Well this is my first Merlin fic so I don´t know if I did it right. I don´t own anything, Merlin is not mine or neiter it´s charcters. It´s a sad story and it´s GwenXMerlin.

I want to laugh; I want to feel alive again. I want to see you wake up every morning. I want to know that you are ok and that you are thinking of me too. I´m on the cell and I can´t do any of this things. I start crying, I remember how Arthur told me that no one deserved my tears, but guess what. I think you deserve them.

You tried to protect me, you knew I was a wizard and you didn´t say anything. Arthur also knew, he lied to his own father for almost 2 years, but now he knows and I´m not wanted anymore. I know right now Arthur and his father are fighting about my head; if it should stay over my shoulders or not. But he is only the prince and the other is the king, and he hates me. After some minutes y hear Gwen´s voice, your voice. You are my best friend and she had visited me like twenty times in the last 48 hours.

"Merlin." she says as she reaches the bars of the door. "Are you ok?"

I stand up and try to reach the bars as well. I want to feel her soft skin against mine. I want to kiss her like when I was almost dead and Arthur saved me. I want to tell her that everything is going to be fine and I will return to work the next morning. My chains make me stay away from my own door. I can´t do any of those things that I want to do.

"I have never been better. It´s a warm place, they give me food and I don´t have to follow any of Arthur´s orders." I try to joke, she doesn´t even smile, she seems even more scared tan me.

"He is doing everything he can Merlin" she whispered, "But his father seems unable to change his mind."

I try to smile but it´s hard, I don´t want to die. I think nobody wants. Gwen starts crying and I can´t whip her tears away.

"It´s okay Gwen. I´m going to be fine." I lie, she keeps crying.

"Please let me in." she begs the guard. Please, I think for myself, I want to hug her.

The guard doesn´t say anything but he opens my cell. She runs toward me and hug me, I want to hug her back but this bloody chains don´t let me. She hides her head on my shoulder and then she whispers something.

"You are a real wizard. Right?" I nod, I don´t need to lie anymore.

"In that case you can escape." She let me go and puts away my dark hair form my face. "You can run away and stop this."

I can, but I don't want to. I don't want to leave her or Arthur. I shook my head and try to say something. She puts her hand on my mouth, I hate when she is right.

"I love you Merlin." She kisses me and I respond the kiss. "That´s why I want you to leave and live your life."

I let some tears fall from my eyes and I kiss her again. She steps back and tells something to the guard, they both leave me alone, it´s my chance to escape.

The first thing I do is break this chains, they doesn´t make a lot of noise but I have to hurry. The second thing is to make a double of myself. It appears after two seconds and he is sleeping. The last thing that I do is say a spell.

"Brictum farey Totalios" after that I leave the cell behind to appear in the middle of an unkown forest.