I have been working on this fanfiction for days, literally. Just to get it posted to you guys! I can honestly say that I am so proud of how this turned out. This is probably my favorite fanfiction that I have ever written, and I hope you agree. I thought of this first part while at my dad's house tonight and I had to write it down, so I spent a good two hours or so writing down what I basically wanted via iPod (which sucked) and then embellished parts here and there. I think that Taz might be slightly au, but if you think about it the only person that she (in my world) loves has left her alone and she's scared, depressed, and confused and without anyone to turn to. With that being said, here is part 1 of 2 to my Tup fanfiction! (a fun note, I actually wrote the second part first and decided that I would write this as a prequel to it...it turned out to be a lot bigger than I expected!) (another note: I used google translate since my native language is English with a teeny bit of French sprinkled in, so I know squat about the Spanish language! Any spanish can be easily translated there!) And remember, your thoughts are greatly appreciated and I welcome them! I already have part 2 written, but if you guys review then I'll post it faster! :)


Taz stared coldly at the starship rangers who were loading into the docked starship, knowing that it was their fault that Up was leaving. They were taking Up away from her. The person in question came up next to her and laid a gentle hand on her shoulder, Taz stiffened at the contact but didn't push him away. Eventually, she leaned into him, taking comfort in his presence.

"Shouldn't jou be boarding jour ship now?" Up chuckled.

"Taz, I'm the commander, they have to wait for me." She laughed along with him and they both stood quietly for a moment, until Up spoke again, "I'll be back before you know it, don't worry about me." Taz had been cold towards him during this entire past week, and although he took a stab in the dark to guess what was wrong with the small girl, he knew that he had guessed right. Taz sighed and pulled away so that she was facing Up.

"I'm not worried, I know that jou will keep jourself safe, it's just…" she hesitated, "I will just miss jou," Up nodded and pulled Taz into a tight hug.

"I'll miss you too Taz, you're my best friend and I can't think of going one day without seeing you, let alone three months." Up sighed, thinking about the inevitable goodbyes that they would have to share. "I'll be back before you know it, this mission shouldn't take that long." Taz scoffed doubtfully and pulled out of his embrace, ready to leave him on the loading dock without any sappy goodbyes but he grabbed her hand, pulling her back to him. "No, I promise you. By this time in three months I'll be back and we'll spend all of our time watching the Karate Kid over and over again. Not the newer one though, the old one with Jackie Chan in it I know that it's your favorite." Taz smiled at his promise, burying her face into his chest. "Then, after we've watched the movie a hundred times, I'll treat you to some ice cream, or maybe frozen yogurt, I know that you've been watching your figure lately," Up laughed gleefully at his tease as he leapt out of the way of Taz's fists and grabbed them easily, already predicting her moves before she even landed any blows. Despite Up's teasing and their bickering, Taz was grinning widely.

She wrapped her arms around Up and hugged him tightly, which he returned. Up knew that it would be different without Taz being around him, she always brought out the best in him and it was her that had brought him back from when he had gone…soft. He shuddered to think of those times, but there was one bright spot in the entire ordeal; his relationship with Taz had grown stronger now that they've both seen the worst of each other, they still stuck together and were the best team the Starship Academy had ever seen. Although, sometimes he looked at Taz as more than just a friend, more than just another team member. Whenever he got those thoughts though, he scolded himself. He was her commander, forget the fact that the board would never allow it, it would be morally wrong. He shook his head at his thoughts and looked back down at Taz who was staring at him with teary eyes, which she quickly brushed away. Taz swallowed around the lump that was suddenly in her throat and she felt her eyes prickle with tears again, but she didn't allow herself to shed them. She reminded herself to stay tough, and they'd both get through this.

"It'll be infierno with jou gone. Just promise that jou'll come back." Up smiled and kissed the top of her head.

"I will Taz, I'll make sure that I do."

Taz nodded and reluctantly pulled out of their embrace. She saw a ranger walking towards them and looking quite uncomfortable at their hug. Taz didn't care though; she never cared when it came to Up. Taz gestured in the boy's direction to Up. Up noticed the boy and after he put him at ease, the boy delivered the news that Taz was dreading.

