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A/N: Special thanks to:
MADMAMABEAR for being my Beta.
What Could Have Been
Chapter 1
BPOV
It's been six months since the Cullens left and the pain is finally going away. My dad says to move on and see some of my friends. I'm not sure I'm ready for that yet.
"Bella?" My dad called me into the kitchen.
"Yes, Dad?" I answered.
"Why don't you go to La Push for a few days and hang out with
Jacob?"
"I guess I could do that, but where will I stay? Billy doesn't have a lot of room in his house for overnight guests."
"I talked to Billy and Sam, and they built an addition onto the house for an extra room."
"Dad! Why would they do that?"
"Because Rachel will be visiting soon, so they went ahead and
built the room. But she won't be coming home for a few months. So they have a guestroom that you can use as long as you need, ok?"
"Okay, I guess it's settled then. I will go and pack for the rez then."
"I love you Bella and I just want you to heal your heart, okay? And be around someone who knows you better than anyone else. Take as much time as you need to Bella. I'll be fine while you're gone."
"I love you too dad and thank you for arranging this. I think it's exactly what I've needed for a long time. To be away from all the bad memories that Forks has held for me. I need to find myself again and be free from all the sadness and pain."
I hugged my dad and went up to my room to pack. I've missed Jacob and his easy going presence. He makes me feel like me again whenever we're together. Just like when we were young children playing on the beach in La Push making each other mud pies. I packed my clothes and bathroom stuff. I went to my bed and picked up my dream catcher that Jacob gave me on my birthday.
I hoped it would keep the bad dreams from coming back. I told my dad goodbye and put my bags in the truck. I got in and started the engine and headed for the rez. There was a storm brewing, it was supposed to be pretty bad with rain and strong winds even though that's normal for Forks, Washington, I wanted to get to the Black's before it came through. It only took me fifteen minutes to drive to the rez. When I pulled up to Jake's house, Billy and Sam were already outside waiting for me. I didn't see Jacob so he must not be home from school yet.
"Hey Bella!"
"Hey Billy, hey Sam."
"Hello, Bella. So you're going to be staying on the rez for awhile then?"
"Yeah Sam, I needed to get away from all the memories and pain and Dad agreed. I need to find myself again and this is the best solution to my problems."
"You know you're always welcome in my home and always will be. We're like family Bella, and have been since you and Jake were young children. I'm glad you came to us. Take all the time here that you need okay?"
"Thank you Billy for everything you're doing for me."
"You're welcome Hon. Jake will be home from school in an hour. Why don't we go inside and get you settled in your room?"
Billy and I walked into the house and down the hall past Jake's room to the guestroom. The room is a light shade of lavender with white trim on the moldings. A good sized closet, a big white dresser with hand painted designs of hummingbirds.
The bed is a full size and has a beautiful Indian quilt of spring flowers, with a dream catcher design on it. In the one corner of the room is a small desk and chair. I knew I would feel more at ease here with my best friend and my extended family. I unpacked my bags and hung my dream catcher above my new bed. I laid down on the bed and fell into a deep sleep for the first time in months. I was already starting to feel at peace again, like I had been a year and a half ago before I met Edward and his family.
The Cullens will always hold a special place in my heart, especially Alice. I wonder sometimes if they even think about me and how I'm doing. Maybe I just need to let go and see what life brings me. But at least one thing is certain, I have my best friend to guide me and keep me sane...
