Another Old story dredged up form the depths of my computer. I figure I should share it.

Please RxR


Was Kanda and Lavi avoiding him? Allen thought, dejected. Well, they had just learned he may be the 14th after all. Who would want to associate with him? He sat down on the stone bench, feeling rather lonely.

"I just saw Kanda in the cafeteria. " Lenalee commented. Allen looked up, not surprised by the news. Kanda was always in the cafeteria at this time.

Miranda waved at Allen from behind Lenalee.

"I just saw Lavi in the library, reading as usual." Miranda added. That wasn't unusual, Allen thought ruefully. Lavi was Bookman after all.

"I don't see Kanda and Lavi hanging around like they usually do though , Allen." Lenalee noted. Miranda looked at Allen thoughtfully, and agreed.

"Well, they are busy nowadays, with their own stuff.." Allen said, smiling. Did they know? Allen thought panicked.

"That never stopped them before.." Lenalee replied, with surprising insight. Allen felt like Lenalee knew more than she let on..

"It's.. complicated.." Allen turned away. Lenalee didn't quite get it, because all she knew was that they had come back from a mission a few days ago, all angry with each other.

"Allen.. I don't think that would deter your friendships.." Lenalee had known those two for years, and she knew that there must be another problem. She lay a hand over his, trying to reassure him. Allen looked away, not even noticing. Lenalee sighed, and motioned for Miranda to leave Allen alone.

Allen sat there for awhile, not noticing the multitudes of people passing him by. Most didn't notice him except for one person with long, black flowing hair.

"Baka Moyashi.".

***

"Lavi!" Someone yelled across the huge library. Lavi looked up from his pile of books, his headband hanging low on his neck. He was lying languidly at a corner, slumped and absorbed into his world of books.

"Huh..?" His mind was slow to drift from reading to the sudden intrusion.

"There you are!" Lenalee struggled to get past the piles of towering books. She looked at several precarious piles, ready to fall over. "What's wrong with you nowadays?" She asked, rather sharply.

Lavi looked at her, faking a little confusion. "What do you mean..?"

"You know what I mean! You've been doing absolutely nothing but hanging out in the library these days!" She said, frustrated. "I know you can take it easy since your hammer is still being fixed but.." Her voice drifted off..

"but, what, Lenalee?" He asked, making a good show that he didn't know what she was talking about.

"You know exactly what! You, Allen, and Kanda used to be inseparable! What happened?!" Lenalee looked at him, angrily. She hated to see her friends like this. They were all clearly miserable without each other.

" So what? " Lavi looked at her with a menacing glare that Lenalee had never seen before., dropping the confused act. It warned her not to butt in. Lenalee backed away a little, frightened by this side of Lavi. Lavi's glare disappeared and his voice softened, noticing he had scared her.

"Sorry, Lenalee." He looked a little ashamed. "I didn't mean to scare you.. It's just.." He scratched his head, unsure of how to say it. "He just.. Allen always risks his lives for us and everyone. He doesn't realize how the rest of us would feel about that. Especially, me and Kanda, y'know?" Lenalee nodded knowingly. She had been in the same situation herself. She even slapped him, she recalled ruefully.

"So, Kanda and I decided to leave him alone so he can think about it.." Lavi rested the worn book on his face. It was obvious he didn't want to talk any longer, so Lenalee left him alone.

Her mood plummeted again however, when she thought about Allen. He had come a long way, but wasn't that something inherent in his character? The fact he would put himself in danger over everyone else.. She didn't know if that could be fixed but.. Perhaps Allen could try to understand how it felt.

****

Allen sighed again. Komui sent him out on a mission, but it would only take a few hours 'supposedly'. It was to investigate a nearby phenomena of 'ghosts' but it turned out to be akumas as always. He now stood waiting for the train, which would take a few more hours, since he just missed it. His stomach growled, his body tired from fatigue, stress, and hunger.

"Why didn't I eat before I left?" Allen said, sadly. Oh, right. He was thinking about Kanda and Lavi. Allen lay down on the bench, dejected, How could the day get any worse? He closed his eyes, his mind drifting off to sleep…

"Hello, boy." A eerie, familiar voice rung in his ears. Allen jerked up, recognizing that voice! Tyki Mikk! Allen growled, rushing to activate his innocence. Unfortunately a arm shot out before he could.

"I can't let you do that, boy. " Tyki whispered, close to his ear. "Don't worry, I'm not here to kill you.. this time." Allen struggled to activate but he was too tired. The events of before had taken it's toll. Tyki grinned, his voice low and seductive.

"I've come for another reason.. Do you know what it is?"

Allen knew. Tyki's lingering gazes and interest had been blatantly clear. However, he always had Lavi or Kanda around, so Tyki couldn't do anything. Allen cursed his stupidity at not noticing Tyki earlier.

