Title: Fine Again Rating: PG for now Pairing: Helena/Dinah Disclaimer: By a cruel twist of fate I own none of these characters, so please don't get mad and sue. Author's note: This is a follow-up of sorts to Helena's inner thoughts in "the outcast". Feedback would be greatly appreciated, if I get enough good feedback I will continue the series, so be nice (
Helena stood if front of the face of the clock-tower, she stood looking out over the city as the orange sun slowly made its way below the horizon, silently battling her own decent into darkness. Behind her in the clock-tower she could hear Barbara steadily clicking away at the computers, she wondered when it stopped being enough, when Barbara no longer was enough to tether her to the ground, maybe she never really did, and maybe she was just denying the monster inside her that had been born when her mother was murdered. So much had happened lately, Harley Quinn had betrayed her, had hurt her and those she loved. It made her feel ashamed, it made her angry. Sometimes she felt caught in the sun, afraid that she would do something that would never be undone, that she would never be able to save herself. She had wanted to murder Clay face, she had wanted to make him suffer, the way she had suffered, the way she was still suffering. Instead she had beaten him within an inch of his life, and that was all she could settle for at the moment. It felt just as painful to realize that all those years she had struggled with herself, had desperately sought closure for her shredded heart, Barbara had held the key. Even when she had unknowingly faced her mother's killer, asking him for help in the search of his own offspring, another killer, Barbara still had not let her know. Didn't she trust her, didn't she care for her enough to want her pain to end, or did she feel that as long as her pain would be suffered that she should suffer along with her. After the confrontation with Harley Quinn she felt like she couldn't really trust Barbara, she didn't know how she could forgive her, she felt betrayed by the one she had trusted the most. The only person she felt like she could turn to was the last person she would have let in, now here she was slowly letting Dinah into her heart, despite her best efforts to keep everyone out. Helena felt the air shift around her, interrupting her thoughts. Dinah silently walked up beside her, lightly touching Helena's arm in greeting. Helena shivered at the volt of electricity that shot thru her when the girl touched her, such a simple touch, such a strong reaction. Helena wondered if she should act on her feelings, should she let Dinah know what she was feeling, or would she destroy them both.

To be continued??