Dear Diary – Britney Spears

Dear Diary,
Today I saw a boy and I wondered if he noticed me,
he took my breath away.

I looked up from where I sat against the tree and saw him. He was so gorgeous. I didn't quite understand what I was feeling for this boy, and truth be told, it scared me. I really wanted to find out the depth of my feelings for him, but I was scared. God, was I ever terrified…

Dear Diary,
I can't get him off my mind
and it scares me 'cause I've never felt this way.

It was like this every time I thought about him. He was there, beside me, every day. But why these emotions were just now beginning to pop was a mystery to me. I tapped my finger against the root of the tree I was sitting against. I picked up a leaf that had popped off the branches and cradled it in my hands, just now noticing they were shaking.

No one in this world knows me better than you do,
so diary I'll confide in you.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Amy kneeling down by the river, dipping a bucket into the water and holding it deftly in one arm as she did the same with another. I wondered vaguely what her reaction would be if I told her what I was feeling. I wanted to tell her so bad. I wanted her to be my confidant again.

Dear Diary,
Today I saw that boy as he walked by I thought he smiled at me,
and I wondered

I shivered as a cold breeze shook the air around me and scooted down into the cover of the tree roots. I sighed and closed my eyes. When I opened them a moment later, I saw him kneeling by Amy with a happy smile on his face. It warmed my heart to see them together. He looked over his shoulder and caught my eye. Was that I wink…?

does he know what's in my heart?
I tried to smile, but I could hardly breathe.
Should I tell him how I feel
or would that scare him away?
Diary, tell me what to do,
please tell me what to say.

My heart did a triple back flip. This was love, I knew it was. I attempted to give him a smile in return, but it came out a nervous smirk. He chuckled and turned his attention to my friend. It wasn't until then that I realized I was holding my breath. I was dithering about with my decisions, and I really wanted to tell him that I loved him, but I'd never even gone out with a boy before, so how was I supposed to tell this…this man that I loved him? What if he rejected me? Oh, now I really needed Amy's help!

Dear Diary,
One touch of his hand,
now I can't wait to see that boy again.

I looked in the opposite direction and saw the others grouped on the side of the path, all smiles and giggles. I knew we were nearing the end of our journey and I sighed again. Something touched my hand and I nearly leapt out of my skin. But it was just that boy again. He told me things were ready for lunch. I wanted him to stay with me…forever…

He smiled,
and I thought my heart could fly.

For some reason, the breathless grin I gave him was funny and he smiled at me, causing my heart to have palpitations. It was almost beating to the clouds.

Diary, do you think that we'll be more than friends?
yeahea yeahea yea oh

I wanted him to love me too. I truly wanted nothing more than to take him in my arms and hold him to me. But we'd been traveling together as nothing more than companions for all these months. It'd been more than a year. Would we be able to stray over that paper-thin boundary?

I've got feeling we'll be so much more...than friends.

As he stood up and walked away, I saw my friends wave to him and I heard his melodic laughter. I pulled myself up and saw Amy smiling encouragingly at me, with just a touch of the old sadness in her eyes. It was then that I knew we'd find a way…

ooh.. yea yea yea