OK last part i don't use a beta so all mistake my own please don't shoot me over it. I hope you enjoy it anyway. Reviews always welcome. I'm just borrowing these guys feel free to use. :)

NOW AND FOREVER

Ray Kowalski was up early. He already had was dressed and fed Benton. It had being a few days since Fraser was realised from hospital after suffering from a mild heart attack. Ray still could not believe that his Ben could have had one. Fraser at the moment was still sound asleep.

Ray was soon joined by Ray Veccico who had gone out to get fresh rolls for breakfast. Stan looked up at him as he came in, "Morning Veccico".

Ray replied with a smile, "Morning Stan". After setting down the rolls and getting a cup of coffee for himself Ray sat down at the table with Stan. For the past few mornings Ray and Stan have had some good chats over breakfast. They had become fast friends.

As they were talking for a bit Stan asked a question that had bin on his mind, "Veccico I hope you don't mind me asking but awhile back I had heard that you and Stella were having twins. I didn't know if it was true or not"?

Ray laughed, "Ya I heard that as well. No not true. Stella had bin stung by a bee and well she swelled up in all the wrong places. And while at the hospital she visited a friend who had just given birth and someone saw her come out of the maternity ward. And so put two and two together and got five". Stan laughed at this, "Bet Stell wasn't happy about that hay"? Ray shaking his head, "You've no idea".

As Benton lay gazing at his mobile and Diefenbaker guarded Ray and Stan talked on.

"Veccico I was just wondering if you've found an apartment or something to live in. Because if you haven't this one is available once we leave in a few days. I'm leaving it fully furnished I'm only taking some stuff like my CDS and DVDs and stuff but everything else is staying. It's a nice area and the landlady is pretty cool"?

With a slight chuckle, "Do you know that I was just going to ask you if you knew of any apartments coming up for rent in this building anytime soon. I must say I do like this place. So you think your landlady will go for it me taking over this place"?

Nodding, "Sure she will. Another cop quite and clean she'll love it".

Ray looked at Benton as he had done about ten times since he came back from going to the shop. Ray was smiling sweetly at him. This didn't go unnoticed by Stan. "Ray go ahead pick him up. I'm sure he'd love his uncle Ray to hold him"? Stan said softly.

Ray immediately picked Benton up, "hey little guy. How you doing today. All smiles and giggles I see"?

Ray sat with Benton in his arms. Ray saw a very amused looking Stan watching him. Ray spoke with a laugh to his voice, "What you grinning at"?

Still amused looking, "Noting Ray. It's just it suites you as all. Ya listen ta me. You find yourself someone you can this with. You're meant to have this Veccico"?

Ray found himself doing Fraser's puffin face to Benton. "You know I didn't think I wanted kids. They never seemed to like me much. Well maybe because Benny was always with me and they always loved him. But you know I do, I do want kids of my own so much"?

They chatted for another half hour before a sleepy ruffled looking Fraser came into the kitchen. Stan was straight up, "And what do you think your doing out of bed mister Mountie"?

"R-Stan I've slept in late enough. My god it's half nine already". Fraser said sounding winy.

Slapping his forehead Stan went on, "Ben, Ben, Ben you just got out of hospital after having a heart attack. You were ordered to rest. Now if you want tea I'll bring you tea. If you want breakfast I'll bring you that. So back to bed Ben Dr Kowalski's ordered got it"?

With pleading eyes to Ray Fraser hoped for back up. But Ray agreed, "Sorry Benny but Kowalski's right. You should be in bed. Don't worry we'll keep you company during the day so you won't get bored"?

Giving in Fraser turned and headed back to the bedroom muttering, "I'm not a baby and it was only a mild heart attack". But out loud for them to hear he said, "Very well Stanley, Ray". Both Ray and Stan through their eyes to heaven as did Benton and Diefenbaker. Stan playfully slapped Fraser on the arm for calling him Stanley.

Settling back into bed sitting up against the headboard. Stan covered Ben back up, "There you go Ben. I know you don't like staying in bed but you need your rest Ben and the doctors gave you orders. Anyway you'll need your strength we are visiting mum and dad and the Veccico's before we leave and I think Welsh wants us to drop by the 27th as well so rest. I'm leaving in a few minutes to collect my final papers from the lawyers they are ready so you're officially my boss. Lucky for us this new programme allows married couples to work together".

