TITLE: You've Got to Hide Your Love Away

SUMMARY: "And for the record – and not that's it's anyone's business, especially not yours, Tina-Cohen-Agitator –- I did want to keep it hush – hush. I occupy a certain place in the McKinley hierarchy, and you all occupy a different, lesser place in that hierarchy, and before exploding said hierarchy by jumping up and down on Oprah's couch, declaring my undying love for someone who is, let's face it, not my usual body type …. I wanted to be sure. That I really, really like him. And that I would be willing to risk not just my social standing but also getting hurt by letting him wheel into my heart. And even though I know he's getting ready to graduate, and we're probably just as doomed as every other sad, broken, backwards relationship that's ever started in this Jesus – and love-forsaken choir room … But I do like you, Artie. You make me laugh, and not just with those stupid YouTube fail videos you're always showing me. Look, asking you to keep our stuff private wasn't cool, and I'm sorry. "

CATEGORIES: Friendship/ Romance/ Drama/ Family/ Humor/ Hurt/Comfort/ Suspense/ Angst/ Spiritual/ Tragedy

RATING: T

PROLOUG:

PARTERNING UP

MCKINLEY HIGH SCHOOL

CHOIR ROOM

GLEE MEETING

3:00 pm

Thursday

"This school year feels like it's going on, and on, on. God; I never knew that I would actually be stuck as a Sophomore in high school for the rest of my life." Kitty tossed her head backwards; and felt it sink below the hard plastic ugly red chair she was sitting on.

"Hey now; how do you think I feel?" Blaine said from the right of her. "I've repeated my junior year; and I'm finally an Senior; my last year of high school. Which is my third high school need I remind you. Just to have it drag on." He couldn't keep the grimace to fill his lips. He just wanted to graduate all ready. He was ready to move to New York; and claim Kurt as his and never be separated from the boy ever again.

"I don't know; I'm actually enjoy the time not rushing ahead. Like how it usually does." Artie twisted his head so he could stare up into Kitty's hazel eyes; she was only sitting on the raiser just above him. He lost himself in her eyes as he had very – well not so recent; found himself doing. "I'm enjoying the time that I have to get to know the new members of New Directions – and feel with relief that it's going to be left in good; and willing hands after I finally have to leave." He couldn't keep the small smile from making it's way onto his lips.

Kitty swallowed thickly. Why was I complaining again? This wasn't the first time that Kitty's thoughts went confusing hay wire whenever Artie's aqua blue eyes met her own. This had been happening since the first time she met the wheel-chaired boy's eyes. It happened the very first time she was walking down the hallway towards her newly assigned locker – it had been her first day at the beginning of the year. Usually it would only last like a flicking thought; and Kitty would easily move onto her normal thinking. Although in time once she realized the social status pro quoit was at McKinley high school – she very quickly adapted too being popular – not only too being popular – but being the bitch of all popular. That if she didn't let down her guard for one second; than no one could climb over her on the ladder of 'success' at McKinley High School.

That was until she weakened and joined the Glee club. Than all bets were off. Kitty was honesty happy that she didn't have to hold up her guard every single second anymore. At home she had; during school hours she had too; until she stepped for in the choir room. That room gave her the safety she needed to show her true self. No one else had to be in there with her; she would still soften. She would allow the freedom that her soul craved too let go all the hardness that was slowly killing her. Even when she was in the room for a class that wasn't supportive of Glee. She still felt like she was safe there.

As the weeks went by she felt more sluggish whenever she met Artie's eyes. Even if it was just one brief moment as their eyes slid pass one another. Her brain just flaked out on her. She noticed it even more after the 'Guilty Pleasure' week the Glee club decided too have when Mr. Schuester was out sick; and Blaine and Sam decided to take the leadership reigns into hand. She had felt Artie's blue eyes glued onto her from the moment she came flattering into the choir room dressed up in that short sparkly shiny British dress; and her hair was stripped with red. She fully knew that she looked hot. But; she felt even more hotter, and sexier with the feel of Artie's eyes on her. She fully admitted that she got way more into the song that the girls were signing fully knowing that Artie couldn't keep his eyes off of her. It was a heated rush that she hadn't felt in … ever! Even when she was jumping around in her short cheerleader uniform she didn't feel the hotness of having every male eyes eagle eying her well kept up body. Expect when she felt warmth – and she just knew that among that crowd Artie was watching her.

