Here goes nothing! It's a Smitchie by the way.

I had been lying here for hours. The clock ticked on, and time passed buy. In approximately 2 hours and 37 minutes it would be my daughter Nina's eighth birthday. Eight years and nine months, eight years and nine months had gone by since I was just a fifteen year old teenager attending a phenomenal music camp called camp rock. Eight years and nine months had gone by since I was seduced and lost my virginity to teen heart throb Shane Gray, and eight years and seven months had gone past since I had seen Shane Gray, or heard from him for that matter.

Shane dumped me as soon as he found out I was pregnant. I had a rough time after that, my parents kicked me out and called me a whore. Deep down, they knew I wasn't, but they couldn't bring themselves to come to terms with the fact that their teenage girl from church choir was going to be dropping out of high school and called a slut.

I was living in a small, shabby apartment with my baby girl, and loved my life to pieces. I lived entirely for Nina and my best friend Caitlyn Gellar. Caitlyn had stuck by me since the beginning of everything. She moved in for a while, but after Nina turned three she met her now boyfriend Michael. They seemed to be going strong. I envied that. The only boy I ever truly loved left me for a blonde, Hollywood bimbo. I was broken inside, and all I had left was my beautiful baby girl.

~xoxo~

It was now 1 hour and 24 minutes until my daughter's birthday. I was dreading tomorrow. Nina still doesn't know anything about her father. - Wait, I take that back. It seemed she knew everything! She knew he was a Hollywood superstar, a singer, a performer and incredibly handsome. She knew the lyrics to all his songs, and she was extremely talented on the guitar (she got that from Shane), knowing the cords to ALL of the Connect 3 songs. She just didn't know that I knew Shane when I was younger and that he was her father.

About a week ago Nina had begged me to take her to a connect 3 concert, and when searching the ticket prices online she noticed they had a sale on backstage passes. She begged and begged that I would buy some for her birthday, because the concert was on her actual birthday. I didn't want to disappoint her, so obviously I bought them for her, without thinking of the effect it would have on my emotions.

It was only now I realised that I didn't want to go backstage. I couldn't handle it. I hadn't seen Shane or any of the other band in over eight years, and I sure as hell wasn't ready now. Not now, especially with Nina! Would he recognise me? I had dyed my hair, and grown up a lot since I was fifteen, so hopefully I wouldn't be noticed... straight away at least.

My phone rang on the dresser, and before answering I was that the time was 12:01 am.

It was from Caitlyn.

Happy birthday to beautiful Nina! Wish her well for me? You ready for the concert tomorrow? –C

I replied instantly.

I will, but she's asleep now silly. Not nearly ready. What do I say? –M

I'm online now, are you sure you don't want me to buy a ticket and come to? –C

No, it's alright. Nina might wonder why. –M

Because I'm her aunty! –C

Are you sure? –M

Of course! See you at your place around 3. –C

Thanks Caitlyn. Much love Mitchie. Xo

Bye Mitch. –C

It was a huge relief to know Caitlyn would be there for me tomorrow. I was grateful to have the most amazing best friend ever.

So... it will get better, promise. C:

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