"Commander Up, we're waiting for you to board." Up nodded and sighed, looking back at Taz standing by herself, looking quite lonely. Up rushed over to her and gave her a quick, reassuring hug and fell into step beside the other ranger. When they had gotten to the door of the starship, Up turned around and waved goodbye to Taz.

"Goodbye Taz! I'll be back before you can even miss me!" Taz laughed around her teary eyes and waved back.

"Goodbye Up! Jou better come back or else I'm gonna kick jour ass!" They laughed together and shared another short moment before Up stepped onto the starship and got ready for take-off. Taz saw Up waving at her from a window and she waved back towards him. She had longed to say more to Up before he left, longed to tell him how she felt about him, but she didn't want him to tell her that he didn't feel the same way about her. Ignoring her rambling thoughts, Taz waved at Up until she could no longer see his starship in the night sky. She thought of what UP had said right before he left, "I'll be back before you can even miss me!" and shook her head.

"I already miss jou Up, come back soon."


With Up gone, Taz felt more alone than ever. Some nights she would lie awake and stare at the ceiling, waiting for Up to come strolling through her door and lay down in her bed with her and they would talk until it was light. They would talk about things that didn't matter, about their hopes, their fears, their dreams, their families, they would talk about anything, just being glad for each other's company and that they had someone to talk with about these things. Of course, Up never did come to keep her company, but it was nice to think that he would. Some nights, though very few, Taz would sleep. These nights were the worst for her because the moment that she slept, the nightmares that only Up could keep away would return to her.

Eventually, three months had passed and Taz was waiting eagerly for news of Up's return, but the starship never came. All that month she waited, but still no news ever came of Up's ship.

By the time that the month was over, Taz had isolated herself from everyone else. She would come out to get her meal when the cafeteria was mostly empty, then go straight back to her room. Sometimes she would go days without eating just so that she didn't have to speak to anyone. Taz knew that it was unhealthy, but she didn't care. Taz barely even recognized herself anymore. She now was no longer tan, since she chose not to go anywhere beside her room, she hadn't seen the sun for at least a month and she was so pale that it looked like she was constantly sick. Her days of not eating had left her looking thinner than she already did, adding to the sick look that was about her. The only thing that didn't look sick was her eyes. Her eyes burned with a fiery anger that no amount of violence could quench. Whenever her eyes landed on someone, she sent them running away as quick as their legs would take them.

Taz's crew had noticed the obvious changes in her behavior and appearance and were beginning to get worried about her. The few times that they had tried to comfort her, however, had ended in disaster. She had countless run-ins and shouting matches with Mega-girl, had insulted Tootsie on numerous occasions (which often lead to the shouting matches), had pulled her knife (and used it) on Krayonder at least a dozen times, and had Specs crying on more than one occasion. It was ultimately to her team's relief when she took to her room for days on end.

After five months were up, Taz was left to pacing her room restlessly. Her anger was built up inside her and, desperate to release some of it, she brought her fist back and punched the wall, breaking through the drywall and hitting the concrete behind it. Taz doubled over in pain, cradling her hand. Before she knew it, Taz was screaming and swearing at the wall in her native tounge.

"Vete a la mierda, maldito muro!" She slid to the ground and sobbed dryly into her one good hand, all of her tears were gone; she had nothing left to cry. She had never felt so miserable and alone. Soon, however, her sorrow turned into anger at the world, at the other rangers, at Up. He broke his promise. He said that he would be back and he lied. No one lied to Tazia Garcia Lopez! "Vete a la mierda Up, usted ha mentido a mí! Usted dijo que estaría de vuelta, pero usted mintió! Usted has dejado me solo usted hijo de puta! Espero que mueren en el que extraterrestre planeta usted hijo de puta! Espero que mueren frío y solo porque No quiero volver a verte otra vez! "

She curled up into a tight ball and sobbed, repeating over and over, "Estoy solo, usted me dejaste solo. ¿Por qué hiciste eso a mí, Up? Yo confié en usted, pero usted mintió y ahora estoy solo, Siempre voy a estar solo."