So back on the topic here; sheesh she's even losing track of her memories – and they were good; very good memories. Come on Kitty. Forces. Where was she now – oh yes short British dress, and red streaked though her hair.

When it came time to squat down beside the piano she made sure to make it look even more pole like than how they rehearsed it. She was sure that the rest of the boys were eying the other girls; that they wouldn't think twice to her move. But; she knew Artie caught her show, and was very impressed.

"Especially you, Kitty - - - actually I don't think I've ever seen you so," Artie's face felt like it was lit on fire. Even more so than during the performance. While all he had to do was simply quietly watch Kitty – and boy did he. Did he ever. If it had been at all possible; he would have jumped from his wheel chair, and gone up to dance with her. Show her what her real leading dancing man should be like. But; he was very well aware of why he was stuck in the damn chair, and that no matter how much he dreamt – he would never ever get out of the chair and dance on his own too feet again. But; than Kitty overwhelmed him – and he forgot his pity party; and simply watched in awww as the younger girl danced, and sung with the other girls of the club. "uh … uh..." Kitty's prerogative moves came full front moves came to his mind once more.

Kitty couldn't keep the smirk from her lips. She could feel the blush on her ready flaming cheeks. "So what?" She shrugged still keeping her hazel eyes firmly locked onto his blue ones. She couldn't move even if she wanted too. At that moment she didn't want too. She wanted Artie to enjoy the sight that she was freely giving him.

Artie swallowed. "Happy to be part of the team,." He was proud of what came out of his mouth. Although what he said was true – it just wasn't what was on the for front of his mind at that moment. Hell; it wasn't any where near his brain at all. He was just happy that his subconscious knew how to preside; and protect him when his conscious went off into fantasy land in the worst moment. Well, he wouldn't say that this was an worst moment. This moment was quite all right. Better than all right. It was …. he couldn't find the word to describe this moment.

Kitty just kept her eyes on him. She could see clearly where his mind was jumping too. She was going along for the ride herself. She quite enjoyed this overwhelming; and quite overpowering connection that was gripping her to Artie. She had never felt like this with any other human being on this freaking planet. She this just lust that always were in those porno movies and books? She could seriously feel him inside her – she wanted it – she craved it. But; lust wasn't all that she was feeling. She wanted to get to know him. Actually get to know him. That if they never had sex – she still wanted this connection with him.

Kitty didn't believe in love. How could she when she knew it truly didn't exist. Granted she had seen it once more twice. But; even than it never lasted. So what she was feeling towards Artie wasn't love. It couldn't be. Because love just didn't exist. So maybe this connection was truly a friendship one? But that can't be right. She never felt like this with any of her friends. But her childhood friends abandoned her in the sixth grade; when all she did was tell the truth. She was hurt, and they abandoned her. So she never had any friends to begin with. So this connection could mean that Artie is truly her friend. But; it still didn't feel right calling it that.

Kitty just allowed herself to fall deeper into the swell which was Artie's brain waves, and washed away the slight uncomfortableness which was her last thought process. She didn't want to ruin this ride for anything in the world. She simply wanted to remain where she was – free falling in the bottomless which was Artie Abrams.

A sudden bang sounded.

Kitty blinked as Artie finally tore his eyes away from hers. She felt herself slam back into her body. Sighing deeply she pulled herself up from her squatting position. She noticed in shock that the rest of the girls were getting themselves together once more. Her becoming lost in Artie's eyes was just seconds in real time. How could that be? It was endless where she had found herself.