"So you know, what I'm going to do, boy? I've come to fuck you."

Allen's blood ran cold.

***

"Allen's awfully late, isn't he?" Lenalee asked, worried. Kanda, nearby didn't seem to hear it, except for a slight tightening on his cup.

"Knowing Allen, he might have missed the last train. The last one should be here soon." Marie mentioned, unconcerned.

"You mean, Walker-sama?" Lenalee looked at the speaker, seeing Toma, a nearby finder. "If you mean Walker-sama, I saw him walking to his room not two minutes ago." Lenalee breathed a sigh of relief. Kanda ate his soba, giving a good impression that he didn't particularly care. "However, he did not seem well.. I think the mission took a lot out of him." Lenalee grew suspicious at the thought. Anyone who knew Allen, would know that would've come down to eat no matter the mission. Kanda also looked perturbed.

***

Allen collapsed into his room, clutching his coat together. His hair was disheveled, his clothes torn, and there were countless bruises on his body with a stinging pain in his thighs. He was lucky to have gotten away from Tyki. Or would it be more accurate to say, that Tyki had let him go. However, it was only after he was done. Allen shivered at the countless things that had been done to him. His breath caught at remembering. The pain, the intrusion, and the screams. It hurt. It hurt so much. He wanted to go to Lavi or Kanda.. No. His mind shrank away from that thought. How could he face those two after Tyki? He didn't want anyone to see him like this, much less those two. He couldn't go back to them.

"Allen-kun?" He heard a knock at his door. At the sound of the turning doorknob, he panicked.

"Don't come in!" He shouted. The door halted. "Allen-kun? Are you okay?" He recognized it as Lenalee.

"I'm fine." Somehow his voice managed to sound normal.

"But.." Lenalee sounded doubtful.

"No. I'm sorry for shouting. I was changing my clothes.." There was a awkward silence. Allen hoped to God, she believed it.

"Oh. I'm sorry.. I didn't— I mean—" Lenalee sounded embarrassed. Thank God.

"Did you need anything?" Allen stood to lock the door.

"No, it's nothing. I'll see you tomorrow Allen-kun!" Her footsteps faded in the distance.

Allen gave a sigh of relief. Thank God Lenalee believed him. He didn't even want to think about what would have happened if Lenalee had come in. As he relaxed though, he could feel the disgust creep up on him. The scent, the feeling of Tyki, the memories still clung to him. It felt disgusting, his skin prickling at the thought. It seemed like some invisible grime that couldn't be washed away.

How could he ever face Kanda and Lavi? His head bent, he let out a quivering sigh, a few tears falling onto the floor.

****

"Yuu?" Lavi looked around, brushing branches away. Usually Kanda was train—

"HOLY SHIT!" He narrowly missed a sword by his head. "Where the fuck do you think you hitting that thing, Yuu?!" Kanda looked at him, grim.

"You know better than to interrupt my training." Kanda's eyes narrowed. Lavi held his hands in mock surrender.

"Yea. I do. But.. Y' know Allen?" Kanda gave a curt nod. "I feel like something's off. Don't you?" Kanda gave another imperceptible nod. They both looked up at Allen's room, noticing a subtle change in the air.

***

"Nee-san! . What did you make him do?" Lenalee questioned her brother, with a suspicious air.

"Make who do?" Komui asked, while trying to avoid his paperwork. He was currently working on a new 'Komurin'.

"Make Allen! Nee-san, if you've done anything.." The threat hung in the air.

"I didn't do anything this time, I swear!" Komui backed away from his now-suspicious little sister. "I didn't make any weird experiments or say anything this time!" He had done some things but Komui honestly had no idea what happened this time. Lenalee looked at him, her eyes staring.. And she conceded.

"Nee-san. Call Kanda and Lavi to the office for me."

***

Lenalee looked at Kanda and Lavi gathered in Komui's office. "Have you guys noticed anything strange about Allen?" Kanda and Lavi shook their heads.

"How the hell should we know what's up with that idiot? He can take care of himself." Kanda's tone was sarcastic.

"Do you two have any idea?" Lenalee shot him a look. Lavi, looked mildly concerned, and Kanda, looked irritated.

"He's been acting strangely. Sure, he's been nice and talking but he never hangs around. He's been disappearing a lot lately, and spending a lot more time in his room." Lenalee looked at them with accusing glares. "What I want to know is why you two aren't with him!"

"Che." Kanda looked away, annoyed but just a hint of guilt.

"Lenalee.. His problems are his own. Not ours." Lavi replied. "So, we have to get going on our own mission, so will you excuse us?" They both stood and brushed by Lenalee.

***