Lacing his fingers with Stan's, "Stan I just don't like staying in bed but I understand. So for you Benton and of course Diefenbaker I will. And yes we are lucky about this programme allowing us to work together. We'll make it work show them it can be done"?

Kissing Fraser's hand, "We sure will Ben. Look I'm taking Benton and Diefenbaker with me for some fresh air. Veccico will be here going over some more files before he starts back tomorrow. So if you need anything just ask him alright. Oh Ya he is taking over the flat when we leave so it's all good".

With a bright smile, "That's wonderful Stan. This is a lovely area so Ray will do well here. Take it easy now ok and be careful love you".

Going out the bedroom door, "I'll just get you some breakfast my love and I'll be off ok. Now remember you stay in bed or I'll give Veccico permission to cuff you to the bed"? Fraser laughed a hearty laugh, "Understood".

Stan came back in and joined Ray and Benton. Ray asked, "Well how was he about being sent back to bed"?

Stan sat and chuckled, "Pouting. Believe me a pouting Mountie not good. But I'm telling you Veccico Ben he is not used to being the one looked after. He is always the one doing the looking after. If I had one wish I'd go back in time and give a piece if my mind to everyone who has ever hurt my Ben. I mean how can you look at that smiling face and want to hurt him"?

Cradling Benton Ra replied in a hush tone, "Ya Kowalski your right. Even after the Victoria thing he didn't really want help. Tried pushing me away. He kept saying sorry like it was his mantra. I never really blamed him ok maybe for a second but she had him. She had him hook line and sinker. But you're good for him. You know what to do how to handle him. Just watch for his nightmare Benny had quite a few bad ones in hospital after Victoria"?

Stan let out a heavy sigh, "Funny you should say that Veccico. Ben did have a few while I was up in Canada with him. But the one he had the night of his heart attack just about did me in. God Veccico his voice was childlike and crying. He kept saying over and over, 'Sorry daddy, sorry daddy I couldn't stop the bad man. Sorry daddy I could stop mommy bleeding. I tried daddy I tried to be brave just like you daddy'. Taking a breath, "God Veccico I think he must have seen it all happened his own mum getting killed. No child should see that. He must have blocked it out"?

Ray paled, "Jesus Stan. He has never spoken of that. So he must have blocked it all out. What should we do about it"?

Nodding sadly, "Your right Ray. Because he didn't remember the dream the next morning at all. I didn't say anything but I will when the time is right. When he go's to see the shrink or something"?

Stan got up and packed Benton's nappy bag with all he needed for his few hours out. He brought Ben his breakfast and joined Ray again. "So Ray will you be ok while I'm out". Waving his hand, "We will be fine. I'll be reading these files and I'll keep and eyes and ears out for him don't worry"? With that Stan left with Benton and Diefenbaker.

Ray checked on Fraser every now and then but Fraser mostly slept. Only waking to use that toilet and to have tea and something to eat.

Ray sat in the chair beside the bed as he handed Fraser his latest cup of tea. Ray leaned back in the chair, "Benny you do know that you gave us all quite a fright don't you"?

Drinking his tea, "I must confess I scared myself. I thought just as I got everything I've ever wanted it was gone again you know. Just like everything else everyone I love gets hurt or dies"?

Ray looked at Fraser with sad eyes, "Ah gezz Benny. Now you listen. You follow the doctor's orders. No playing the super Mountie you hear me. You take your family home got it and you enjoy it and treasure it"?

Fraser nodded, "Your right Ray I will. I will always treasure it".

Meanwhile Stan hurried around. First picking up his final papers from the lawyers office. Had a cup of coffee in his favourite place. Then bought something nice to make for their dinners. From now on with the exception of one or two days they would eat healthy. Now Stan headed home to the man he love more then anything in this world and that included his beloved GTO.

Well chapter 1 hope you liked it. I don't own these guys wished I did just borrowing them please reviews are welcome. Remember this is fiction anything can happen in my world. J