Thoughts

Title: Thoughts

By: Fluffynutter and Sarah

Spoilers: Episode's 4, 5 and 6

Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I am making no money from this.

We wrote this at half eleven at night so ignore all spelling and grammar mistakes. We had been drinking and decided that it would be a good idea to write a story about Luke and Wedge. This is my first fanfic so forgive any mistakes made. This was co-wrote with my roommate Sarah and dedicated to her boyfriend Dave, who made us become Star Wars fans by forcing us to watch all four movies over the Easter weekend J .

I feel older, a lot older than I am.

I have seen more than I could have imagined. Things I never thought about before, places I have never seen.

I have met people. People I have never imagined I would ever share something in common with. Met good people, made good friends.

I have changed. I know this. I am no longer a farmer, I am a Jedi knight. I don't share the same dreams as the person I once was, I don't share the same life or destiny.

Things do not shock me as easily now. I have seen too much and experienced too much to ever be shocked again, I think sometimes.

But, when I'm lying in your arms like this, listening to your heartbeat as you sleep, looking peaceful and contented and making me fall in love with you all over again, I forget all of this.

I forget that I am Vader's son, Leia's brother, Jedi knight. I forget what I have done, what I have seen and who I am.

I forget all this and I go back to a time when I was still a farmer, still a dreamer. A time when the empire had control over the galaxy, and I had just blown up the Death Star. The first time you held me in your arms like this.

A time when you comforted me over the loss of my best friend. A time when I first fell in love with you, even before I realised it.

You look so peaceful when you sleep. I love watching you sleep. Your hair soft to touch as I stroke your head, your lips soft and warm as I kiss them.

I am no longer a Jedi knight, no longer any of the things I am during the hours of the day.

I am simply Luke Skywalker from Tatooine.

In love with you and happy to lay here and watch you sleep.

You look peaceful and I wonder if you are dreaming. Wonder what you are dreaming. Wonder if you are dreaming about me. Dreaming about me the way I dream about you.

I know I am smiling. Probably the way I always smile when I look at you. Someone said, a long time ago, I looked lovesick. I wonder if I do. I wonder if I look the way I feel when I look at you, sleeping, happy. The way I feel when I look at you any time.

I don't know what I would be without you. I don't know if I would be happy.

I would be lost.

But I have you. Have you here with me now, lying in your arms, and listening to your heartbeat.

I have you, it doesn't matter what I am, who I am or what is happening in my life. As long as I have you I will be happy.

The End