She made her way back towards the risers; and had a misstep when Artie's eyes caught hers once more. He smiled softly as she found her footing once more. She swallowed and took the seat next to him. There was no way she could safely make it up the risers to her chair.

"... so that's why it's so important ..."

Kitty blinked rapidly as words flew through her ears. How long had she been lost where-ever she had been. She found Artie's soft blue eyes still locked with her own. The knowledge that he knew exactly where she had slipped off too wasn't lost on him. Biting her bottom lip she forced herself to lose eye contact.

"I'm with Kitty on this. This school year seems to be taking forever to be finished." Marley smiled over at her blond haired friend.

Kitty blinked. Seriously only a matter of seconds had passed since zoned out? Seriously! She NOT only went to another plane; but she went into a memory plain on top of it. That had to take more than a few seconds. She looked up at the clock; and was relieved to say the least that five minutes had passed since she had entered the room.

Artie couldn't hide the smirk as he turned to face the front. Mr. Schuester was at the white board excitedly writing down this weeks assignment. He all ready planned on doing a duet with Kitty for this week. If he played his cards right – than from now on he and Kitty would be singing duets. He knew that Kitty truly was interested in him. That she could see past the wheel chair. That she could him for whom he truly was. So he decided that today was the today. Today he would ask Kitty Wilde out. Not to be his girlfriend; not yet. But to go on a date with him.

BEATLES

Artie blinked rapidly as he saw what Mr. Schuester had written. He raised his arms in the air; "Oh right!" He was quite pleased with Mr. Sc hue's choice in bands for this week.

"We are going to be celebrating the Beatles for two weeks." Mr. Schuester said with a clap of his hands.

Artie whooped even louder than before. He had the perfect song for him and Kitty.

Kitty rolled her eyes, folded her arms across her chest; just below her notebook. She knew that they didn't have to take notes for show choir. After all everyone would end up having a jam session; are just out right sing; just to show off – seriously. There was a million reasons to now why jotting down notes in show choir is just a big old waste of time. Kitty quite frankly agreed to these thinkers. But, from the very beginning that taking notes in class was a must. Without fail. Even gym class. So Kitty was just doing what she raised to do. Sides there was no harm for a written reminder in case you forgot if anything special happened. Like having to perform her song the next day.

"Can we sing with partners?" Sam asked, "Can we pick our own partners."

Mr. Schue grinned. "You can sing alone and with partners. As for partners I have the hat." He knew the kids hated the 'partner' hat – but it was one of his favorite things in the Glee. After all he had too give up his 'Journey' and his choice in music – that he would be damn on giving up the hat. Yes when the kids partnered up themselves – they come up with wonderful music. But; if they partner up with someone whom they would never pick on their own – most likely they make beautiful music.

"This time I have decided to do something different with the partner hat. I have all ready decided whom the partners are." Mr. Schue continued.

"Then why bother with the hat." Tina rolled her eyes.

"The hat is just waiting for someone to pick a slip of paper – and have mystery reviled." Mr. Schue grinned as he turned, and grabbed the hat.

Kitty rolled her own eyes.

"Blaine; I want you to pick first." Mr. Schue nodded for the brunette hazel eyed boy to stand up.

Blaine reached into the hat; and read "Tina and Sam."

Sam turned around and grinned happily at Tina. "All right."

"Tina, your turn with the hat." Mr. Schue said.

Tina stood to her feet and reached into the hat; "Joe and Jake. "

Joe leaned down and patted Jake's right shoulder; "Jesus loves you man."

Jake raised his right eye brow to this. Great, I'm going to have to deal with this out of his mouth for a week. Thanks Mr. Schuester. I owe you one.

"Your turn Marley." Mr. Schue looked over at the tall blue eyed brunette.

Marley stood up; and stepped down from the second floor of the raiser. Reaching into the hat, "Ryder and Unique." She looked shocking into her teacher's eyes. Are you crazy? It took Jake and I a long time to convince Ryder NOT to quite Glee. "Mr. Schue I would like to be partners with Unique." She softly spoke.

