Sometimes pain can be good, other times it can pierce you in the heart only leaving a scar. The difference between a cut and a scar is that scars are permanent and they stay with you long time, a cut can fade and soon be forgotten. I was once scarred, the memory never left, it stayed and never faded. Have you been scarred? Has something happened to you that were so bad it never left and soon transformed into a scar that will never heal?

I am an outsider and proud to me in that category. I am the kind who will drown out there surroundings with music. I can regularly hear voices within my mind saying that I deserve pain; it is good to feel like you don't belong. If I had to write a story based on my life "pain" would be typed in every sentence. On a daily basis I feel distant from social ways and I feel that I am not one to make the choices into this place we call society. My anxiety takes over… I am no longer in control, my insecurity is.

When my insecurity does take over I feel empty… I feel nothing. When I am not myself I blame my demons within me. My demons will expand and explore to people whenever they feel like it and this is usually every day. As I always say a true friend would realise that I'm aching on the inside, I am hurting ever so badly. A good friend would stop this; a fake friend would become a coward and stop at nothing to make that pain inside me continuously grow.