Hey guys I've got something new for you to read. I know with all the stories I'm working on now I really shouldn't add another one to my plate, but slowing down isn't something I do lol. I got this idea in my head and I just want to know what you guys think of it.
It's safe to say anytime something important happened in Rachel's life I was there. When we were five we started school Together and we've been inseparable ever since. I was there when she lost her first tooth. I was there when she had her first kiss. I was there when she had her first boyfriend, and I was there when she had her first break up. I was always there for Rachel, but she was there for me too. She was there when I made the cheerios, when my abuelita passed away, when I came out to my family. She was always there until she started dating the she-witch. Hi, my name is Santana Lopez and I'm in love with my best friend Rachel Berry. Yeah I know it's a total cliche, but there is my reality. I fell for my best friend, but she's madly in love with Quinn Fabray. That's right I said Quinn Fabray. You know, the girl who once tossed slushies in my best friends face, now holds the key to her heart, and being Rachel's best friend means I was there to see it all happen.
Rachel and I are in the bathroom rinsing slushy out of her hair. I swear the jock that did this will pay later, but right now my best friend needs me. I tilt her head back before I grab some shampoo from my emergency slushy kit.
"You know what, Rachel." I say before I squeeze a little bit of shampoo in her hair "These idiots are just jelous, because you're leaving this town behind to live out your dream on Broadway, and the job they'll have involves them asking, 'Would you like fries with that?'" Rachel giggles, but I'm actually serious! Everyone knows that Rachel's destined for better things than this shit whole of a town
"Thank you, Santana." Rachel says as I start to rinse the shampoo out of her hair
"It's what I'm here for, babe." I pack up my emergency slushy kit and pull a shirt out for Rachel "Here. It might be a little big, but it's better than staying all wet and sticky." I smirk and let out a small chuckle "That sounded dirty didn't it?"
"Santana!" Rachel shouts before she takes the shirt from me "Why must you always be so vulgar?"
"I have a dirty mind." I shrug "You know that."
"Will you remind me again why we're friends?" She asks playfully before taking off her wet sweater and putting on my shirt
"Because, we've know each other our whole lives." I explain "You knew me before I developed my dirty mind."
"Whatever, San." Rachel says as she's finally slushy free "Let's just get out of here." I nod before she grabs my hand and we head for the door, but before we can open it, it swings open and hits me in the face.
"Fuck!" I shout as I grab my nose and fell it bleeding
"Language, Santana." Rachel scolds me
"Really, Rachel?" I ask annoyed before I pull my hand away from hers and grab some paper towels "My freakin' nose is bleeding and all you can do is scold me about my language."
"I'm so sorry about that." An all too familiar voice apologies. It had to be Quinn Fucking Fabray!
"You should be." I say obviously annoyed
"Don't be rude, San." Rachel says "It was an accident." Of coarse Rachel is defending her! She's only had a crush on her since we were 12!
"Yeah. I'm really sorry." Quinn says again
"Whatever, Blondie." I say glaring at her "You wouldn't have anything to do with that slushy attack on Rach, did you?"
"That's actually why I came in here." Quinn answers looking at Rachel "I wanted to make sure you were alright"
"That's very sweet of you, Quinn." Rachel comments sporting her hundred watt smile
"Yes, Quinn how sweet of you to show up half an hour later, when she's now 100% slushy free." I say rolling my eyes. If she really cared about Rachel she would of been here when it happened
"Stop being rude, San." There Rachel goes again, sticking up for Quinn
"Whatever." I mumble still hold paper towels to my bloody nose "Come on, Rach. We have to get to class."
"Actually, Can I talk to Rachel privately." Quinn asks
"No!" "Yes!" Rachel and I shout at the same time
"Come on, San." Rachel whines "Just go and I'll meet you in class."
"Fine." I huff before I storm out of the bathroom
After I left the bathroom, Quinn admitted to Rachel that she had feelings for her, and being Rachel's best friend I was the first to hear about it. Apparently Quinn was bullying Rachel, because she was afraid of her feelings or something stupid like that. Anyway, I had to do the whole best friend thing and help her get ready for her first date with Quinn.
"Which one, Santana?" Rachel whines as she holds up two dresses
"Does it matter what I think?" I ask before I throw myself on her bed "You're just going to pick the other one anyway." Rachel has been going through so many possible outfits that it's driving me crazy!
"That's because, you don't take this seriously." Rachel stomps her foot before she storms into the bathroom
"That's not true!" I shout still lying on her bed "I just don't like the idea of you going out with Quinn Fabray!"