"I'm sorry; but no Marley." Mr. Schue shook his head. He read the concern in her eyes. "Trust me; this will work. I promise you." He turned to the raiser; which had grown dead silence with reading of the latest pair. "Ryder and Unique I know that you two have something major between you. I hope that you will be able to work together; and perhaps be able to talk out what you need too. I'm sure that with the help of the Beatles you will be able to come out as stronger friends."

Unique had bowed her head at the reading of her name alongside with Ryder's. She just knew that Ryder wouldn't never agree to being partners with her. Not after learning that Unique had cat fished him. It had started off as a way on trying to get Ryder to see Unique in different light; through the means of 'Katie'. But; the more that Ryder had shared with her; the more feelings Unique began to have towards the boy. She had accidentally fallen in love with the football player; fully knowing that he was uncomfortable with Unique's lifestyle.

Ryder breathed in deeply. "Jake and Marley helped me realize that Glee is important too me. That without Glee I would be overwhelmed with football and my school work. That I need an outlet; and singing is that." He turned his head and looked at Unique whom had sat as far from him as he could. "I can work with Unique."

Unique slowly lifted her head. "Thank you Ryder."

Marley turned back around to face Mr. Schue. She smiled.

"Kitty, it's your turn with the hat." Mr. Schue said after Marley had returned to her seat.

"Blaine and Marley." Kitty said as she unfolded the thin piece of paper. She went back to her seat. Her heart was racing. With Brittany at MIT that means either her or Sugar would end up working with their teacher. The other would work with Artie. She tried to fight the jealously that was coursing though her system at the thought of Sugar working with Artie. It never accorded to her; that Artie may end up working with Mr. Schue.

"Sugar if you'll come up and remove the final piece of paper." Mr. Schue's words went through her ears; and Kitty perked up as she waited breathless for the dirty blond to make her way up to the front.

Artie's hands were clenched in his lap. Please let it be Kitty and me. Please let it be Kitty and me. Please God let it be Kitty and me.

It felt like very slow motion as Sugar reached into the hat; and pulled out the slip of paper. To unfold it and lift her head with a smile. "Artie and Kitty."

Kitty felt the heat rise higher on her cheeks. She felt her forehead smooth it self out as she found that she could breath once more. She felt eyes on her – so she very calmly wrote down her and Artie's name under partners for the week. She glanced up and meet the warm eyes of Artie.

Artie stopped himself in time from raising his arms and whooping. It simply wouldn't do in this situation. After all he wanted to make Kitty Wilde his girlfriend. He fully knew that if he seemed uncool with his excitement on being her partner – than she wouldn't even be willing to acknowledge that they were even friends. No it would be safe to just unclenched his fists; and turn around and smile up at the girl. He had too wait for her to look up from her binder that is. The moment he saw the minute move of her head; he had his smile ready for her to receive.

Her head tilted to the right and she smiled softly back. Her mind flashed back to when she slipped into his lap at the end of the Steve Wonder's week. His choice of For Once In My Life spoke so much volume to her. With him looking back, and up towards her with open blue eyes – she knew she made the right decision on helping him get the courage that he needed to accept going to New York. The words that he was signing were just for her. He didn't mean anyone else – well beside his mother of course – but the words were from him to her. She felt him telling her that he would be the one for her as she was too him. In that moment with his eyes on her; she believed him. That was why she didn't bother trying to rid herself of the words that he was singing to her heart – like she had always done before. Even when they rehearsed the number it felt like any other number. But; when they performed it for Mr. Schue, Kurt, Mike and Mercedes – he fully allowed his heart to speak fully for him.

At the end of the song she simply couldn't remain standing on her feet for another second; she found herself in his lap; back against the chair's arm handle; but his arm was softening the feeling of the cold hard steel. She felt like coming home; a home that she never wanted to leave. That thought scared her too the core – so she quickly removed herself from his chair; and she managed to walk away without missing a step. She just knew she wanted back in his lap. That she never wanted too leave.

That had been a week ago.

