I don't generally write forewords for my stories, but I felt that this one due to the nature of it needed a little extra.
You see, the idea for this story came to me after reading a couple of other pieces where Haruhi is portrayed as someone who can go dangerously out of control and start treating people as actual play things instead of human beings. You see this in the normal continuity in how Haruhi treats Mikuru, particularly during the cultural festival arc where she outright declares that she sees Mikuru as her toy.
My idea was to basically take that sentiment and drag it out to it's logical horrific conclusion.
Once that was established, the next thing I wanted to do was make it even more terrifying. The one way that I felt that this could be accomplished was by taking Haruhi's normal behavior and inverting it along sexist lines. You see, one thing that doesn't get addressed often is that as a society we are far more forgiving of females acting abusive towards others than we are of males. Sure, we might chastise them or chide them for their behavior or for breaking social expectations, but we aren't afraid of them.
In that case, what if Haruhi was man named Haruki and what if Kyon was a woman named Kyonko. Under that circumstances what would be the normal dynamic of the relationship and how would it unsettle people to see behavior that is being played for laughs being played straight as terror.
Obviously I'm not the first person to genderswap a story, especially not in this fandom, and I doubt I'm the first person to portray an evil genderswap Haruhi either, but alas this is where my story led me and once I sat down and started to plot everything out (I do have a complete plot for this story) everything just sort of fell into place.
Suffice it to say, if you haven't picked up on it yet, the story that follows is dark. It's angsty. It's filled with abuse and suffering that will make you upset and angry. There may, just may, be something resembling if not a happy ending, at least not a terrible one, far down the line. I wouldn't recommend that anyone read the words that I wrote.
However, if you do, then I hope that you find it, if not enjoyable, emotional.
