed the doorbell once and someone spoke into the machine.

"Sakura residence, may I help you?" An old lady answered on the other line.

I know that voice! The voice of my old nanny, Miya-san!

"Miya-san! It's me, Mikan." I replied excitedly.

"Oh my, Mikan! Come in…The gate is already unlocked. Come in dear."

The gate slightly opened confirming that it wasn't already locked.

So I opened the gate and walked inside. Miya-san definitely lived here as I saw the surroundings full of different flowers and of course my most favorite flower, the Petunia, would never be missing from her collection.

This garden is so much like Miya-san. Oh I missed her too.

The front door opened and Miya-san welcomed me with a hug. I hugged her back.

"Mikan dear welcome back. How's your flight?"

"Oh Miya-san I missed you! It's fine. I'm just a little bit exhausted but I'm okay." I assured her with my trademark smile.

"So Mikan do you like your new home? Sorry it's so small compared to your old mansion. Your brother, Rei, bought this house after he sold your mansion. He let me live here to take care of the house which was to be your rest house if you ever planned to come visit Japan but I never expected you to live here again." She stated.

Oh yeah I remembered. Right after the incident, Rei-san sold our mansion to pay for my therapy and we immigrated to California.

So that's why Reo-san gave me a new address. I didn't know this because half of my stay in California was in a petrifying hospital and Japan was banned from our conversations back then.

"Well this house isn't so bad. In California we lived in a small flat. So don't worry. I like it here." I answered politely.

Honestly, this house looks comfortable enough. The themes of the wall were peach with petals as a design and it was relaxing to my eyes.

I went around the house as Miya-san and the two maids carried my things upstairs to my new room.

Well the first floor has a living room to the right side of the front door, the left corner occupied with antiques and my family pictures were on the shelves along with some old books.

The stairs landed just in front of the main entrance door; to the left of the stairs was the dining room while on the other side of the stair was a glass window from where you can see the beauty of Miya-san 's garden. Oh! How relaxing this place was.

"Miss Mikan, your things are already fixed. You may come into your room now." One of the maids informed me politely.

"Thank you." I smiled and went upstairs.

The 2ndfloor was simple with antiques decorating the corners and the same theme from down stairs.

There were four bedrooms and in the southeast corner of the house was my room where Miya-san guided me.

"Mikan this will be your room from now on. I'll leave the rest to you." She said as she went out of my room leaving me here alone.

"Thanks." I muttered.

This room was really small compared to my old room. But I still liked it though; the room was pink, and… Wait a minute. My old stuffed toys were still here!

My Pooh, my teddy bears, and my dolly dolls!

Miya-san iss really great. I'm so happy!

In the corner of my eyes, I saw a picture frame on the bedside table.

The picture was very familiar. As I moved closer, I saw a picture of me smiling with my friends and in the very left corner of the picture was our sensei, I forget his name, which was standing with our… Ohhh. Nice recall… Our oh-so-forgot-the-name sensei is standing with our school doctor, Sakuya.

Ookochi Sakuya our cool and very attractive school doctor. I didn't forget his name.

Not that he was not handsome enough to remember it but he was the guy who dared to catch my heart.

The guy who made me believe that life was a fairy tale.

The guy who made me his princess and his life.

The guy who taught me to value love more than my own life.

The same guy who pushed my life down into the vast world of darkness, who left me behind in this bizarre world and made my heart became cold.

Yeah, he's the man I loved three years ago and I still hadn't stopped loving him.

Ookochi Sakuya, the man whom I fell in love with, traded his very own life for the sake of my safety. But did he even know that he already took half of my life with him?

As I was reminiscing about the past, a teardrop poured down from my left eye onto my cheek.

Oh my what's going on? My heart was beating so fast that I could barely breathe now.

I couldn't stop my tears.

Why? Why did I love you, Sakuya-sensei? Why did you do this to me? Why did you leave me here all alone? Didn't you care about me, about us?

I kept on asking myself these questions and I suddenly burst into tears as I laid down on my bed still holding the picture against my chest until my vision started to blur and I drifted off into sleep.

Truly I had a long day. I'm tired, Sakuya-sensei. I want to be with you. When are we going to meet again?

End of Chapter 1^_^


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