Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters except Sean, he is mine or the show. Mentions of abuse and rape, don't like do not read.
My mom has a new boyfriend, Sean, god I hate him so much. Anyone would be better than him including Steve Tanner, and I hated him. Sean, well he is a bastard, he likes me more than my mother. My mom has a habit of attracting men who like me instead of her. When my mom isn't home well Sean is and well he according to him "makes love to me". Yeah right making loving is enjoyable, not forced. Believe when I tell you it is forced. Thank the lord I'm used to covering my bruises. It's harder now that I'm at the Rock, because I am in constant pain and well I fall a lot. Falling doesn't really help the pain. Thankfully no one has noticed anything odd about me. Yet! I have though, I'm the only girl who actually gets her period, and mine stopped all of a sudden. So that brings me to what I'm doing now, peeing on a freaking stick, waiting and praying for the results to be negative. I hear beeping and to my horror I stare at the results. It's clear as a summers day, positive! What am I going to do? I can't do gymnatics anymore. Shit, no Emily, you will not cry, you just won't! I have to tell Sasha, god he's going to be pissed.
Grab everything, my bag, my clothes and head to the rock. Your safe haven Emily. Your safe there Sean can't hurt you there. Walk, damit Emily move your legs, you need to find help. Jog, and jog fast, and before you know it your outside the Rock. Go inside, he can't be that mad at you. Knock on his office door, Emily come on you can do it.
"Sasha?" I questioned softly. He looks up and smiles at me, and nods singaling that I'm aloud in.'"Um-Um can I talk to you about something?" Emily don't start crying now, he's going to think your crazy.
"Of course Emily, you never have to ask. Is everything okay?" He asks obviously, I need to learn a better poker face because he saw right through my mask.
"I don't know how to say this so I'm just going to say it, now long winded story, it will just be to hard and I may never say it. I'm pregnat Sasha.
I knew the minute, what I said sunk in because is face became cold and very angry. He yelled "Was one of my rules no dating Emily? Or are you above the rules I have given you?"
I jumped at is tone and because he slammed is fist down on the table so hard I know it must have hurt. "Who is you boyfriend Emily? Mhm someone at the Rock?
"No Sasha, no one at the Rock, or anyone for that matter." I said this so quietly he looked at me and his face softend just a little because he is still unsure of what that revealtion ment.
"Emily I'm a little confused if you don't have a boyfriend than..." He didn't even get a chance to finish because I broke down like a freaking baby.
"I-I can't tell you, Sasha because I can't. He said he'd kill me, and whoever I tell. I can't risked you getting hurt not because of me I'm not worth it!" I screamed this in hysterical pain.
"You are worth it Emily, you are! Please I want to help you but I can't if you don't let me. Let me Emily." Sasha said this softly all trace of anger gone.
"No, no I-I can't Sasha! Please, Please just god I can't do it anymore it hurts so much, I can't take it." I cried and he hugged me and whisphered words of comfort into my ear. "It's so hard, I try and be strong but, it's just not fair. It happens all the time, all the god damned time, she gets a new boyfriend. Sasha, it's all the time." I wept and this confession came out before I even realized it and once it left my mouth I gasped, and then I ran. I ran so fast but he caught up to me and looked at me, and so all that my make-up had covered and realized just how much I was holding in.
"Emily god Emily why didn't you tell anyone, I could have helped you, I could have." I whisphered in defeat knowing that it didn't matter because what happened, happened and he couldn't change it.
Just as I was going to answer our new bitch of a coach walked up to us. "What the hell is going on here?" She hissed at us, but stopped when she saw my face. The pity on her face made me cry in earnest again. "Emily?" She questioned softly.
I looked up but said nothing, because by that time my mask was already put back in place. She touched my should and I gasped loudly in wild pain. She pulled my shirt down a little bit and what they saw made Biel's go wild. Sasha's face was cold and hard like he wanted to kill someone. I looked at my shoulder and what I saw made me want to cry because it defined what I was to Sean. Burned into my skin was the word "MINE."
My secrets were out, all of them, all of the ones I worked so hard to keep to myself. The situtation came crashing down around me, and I ran. This time both Sasha and Biel's ran after me. I was long gone though. Soon I would be forever. No and I mean no one was going to get hurt because of me. When they did find me they cringed at what they found.
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