Miyuki: Okay another Fruits Basket Story!!

Haru: You like FB huh Mi?

Miyuki: Love it with all my heart.

Kisa: But again, I am put through so much.

Miyuki: I apologize!!!

Haru: Anyways, Mi doesn't own Kisa, me, or Fruits Basket.

Miyuki: Yep!!! ENJOY!!!!!!!!!


Kisa's P.O.V (Kisa:16 Haru:20) -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Many times before I've said this is the last time. Many times before I've said I won't do this again. Why could I not just stick to that? Why did I keep coming back for that sharp blade and skillfully leaving a mark that would forever remind me of my pain? It's because I'm weak, useless, a coward. But most of all, I'm just another screwed up existence in life. That's what has made me come to where I am now. I've decided I'm going to end everything. This will be the last time I bring a blade to my body. This is will be the easiest way to let me not do this again. That's all because this time, I'm going to not stop the blood from flowing. I'm going to watch as my life drifts away with it.

When I walked through the doors, I knew I had to go through with this. I couldn't stop now. I had made it this far and couldn't go back. My mom had her purse in hand and smiled when I entered, but I wished it would go away. You can't be truly happy til I'm gone. She told me she had to run errands and that I have dinner in the fridge.

"I'll try not to be too late. I love you." I froze, and my insides shattered. It took all my will, but I smiled and said those three words back to her like I truly meant it. And I did, but telling her now feels like I had to really mean it. She walked out of the house like nothing was wrong and when that door shut, my facade crumbled off my face. I held my tears from spilling cause if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to go through with the plan. I looked up the stairs and knew I had to act fast. If I wait, it won't come. With every step I took, my confidence died just a tad bit more. But when I thought about how much happier people will be when I'm gone, I had the strength to continue forward. I made it to the top and to my room somehow and before I opened the door to my deathbed, I took a breath and nodded my head.

I opened the door and looked around. You would never have thought that the person who occupied this room had so much sadness. The walls were pink and the bed spread a light blue. Soft colors scattered the room everywhere and it made me think of my childhood. I had never done anything to mature this room as I grew. Even when I started cutting myself and especially when suicide became a thought. If I did, it would have been obvious that something was wrong. So I kept up the mask, and kept my real feelings locked away. Everyone in the Sohma's had a dark secret to keep, so there was no problem with me hiding mine. I walked, what seemed slow but was probably normal pace, over to my desk. I sat down and took out a simple sheet of paper.

Grabbing a pen I wrote my title: I'm sorry everyone. After this was taken care of, my feelings seemed to flow from my brain through the pen and onto the paper. I remember telling everything in what has made me come to this decision. And when I signed the paper, a tear slipped down my face and landed right next to my name. I read the note again quickly and let all of my other tears escape their prison and ride the path of freedom. This was it. This is where my life will end. My tears turned into full out sobs. My body racked from tears and lack of air. I found my weapon of choice fast. I'm getting too weak.

I had my grip on the pocket knife and stood up shakily from my chair. I was still crying, but I continued on. My legs took me to my stereo and I turned it on. Automatically setting in a CD and picking the song, I put it on repeat. While I lay there, dying, I can be constantly reminded of my loneliness by the song. It's grown to be one of my favorite. (a/n: While I wrote this, I was listening to x-ray dog the vision. You should listen to it to fully capture Kisa's sadness. That is the song she is constantly playing.) The next destination my legs went to was the window. I looked outside and sun shined down from above. It shown right through my window and onto me. I felt out of place in it, but I couldn't move. I was frozen. Some unknown force seemed to control me at the moment for I opened my window to let the sadness pent up here to be captured in the winds and carried to others. They might realize I'm not the girl they thought was innocent and kind and shy. After opening the window, I felt a breeze pick up and run gently throughout the world. It blew at my hair and made a calm world. I smiled a bittersweet smile.

"It's ironic my last day is so beautiful yet an ugly act will be preformed today. So long and goodnight." I turned and walked over to the bed. Sitting down and clearing my wrist took no time at all. I gripped the knife in my hand and looked down at my wrist. This was it. This ends it all. Metal touched skin, but I didn't press down yet. Just continued my smile at it and let one final tear fall.

"What the hell are you doing?!" My eyes, wide as saucers looked to where the voice came from to see Haru coming in my window. He wasn't happy to see me at all and I started shaking.

"I'm finishing this once and for all." He had both feet in the room now and walked over to my bed. I didn't want him to and I scooted back, knowing his intentions. The look I saw in his eyes was one I won't forget. They had a combination of emotions all swirled together. Anger. Sadness. Upset. But most of all, disappointment. I did it again, I hurt someone I love.

"You think committing suicide if the way to go?!?!?! What about all the people that love you, huh?! I guess you didn't think about them!!! You didn't think a GOD DAMN THING THROUGH DID YOU?!" I shrunk back and more tears gathered in my eyes. I then glared at Haru, angry he thinks I'm naïve.

"No one loves me. You don't have to sell me on thinking people still do." He sighed, obviously trying to control his anger. It didn't do much good though for when he looked at me, it wasn't kind at all, but a glare.

"We all love you! Your mom lets you live here everyday! She tells you she loves you!! She doesn't pity you!! If she did, she could have done what Kyo's mother did, or Yuki's mother!! But no!! And me, Yuki, and even Kyo!! We take care of you cause we love you!!! Do you even care about what people do for you?! You're just a selfish girl!! Fine, do whatever you want!! Commit suicide!!! You're to self-centered to even care!! SO I'M JUST GOING TO STOP CARING ABOUT YOU!!!!!" The knife was still to my wrist, and when he said that, I looked at it. I nodded my head and gripped the knife even tighter. It started shaking and my knuckles turned white. I finally pressed down lightly and broke the skin in a small part right over towards the handle. I gasped, nothing but pain came from the cut and I dropped the knife immediately. My mouth was opened in shock as I watched the blood. Soon, my tears flowed like the blood and I looked up at Haru. He then leaned down and applied pressure to my cut. It wasn't deep and it wasn't big, but just with him doing that, I felt like a small part of me was glued back together.

"Let's go clean up." I nodded my head and we both stood up. He didn't stop applying pressure until it was under some water. I saw Haru reach and get a band-aid along with alcohol. I was still in shock from the unusual pain I received from the cut. Haru didn't mind me needing him to do everything. He just went about business like I was a little girl who was cut by a thorn. Usually I would complain I wasn't in need of his help. But I was, I looked at the band-aid and realized I definitely was.

My mind could only process one thing at the moment. And that one thing was, I almost killed myself.

Miyuki: Wow, that came out good!!! I'm soo proud of myself!! But I have to say it again, poor poor Kisa-chan.

Haru: She really doesn't mean to pick on her.

Miyuki: She just seems to be the one who it could work perfectly with.

Kisa: Umm......

Miyuki: Haha sorry Kisa.

Haru: Don't forget to mention...

Miyuki: Oh yea, I HAVE A SPECIAL THANKS TO DAMON'S FUTURE WIFE AND HOWLINGWOLF94!!!!!!!!!!! THEY HELPED ME OUT SOO MUCH!!! TO READ THEIR STORIES GO UNDER MY FAVORITE AUTHORS!!!!!!! I LUV THEM SOO MUCH!!!!!!! ^_^

Haru: Anyways tell us what you think. And listen to that song. It'll really help you understand.

Miyuki: Please REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!