Hi, fellows! I know it's been a lifetime but now I am back and this story WILL be finished unlike my last Bensaro story. I promise! So this is a fluffy Bensaro story- probably a three shot depending on the viewers- and is set during the Seaon Premiere "Girls Disappeared", so Noah is making a special cute guest appearance and there may be some spoilers, too. You've been warned!
Have a great reading time and remember I own nothing, just this crazy idea.
The doorbell rang and she tried to balance Noah on her left side while answering her cellphone that had an impeccable timing. She hurried at the door opening it after checking the peephole. She motioned him to come in while she noticed he was carrying an arrangement of lilies, a huge stuffed dog wrapped in colorful paper and some kind of book wrapped in another fancy paper. She ended the call after some "of courses" and "making sures" and averted her attention to her visitor. He smiled hesitantly at her and moved awkwardly around the living room.
"Come on,don't be a stranger. Noah here needs a special hug from a special friend" she said smiling brightly at him. She gently handed him Noah after he set his presents to the nearby coffee, he hugged the baby and the little person immediately melted into his arms making content noises.
"I think he likes me"he said while his signature smile made an appearance.
"Well,it's only fair. You're the reason he's safe and back with me" she said back smiling appreciation laced in her voice.
"I didn't do anything at all. I just pushed things to the right direction"She said nothing but approached him and hugged him the best she could while he had Noah in his arms.
"Thank you,partner, really" she whispered.
"Don't mention it. It's what partners are for, to have each other's backs"he said started squirming and they broke the embrace as Olivia was handed the baby.
"Shh baby boy. Mama's got you. Everything is fine. Uncle Nick here saved the day" she said while keeping eye contact with him. He blushed and averted his gaze to the little man she held protectively in her arms.
"You are an incredible mom,Liv. Noah's lucky to have you"
It was her turn to blush as her cheeks turned into a deep shade of red, she mumbled something about Noah being awake past his bedtime and disappeared in the bedroom but not before motioning to him to follow her. He felt his heart getting warmer as she changed his diaper and gently rocked him in her embrace until Noah finally fell asleep.
She turned on the baby monitor and closed the door as both of them made their way back to the living room. She silently poured them two glasses of wine and joined Nick at the couch.
"These are for me?"she asked failing to hide the excitement in her voice.
"The lilies are for the beautiful mama of the amazing baby sleeping next door"She smiled brightly and headed to the kitchen in search of a vase.
"I brought this big dog for Noah and also the shop assistant suggested this educational book for infants, it's really great and I think Noah would love it. It has some kind of sound machine so the kid can watch the animals in the illustrated pictures and at the same time listen the sound of each animal..."
"Nick,it's seems great. I am sure Noah would love it and I absolutely trust you on this. Thanks!" She cut him off by setting a porcelain vase full of water at the table and placing a soft kiss on his right cheek. He smiled widely and helped her to arrange the lilies and unwrap the baby's gifts.
"You know this movie is for kids,right?" he asked amusement evident in his voice.
"Com' on,Nick. Tell me you never watched an animation movie with Zara or even Gil!"she said back.
"Yeah, but my point is that Noah is NOT here!"
"It doesn't matter. I wanna learn the movie songs by heart so I can sing them to Noah when we watch it together" she smiled happily.
" Well,well who would thought that Olivia Badass Benson would turn into an adorable mama?"She threw him a couch pillow and he pretended to be hurt as she put on "Despicable Me 2" and went back at the couch. He opened his right arm motioning her to come closer and she snuggled into his arms sniffling his after save lotion.
"I missed you"she said quietly after a sighed softly.
It's been three months since his demotion and he had deeply missed the squad,his fellow officers. Well,he hadn't actually recent contact especially with Amanda since their mutual break up three months ago,but Fin and him had gone out for drinks a couple of times and he had called Olivia often. He had missed her the most. She was his friend,his partner, his rock.
"I missed you,too,so much,Liv" he whispered back while tracing patterns in her shoulder.
"You know, I talked thoroughly with Captain Shacks earlier this night..."she said anticipating his reaction.
"You talked to my Captain?"he asked surprised.
"What did he tell you?" He went on.
"We talked about how great you coped with your undercover and how I could get you back in my squad room."she said slightly changed his position at the couch and faced her.
"How could you get me back?"he asked a smile forming on his face. She smiled back and went on explaining the situation.
"It's a matter of time,Nick. He reassured me that within the following month you'll be back at desk duty under my command. And then eventually you will get your shield back" she said happily.
"That's amazing,Liv. That's great news. You know I've been dying in that uniform. I want my suits back. Besides they fit me better and show my handsomeness" he said trying to sound serious. She half laughed discreetly as to avoid waking up Noah and lightly punched his chest.
"You can be such a pain in the ass, Amaro!"
"I know,but that's the reason you love me."he said suddenly sounding dead serious. She smiled and looked him in his brown beautiful eyes.
"Yep, that exactly why I love you so much, Nick."
She leaned forward placing once more a gentle kiss on his cheek as he sighed happily. She put her arms loosely around his waist and snuggled further in his embrace. She loved him,of that she was sure. The one thing she couldn't tell him was that she was also in love with him. She couldn't find the courage to let her feelings show especially when he had been demoted and separated from his wife and Zara,who had finally moved to LA. Besides he had chose Amanda for a romantic relationship - of course she knew from the first moment,she was no fool - and as his superior it would definitely be wrong to be romantically involved with him. Plus she had Brian since recently whom she really loved and their relationship was another deal breaker.
"Liv? I can hear you thinking..." he said breaking her train of thoughts.
"Hmm... it's nothing really..."
"Come on,Liv. What's bothering you? You can tell me,you know. I mean we haven't been close this past period but you still trust me,right?"he asked her while his brown eyes were pleading her to let him in.
"You know I do,Nick. Of course I trust you. It's just that we were partners and we will always have each others' backs, but now as your superior I am having a hard time to control my personal and professional feelings. It's really not your problem so it's not something that should bother you." She said breathlessly as she avoided his gaze.
"Shouldn't bother me? Liv you being my superior doesn't mean that you're not my friend and my partner. I care much about you and I won't stop because you're my boss"he said back annoyance evident in his looked him again and she saw the anguish at his face. His concern for her and her well being, even his guilt for the times he wasn't there to protect her. But she mustn't say to him how she feels because it would be overwhelming to face another disappointment.
"You shouldn't..."
"I shouldn't what?"
"...Care."
"Liv are you out of your mind?"
"Well,you have Amanda to care for,don't you?" She said bitterly, her voice flat,unpleasant even hostile. Nick was taken aback.
"You know about Amanda and I?"he asked failing to hide the surprise.
"Of course I know. Even before you two realised it."He said nothing. He didn't know what to say. He didn't think she would know. He came here today not make her angry or sad but to rekindle their relationship and have a nice evening with her and the baby. Now judging by the stern look on her face she was about to start shouting. In fact she would have already started if it hadn't been for Noah.
"We broke up before I left the squad. It was really nothing,just a way we both found to cope with our problems. I know I should have told you but there was never a good timing."he apologised keeping eye contact with her.
"It's Ok. You don't need to apologize for being human. I mean Maria was giving you a hard time and it was only fair to need a woman in your life. I just wanted to hear it from you."
"You're right"he simply agreed.
"So we're good?" He went on. She smiled at him and nobbed while she accepted once more his warm,inviting embrace, her ear against his heart beat as she fell asleep in his arms.
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Thanks for reading! Till next time take care and enjoy your life!
~xxx JoyfulRiri