"Why?" Rachel shouts from the bathroom
"Well, for one she's a bitch! She is in fact the first person to throw a slushy at you!"
"That was her way of expressing her feelings!" I can't believe that Rachel is defending her again!
"How romantic! 'The gas station was all out of flowers, sweety. So, I got you a slushy to toss in your face instead!' It's the kind of things you see in movies!" When I'm done shouting, Rachel steps out of the bathroom. She looks absolutely stunning. She's wearing a sleeveless red dress. It's a dress I've seen before, but the way she looks now feels so different. I can't pull my eyes away from her.
"How does it look?" I heard Rachel. Really, I did. But, I think I lost complete brain function, so instead of an actual answer I say
"Uhhh...ummm...you...wow."
"Why thank you, Santana." Rachel giggles and before I can give her one of my smart ass comments, the door bell rings
"Ok Sweetie, I expect you home by eleven." I joke
"But, Mama." Rachel whines playfully
"No buts, young lady." I scold "You better not give it up to this girl either." Rachel gasps before she places her hands on her chest
"Why Mama, what kind of girl do you think I am?" Rachel and I laugh before we hear the door bell ring again
"Alright already!" I shout annoyed "You better get your ass down there."
"Ok." Rachel says cheerfully "I'll call you when it's over and tell you how it went."
"Ok." I say before I watch her run downstairs towards Quinn.
Rachel did in fact call me that night, and being the good friend I am, I had to listen to every last detail of their first date. How there hands brushed together when they walked into Breadstix, which made Quinn blush in 'The most adorable way possible.' How Quinn held Rachel's hand (But, only when no one was looking) and how there first kiss was soft and sweet, but at the same there were intense fireworks. Oh, but that was nothing compared to being there after their first fight.
"Why would she say that, Santana?" Rachel asks pacing back and forth. Rachel just burst through my door crying because her and Quinn had their first fight.
"I don't know," I say calmly "Tell me exactly what happened, Rach."
"I suggested we come out as a couple, and she said she wasn't ready." I totally understand not being ready to come out, It was certainly hard for me, but there's no way I would ever defend Quinn. "When I asked her why not, she said that she couldn't have the school find out about her 'dirty little secret.'" Rachel whispers before she started crying again. I stand up off her bed and pull her into my arms. Being afraid of coming out is one thing, but revering to Rachel as her dirty little secret, that's not in anyway ok!
"She's an idiot, Rachel." I whisper into her ear while I run my fingers through her hair "You are someone to be proud of."
"You really believe that, Santana." Rachel asks with her voice layered with insecurity. How dare Quinn Fabray make Rachel feel like she's anything less than perfect!
"Of coarse I do, Rachel." I pull away from her and placed my hands on her cheeks to look her straight in the eye "You are the most amazing person I know." Rachel smiles before she pulls me into a tight hug. I think this is it. Maybe I can tell Rachel how I feel. No! I can't do it when she's vulnerable. I want her with me, because she loves me the way I love her. Not because Quinn screwed up, but because Rachel wants me the way I want her. So, I'll just comfort her like best friends do.
"Do you want to have a girls night?" I ask as we pull away "We can watch Funny girl."
"I'd like that." Rachel says with a smile
"Great!" I run downstairs to grab her DVD, when I hear the door bell ring.
"San!" Rachel shouts from upstairs
"Yeah! I got it!" I run to the front door and open it. The smile I had on my face quickly goes away when I see Quinn Fabray standing at the front door. "What the hell are you doing here?"
"I need to talk to my girlfriend." Quinn says putting the emphasis on 'my' while she glares at me
"After what you said, you have some nerve coming over here."
"I just have to apologize to her."
"What makes you think she wants to see you?" I shout
"San, please." I turn around to see Rachel standing on the stairs
"What?" I ask irritated
"Let us talk, please." Is she serious? She wants to talk to her? She should want to slam the door in Quinn's face!
"Fine." I huff before I run upstairs to leave them alone. I run to Rachel's room and throw myself on her bed. There goes our girl's night now. Once again I lose my best friend to that bitch! This isn't fair! She was mine first! Mine! Now they're downstairs making up and being sickly in love! I hate Quinn Fabray! I hate her!
"Oh Quinnie, let's never fight again." I hear Rachel squeal from downstairs. Isn't that great! They make me so sick sometimes, I could literally throw up right here in Rachel's room. I hear Rachel running upstairs, so I roll over and sit straight up.
"We made up, Santana!" Rachel shouts excitedly "She wants to go out, so I might have to cancel our girls night."
