I do not own these characters. They belong in the world of Stephanie Meyers. I published this story a few years ago, but I wanted to go back and revise and edit. Adding and cleaning things up as I go. It is my intent to continue where I have left off here, but I had to revisit this world in order to do so. Please review and let me know what you think. It has been awhile. The chapters alternate between the POV of Renesmee and Jacob, and situations are repeated from each of their POV. It is fun to go back and spend time in this world. I hope you enjoy and the chapters will be posted as they are edited. Thank you…Dana
Mine
A Renesmee and Jacob Story
By Taylansmommy
1. New Eyes
Renesmee
I knew I was dreaming; everything was too out of focus for me to be awake. I looked down at myself in a flowing white gown and then up to see my father waiting for me by the door. I walked slowly to him as he handed me a bouquet of gardenias and red roses. He smiled and I knew if his frozen body would have allowed him to cry, that is exactly what he would be doing. Music drifted up to us, and I recognized it as one of my father's compositions. He gently took my hand and placed it in the crook of his elbow. I held onto him tightly as we descended the large curving staircase of my Grandparent's home. When we got to the bottom the room was empty. I looked to my right and my father was gone. I was still dress in my gorgeous gown and holding my fragrant flowers, but I was alone. I cautiously walked into the large living room and standing there in front of the windows that looked out over the lawn, was the most beautiful person I had ever seen. I realized as I watched him, standing there with his back towards me, that I would never be alone. I felt my body being pulled to him, as if there was a cable attached to my heart that he was reeling in. My vision was still blurry and out of focus, but I knew who it was. I had always known. But I had never really seen him. Not until this moment. As I got close enough to touch him, he turned and I saw his hands reach towards me. It was then, when he was lifting the veil from my vision that everything became clear. My eyes slowly moved up his body. He was wearing a classic black tuxedo, his long, black hair slicked back into a ponytail. The contrast of the white collar on his russet colored neck made my heart quicken. It was as my eyes met his onyx gaze and he flashed his brilliant smile that I was complete.
He lifted his warm hand to place on me cheek and whispered, "Welcome home baby." And I realized that I was. Wherever he was, was my home.
I woke to the sound of something metallic falling to the ground, followed by the sound of my Uncle Emmett's deep laughter. I lay there wishing I could go back and finish the dream, but at the same time, I had to accept what my heart already knew. I was in love with Jacob. And the feeling went beyond love. He was essential in my life. Without him, I would cease to exist. This was a fact that I was only starting to fully realize. He had always been with me, as protector, best friend, and confidant. Only recently had I realized that my heart didn't truly beat unless he was with me. I was lying in my bed thinking just that when I heard another object crash to the floor, glass this time, and once again, the baritone laughter of my teddy bear of an Uncle.
"You act like you didn't know this day would come." Uncle Emmett said between chuckles. I heard my father sigh loudly as if in resignation. With that I decided it was time to face the irritated expression my father had worn for the past week.
I swung my legs over the side of my bed and shuffled to my closet. I grabbed a pair of jeans and a tee shirt and quickly dressed. I hadn't decided exactly what I was going to do with the first part of my day yet, so I just was going to be as casual as possible. The second half of my day, on the other hand was already planned. You see, today was my 18th birthday. Well at least by my way of counting.
While I had been alive for only 6 calendar years, my family and I have had to judge my age by a different set of standards. Because of my accelerated growth rate, we had been counting every 4 months as a year. So today, on my 6th calendar birthday, we are celebrating my 18th real birthday. Confusing I am sure, but I guess you would have to be part of a mythical family to completely understand it. But as I am a member of the immortal crowd, starting today, my birthdays went back to normal. Well as normal as things here can get.
I looked at myself in the mirror and quickly put my hair into a pony tail. I noticed the dark circles under my eyes and thought briefly that I should hunt. It had been almost two weeks since I had gone with Jake and I was well over due, but the thought of going without him hurt too badly. I could wait one more day and have him take me tomorrow. I slipped on my flip flops and slowly made my way out to see what expense thing my father had destroyed in his fit of denial. My Uncle Emmett was lounging on the couch, snickering to himself as my father swept up the shattered pieces of one of my Mother's favorite vases.
"Morning there pretty little lady." Uncle Emmett casually waved as I entered the room. I ran over and jumped into his lap, giving him a big hug. He was still laughing at my father when I turned and noticed the bend fireplace poker lying next to where he was removing the remaining broken glass.
"So, is something bothering you this morning Dad?" I thought it was a pretty innocent question, but it sent an even more violent fit of laughter heading in my father's direction. Dad looked at us like he was going to rip Uncle Emmett's throat out.
