Disclaimer : I Don't own anything to do with Jag. The only thing that i own is the idea of this story. Sorry if it may sound similar to another, i haven't read every story on the JAG FanFic.
1 year after Fair Winds and Following Seas
May 2006
Dear Harm,
I've written this letter a thousand times and never been able to write the right words. I know that I haven't kept in contact like I said I would, but I have been really busy here. I know what your saying, "you shouldn't be too busy to reply to and old friend, a best friend", but with what I have to tell you, you'll understand, I hope.
I also know that you don't talk to your mum as much. How do I know? Well, I talk to your mum at least once a week. She misses you and wishes that you would call, or even email more often. We talk about you often. I know it's hard with Mattie, but she is improving. Yes, I do still talk to Mattie, mainly through email though. I talk to Jen as well. Jen said that both she and Mattie are doing well. Jen also said that you're doing well, and that she's glad that you asked her to go with you. I'm bummed. I got stuck with Vukovic. Bud and Harriet wanted to stay, so did Sturgis. Said that he wanted to stay near Varesse. Vukovic still drives me crazy, but that's what I've got to deal with, everyone else unavailable.
Anyways, getting back to the reason why I'm writing to you. I remember that night we shared. The one in your apartment, the last night that we were both in DC. Even though I knew you loved me, and that I love you, I knew that we wouldn't go any further in a relationship. Both our careers were more important to us than us. But I believe that our love for each other is going some place better. Yours is going to Mattie, and mine to Mackenzie.
Who's Mackenzie? Well, Mackenzie is my daughter. She's the miracle of my life. Never thought that I would get pregnant, yet, I did. I can't explain how or why, but I did. She's gorgeous harm. She's beautiful, dainty, yet strong in so many ways. She's a fighter like her parents. Because of the issues I had with getting pregnant in the first place, I had a little trouble with the pregnancy. Bed rest from 5 months, hospitalised from 6 months, and little Mackenzie was born at 7 ½ months. She was certainly a fighter. She wasn't fully developed and was in NICU for many months. I was able to take her home after 3 months. It was hard at first, juggling work and motherhood, but I had a lot of help from mum. She's helped me a lot with Mackenzie. Even though I've only just gone back to work, it's still hectic. Mum is still here at the moment and dads working, but will be here in a week. I love having mum and dad so close. I feel like I've had a family for ever. They've made me so welcome with no judgement.
I know that this is all sounding strange to you with all that I'm saying. But I bet the number one thought going on in your head is, "who's the father". Well, the father is not here anymore. I haven't seen or heard from him in a year. Only 4 people know who he is, 1 hasn't met him yet. I talk to Mackenzie about her father all the time though. But, it's only me, as well as mum and dad and Mackenzie that know. Although Harriet has tried a few times. I told her that I want to tell the father first, and see what his reaction would be. I suppose that's why I'm writing you. Get your reaction on the situation.
I'll leave it up with you, and hope to know what you think and feel. By the way, I've enclosed the picture of my daughter, Mackenzie Patricia Rabb. Named after myself and her grandmother, with her fathers name.
Love
Sarah
P.S I know that there is no excuse as to why i didnt tell you before, or that Trish, Frank and Grandma Sarah knew and you didn't. But I will promise you that when you do want to talk to me, ask me questions, I will with honesty.
Please R&R
I don't know yet if this is a one off chapter or an actual story in the making. I'll wait and see with the reviews. If i get any!!!!LoL