"It's ok." I tried not to sound upset, but I failed
"Don't be upset, San." Rachel says before she hugs me "We can do it tomorrow night."
"It's ok, Rachel." I assure her "Go be with your girlfriend."
"You're the best, Santana!" Rachel shouts before she runs downstairs to be with her girlfriend
Yes I was there. Every single time and each of them hurt differently. But, what happened earlier tonight hurts more than anything else. We were at one of Puck's parties when Rachel came to tell me something I did not expect to hear.
"You what?" I shout in disbelief. There's no way Rachel just told me what I think she told me
"Yes." Rachel nods "I want to lose my virginity to Quinn." I can't believe this! Quinn doesn't deserve Rachel! She never has and never will!
"Are you crazy, Rachel!" I say way louder than I meant to, but I hope I get my point across
"I know you don't particularly like Quinn, but I'm being serious. I want her to be my first." What has Quinn done to my Rachel to make her fall for her? What could she has possibly done to get Rachel's love?
"How can you even think about giving yourself to her!"
"You have no say in who I lose my virginity to, Santana." Rachel says clearly annoyed
"We've been best friends since we were five! I know it's your choice, but I thought my opinion mattered to you!"
"Why would it?" Rachel shouts "You lost your virginity at thirteen, because you thought it would make you more popular! Why on earth would I ask your opinion about something like this!" I couldn't hide the hurt expression on my face if I tried. I hated the way I lost my virginity, and Rachel knows that. I was thirteen and the guy was a sophomore, and on the football team, so I went for it. But, I wanted to take it all back as soon as it was over. Rach notices I'm hurt, so she tries to take back what she said "San, I'm so sorry." She reaches her arms out to me, but I pull away
"Don't." I say before I try to leave, but Rachel grabs my arm
"Don't be mad, San. I didn't mean it." How can she say that she didn't mean it? She'll say anything to try and defend Quinn, even if it means hurting me
"Of course you meant it!" I shout before I pull away from her "You know how much I regretted that night! I cried for hours in your arms, until I fell asleep!"
"I know that! I'm sorry, Santana. I shouldn't of said that." Rachel hugs me, and to my surprise I hug back. What Rachel said hurt, but I can never stay mad at her long. I love her too much "I just don't know why you got so upset about me and Quinn."
"She doesn't deserve you." I say as we pull apart
"Why not?" Rachel asks genuinely confused
"Are you serious? How long have you been with her, Rachel?"
"Six months." Six very long months, I might add!
"Are you out yet?" I know it's kind of a sore subject, but I can't let Rachel go through with this
"That's not fair!" Rachel shouts defensively "You know she's not ready!"
"How much time does she need?" I shout back
"Why are you so against this?" Rachel shouts before I crush my lips against hers. I didn't mean to really, but it just happened. The kiss doesn't last too long, because Rachel pushes me away
"I'm against you giving yourself to Quinn, because I'm in love with you. I love you, Rachel. Quinn doesn't deserve you. She doesn't treat you the way she should. You deserve romance. Someone to hold hands with and to carry your books, and tell you how amazing you are everyday." When I'm done talking Rachel is just standing there wide-eyed and silent "Please say something, Rachel."
"I'm sorry, Santana." Rachel whispers before she lowers her head "But, I'm in love with Qu-"
"Don't say it!" I shout "Just please don't say it."
"I'm sorry." She says placing her hand on my shoulder
"Whatever." I sigh before I turn away from her to leave, but Rachel stops me again
"Don't be upset, San."
"How can I not, Rachel?" I ask before I start crying "I just told you I was in love with you, but you don't love me back." Being my best friend Rachel has seen me cry before, but I hat that she's seeing me cry now. especially because of this "Don't you have plans to lose your virginity to the person you do love?" I whisper through my tears
"I'm sorry." Rachel says once again
"I hope your ok with being her dirty little secret for the rest of your life." I say before I pull away and leave
That's how I ended up here crying on my bed. I finally did what I was so scared to do, and I think it might of cost me my best friend. I probably shouldn't of said anything, but I couldn't let her go through with it. Rachel always talked about how magical it would be to lose her virginity, and I don't think Quinn is the one to give her what she wants. I know I could give Rachel the love she deserves, but she doesn't want me. She's probably Lying in bed with the one she really wants right now. I don't even want to think about it anymore. I just get under the covers to try to sleep, but I hear my phone go off. I pick it up to look at the screen.
INCOMING CALL:
RACHEL
So, what do you guys think? Should I continue? Please let me know!