Kitty blinked as she noticed everyone standing up around her. She noticed that people were leaving. How? What? Huh? Glee hour just started like mere seconds ago. Her eyes lifted and she noticed that the full hour had ended. What the hell was wrong with her? She sighed as she looked back down; and saw that she actually took pretty good notes during her zoning out times. This was the reason why she liked taking notes in class – even if said class wasn't actually an class at all. She closed, and zipped up the binder.

"Your chariot awaits." She lifted her eyes and smiled at the sight of Artie waiting for her. A smile graced her lips as she grabbed her bag; and held her binder to her chest. She moved down the step of the riser to face him, she climbed onto his warm lap; and hugged her binder to her chest as he turned to wheel them from the room.

She was home, and she was never leaving it again.

END OF PROLUGE

Author's Note: I had a thought of naming each chapter after a Beatles song. But; I have decided to not to narrow this story down just to the Beatles weeks. Yes the chapters will have song titles for them (Just like GBOGH).

I have decided to pair the group up into partner ship – even though the show didn't do it. One because I love the duets between Artie and Kitty (Kevin & Becca's voices are beautiful together) – and I wanted the rest of the group to have duets also. I have decided to pair up Ryder and Unique because these two have a lot to clear up; and get past. I don't know if the show will address the whole cat-fish thing in season five; so I decided to address it here. I have always wondered how Darren & Melissa's voices would sound together – and hope that they will explore this in season five for Blaine and Marley. Joe and Jake teaming up is just too funny for words – with Joe being such a Jesus freak and Jake being Jewish. Sugar – I never really got her character. So she won't appear too much in this story. I just needed her as a possible partner choice for Artie – other wise Kitty would have realized that much sooner that she was going to be partnered with Artie. Tina and Sam are partnered because I just need some more feelings between these two when I do the Tina as Prom Queen – and her dropping Sam so quickly.

Am I going to explore New York & New Haven in this story: Yes. How can I leave Faberry out of any Glee story that I write. I'm just not going to focus too much on them. Because I feel that in GBOGH I can tell a much better story for my two favorite lovely ladies.

I'm thinking of trying my hand in writing heavy on Kliane. I have never attempted before because I was too afraid to write Kurt, and Blaine. Especially Kurt. But; now that he's best friends with Rachel and they are living together – they actually tone each others crazy way down – I feel like I have Kurt Hummel down pact. As for Blaine – he was too preppy for me to truly tackle. But; he has grown on me (Hello it's Darren.) I have been watching every Blaine scene loving him so much – that I didn't want to destroy him in my attempt to write him – but now I found the courage to able to write him. Now that Klaine is engaged I feel it's the right time to bring them to shine in my stories.

Finn's death. I'll write about his death. But; I want to explore it more, and actually give it a life that it should have happened; if in season four they had more time to show Finn trying to move on from Rachel – i.e. having some failed dates. I would love to explore him in college more than the show had time for. I would love to explore why he thought he had to dress, and act like Will Schuester for most of season four. I even want to explore on why he WASN'T in that doctor's room with Kurt, Burt, and Carole when Burt learned he didn't have cancer. (Was it only me whom found that very off putting that they couldn't get Finn in that family scene?)

Expect a lot of bitchy Bree. She's going to cause as much problems for the Gleeks as she can. She's going to be the bane in Kitty's side. McKinley High has never seen anything like Bree before in it's history – if you thought Santana was interesting – wait till you see Bree at her full force.

We will see a lot of the Schuesters. I know that Emma won't be part of season five (which is outrageous in my book) – but she won't disappear from fan fiction. How can you be at McKinley High without Ms. Pillsbury – sorry Mrs. Schuester? Have to say keep an eye out for Emma's parents, and sisters to make appearance. Also watch out because Terri will also appear.

Okay; end of this author's note. Before I give you away the entire story plot in one go.

Any lines that you recognize are from the Glee episodes themselves. I may forget, and not give credit in every chapter that I use them – so I decided to do that here.