Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or any of the characters that are on the show. I would love to, but I don't.

The feelings that built up inside him began to erupt uncontrollably as the years went by. He didn't know how to handle the issues that stirred within his mind. It was ironic that Tohma marred Mika instead of being with the one person he desired the most... Eiri Yuki. It's true he liked Mika, but there was no satisfaction for Tohma once they were married. When they were kids, he's never gotten too close to Eiri except protecting him from the incident in New York. But even now as world-renowned president of N-G Records and keyboardist for legendary band Nittle Grasper, he feels distant from him more than ever. He couldn't help to feel envious of Eiri's relations with one of his clients Shuichi Shindou. It killed him inside when he saw Eiri and Mr. Shindou on the news as lovers.

'What does he see in that annoying little brat anyway?' Tohma thought to himself as he was sitting in his office. All his life, Touma protected Eiri everywhere he went. As long as Eiri was by his side, Tohma would be happy. But deep down inside, he's always wanted more from the blond haired novelist. In Tohma's mind, everything about Eiri's aura screamed desirability from his short blond hair to his hypnotic hazel eyes and stylish clothes.

Lying awake at night, he would look over to Mika sleeping soundly and imagine if it was Eiri's blond hair that covered the pillow instead of Mika's long brown tresses. He felt guilty about possibly being in love with his brother-in-law, but he couldn't help every time his heart would race around him. It seemed even sex with Mika was meaningless since he would think about calling out Eiri's name instead of hers when he was coming to his orgasm. As he stared out the window at the night sky, he thought about how to get close enough to Eiri and try to tell him the truth. He didn't want to be awake so late since he had practice with Nittle Grasper in the morning so he decided to get some sleep and dream about Eiri Yuki a little bit more.

Things were going well with the band and everything sounded just as it did before they broke up. After about two hours of practice, they all decided to take a break. Noriko went to get a soda, Tohma was looking at some paperwork, and Ryuichi was playing with his stuffed animal Mr. Bear. Ryuichi noticed how sad his boss and keyboardist looked as he looked over the papers so he went over to cheer him up.

"HI TOHMA!!!! Mr. Bear wants to cheer you up today," the young singer jumped up and waved his stuffed animal around Touma's head.

"Hello Mr. Sakuma. How are you today," Tohma said trying to put on a smile.

"I'm feeling peachy keen. I'm peachy and Mr. Bear is keen," he laughed as he placed Mr. Bear on top of his head. "But you're not peachy or keen are you, Tohma?"

Tohma looked down at his papers for a minute and looked up as he saw Ryuichi three inches away from his face with a puzzled look in his eyes.

"I am perfectly fine Ryuichi. Trust me," Tohma tried to convince the brown haired man, but it was useless.

"Ryuichi doesn't like it when Tohma is sad. Tell Ryuichi what's wrong Touma," Ryuichi begged as he hugged Mr. Bear tight against his chest. Tohma didn't want to come out with everything so he gave a little sigh and put down his papers and took off his glasses.

"Ryuichi, have you every loved someone you couldn't have?" Tohma asked with a slight blush on his face. Ryuichi started thinking and looking in every direction to find an answer.

"Loved someone…loved someone. Ummm…I love Mr. Bear," Ryuichi said with a smile as he held up the pink rabbit. Tohma just smiled and tried to rephrase the question.

"I mean have you been in love with a person? Like your best friend or a band mate or something like that."

"Awww. TOHMA'S IN LOVE! TOHMA'S IN LOVE! Is it me? YAY! TOHMA'S IN LOVE WITH ME! TOHMA'S IN LOVE WITH ME!" Ryuichi sang out and danced around the light blond haired man. Tohma's face went even redder with a smile as he tried to calm the young singer down a little.

"It's not you Ryuichi, but I can't really say who it is. So what would you do if that happened?" Tohma asked after settling his eccentric friend down. Ryuichi took his time at answering as he looked at the ceiling trying to find another answer.

"I'd kiss her and hug her and love her and let her play with me and Mr. Bear," he finally said as he hugged and swung Mr. Bear around with every word he said. Tohma didn't think anything of it, but it really dawned on him how he could do something like that. Tohma got up from his chair and went to his office as he waved good-bye to the man giving his stuffed bunny a piggyback ride around the stage.

If there's one thing he had control over, it was the bands he worked with. He decided it was time for Shuichi's band Bad Luck to have a tour. He made a few calls and did some scheduling and got Bad Luck booked all over Japan for at least two months. He called up K and told him the good news that the band was sold out. Tohma took a break from making calls and was very proud of the great work he put in. He was even more proud that Eiri would be at his apartment all alone without the loud mouth singer bugging him. After a few promotionally commercials and ads for the tour, the band was off to charm Tokyo with the sounds of their music leaving Eiri with an empty couch that held the pink haired boy at night. It's only a matter of time before he can be alone with his beloved Eiri Yuki while Mr. Shindou was out. All he needed was the right time. Just as he was thinking about it in his office, the phone rang. As he answered the phone, a smile came to his face as he heard Yuki's mellow sounding greeting. He listened to the deep voice on the phone and finally hung up. He smiled to himself as he blushed slightly against his cream color skin. He didn't know if he could sleep tonight with such good news from Eiri since this was possibly the best news he's every gotten.

He had a date with Eiri Yuki in two days.