I watched as my world crumbled around me..

And I couldn't do a thing…

I watched your smile,

That beautiful smile I would watch blossom upon your face,

A smile I knew that I was the cause of..

Fade slowly from my life.

Your golden eyes that I had seen filled with so many emotions.

Happiness

Sadness

Love

Courage

Lost their light and closed forever.

And your hand..

Your hand that I held while our daughter made her arrival into this terrible world

A hand that took courage to hold when we began our lives as one,

Fell to the bed..

Never to hold mine again.

I couldn't see or hear Ushio crying in my arms,

Or Sanae and the Old Man trying to direct the chaos around us.

I just saw you lying before me,

Looking as though you were only sleeping...

Like you could wake up at any moment with a smile on your sleepy face.

But I knew it wasn't true.

Nagisa..

If only..

If only we had never met.

You wouldn't of had to die..

You would..

Would still be here..

Time passed,

But the pain of not seeing your bright smile made me distant.

Ushio grew up with your parents...

I missed her first words,

Her clumsy steps,

The scary first day of school..

When I finally got up the courage and actually started being a dad again,

It was too late.

She got sick,

Just like you.

Grew weaker,

Just like you.

Only...

She didn't have some miracle to save her like you did when you were her age.

I lost her too.

In my arms.

Her tiny mitten clad hand falling just like yours did.

Telling me that she loved me.

And then she was gone.

And now I'm all alone,

Lying in the snow,

The cold having no effect on me.

Nothing holds me to this town

Nothing will ever make me feel anything but hatred and loneliness,

Now that I have nothing but memories that only serve to harm me.