"Isn't there something you could be doing back up at the house?" he growled. With that Uncle Emmett stood up and dropped my on the couch.
"You know Nessie, not only do you get prettier with every year, but you really are making things a lot more interesting around here." Uncle Emmett leaned down and gave me a kiss on the forehead before quickly walking out of the cottage. I got up and walked behind my Dad and gave him a big hug, resting my head on his back.
"I'm sorry if something I've done is upsetting you Daddy." I had found over the years that anytime I was the subject of my Father's frustrations, pulling out the Daddy card always seemed to help.
He sighed again and grabbed my hands. "You haven't done anything sweetheart; it is just hard for me to let you grow up. I feel like I haven't gotten enough time with you, and then to see you have dreams about leaving us, it is just really difficult for me." I lowered my hands and he turned to embrace me tightly. He kissed my forehead and then finished his clean-up of the evidence.
"It was just a dream Dad." I bent down and picked up the fireplace poker, handing it to him so he could return it to its normal state. "I don't think that my feelings are in any way reciprocated. Jake has always treated me like his little sister. I am beginning to wonder if the poor guy didn't get a defective imprint." I half smiled and started towards my bedroom again. The conversation was making me miss Jake too much. There was an ache in my stomach and my heart.
My Dad gently grabbed my arm stopping me from leaving the room. "Sit down for a minute Nessie." He turned to face me and then took a deep breath. I could tell that this was going to be a conversation that was hard for him and I just hoped that in the end, my heart still remained intact. In the silence before he spoke, my mind went to all the wrong places. Maybe Jacob had told my Dad he would never have those kind feelings for me. Maybe he had asked him to let me down easy. I really didn't want to get the "I hope we can still be friends" speech from my Father.
"Nessie, what did Jacob tell you about why he went away this week?" Dad was looking intently at me, and there was sadness in his eyes.
"He told me that his and Sam's packs were going to be doing some training and bonding. That they had all gotten sloppy and needed to get back on track." I chuckled a little at the memory of Jake saying they had all become Lazy Ass Dogs. Dad smiled as he picked it out of my thoughts as well.
"That was not the main reason for him leaving. He wanted to give you some time. In fact, he thought he should go away for longer than a week, but your Mom and I knew how difficult that would be for both of you." He took my chin in his hand and moved my face so I was looking into his eyes. It reminded me of when I was little and he wanted to make sure that he had my full attention. "His feelings for you are deeper than you can even imagine Nessie. It is because of that love and the respect he has for you, as well as your mom and me that Jacob has never pursued those feelings. He wanted to give you time to see if you felt anything close to that without him influencing you." He gently brushed a tear way from my face as the realization hit me that Jacob truly loved me. To be honest, it was more of a confirmation than I realization. In my heart I knew, but my mind would not let me believe.
Dad lowered his hand and his eyes. I could tell while I saw this conversation as a beginning; he saw it as an ending. With his words, he felt as if he had set me free to fly away. This time it was my turn to raise his eyes to mine.
"I love you Dad. I am sorry that you and Mom were cheated out time with me as a child. I wish that I could make it so that time would have slowed down for you. But I am the luckiest person in the world. You and Mom have given me more than I could ever ask for, and because of this magical life that we are a part of, we get eternity to all be together. I am in no hurry to run off and get married, and I will always be your little girl. But I would consider it the greatest honor in the world if I get to have Jacob to complete my life. I just hope that he doesn't feel like he hasn't had a choice." That fear had gripped me more this last week than I wanted to admit. As soon as Jacob left, as I watched him wave at me from the edge of the forest that morning before he disappeared, I had begun to panic that he may resent the fact that he had no choice as to whether or not he was bound to me. As the days had gone by and my ache and need for him had grown, I kept thinking that maybe he was glad to have some distance. I didn't want him to think of me as an obligation, when I thought of him as the most wonderful gift in the world. As I was finally able to push these fears forward, the tears really started to flow.
Dad wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to his chest. "That is one worry you can just push right out of your mind Renesmee Carlie Cullen. I have never, not one time, heard Jacob think or refer to you as an obligation. From the first moment he saw you, his life became full. It had a purpose. The way he feels about you now, the love that he feels for you, is one that has grown and changed over the years. As much as I hate to admit it, I have a great deal of respect for Jacob Black. And I dare say that there is not another person on this Earth that I would even consider to be as worthy for you as he is."
I knew how hard that was for my father to say. Jacob and he had had their problems over the years. I knew all the stories and I knew that it had taken a lot of patience on everyone's part for life to be as harmonious as it was. I had always had the utmost respect for my Father, but I was now in awe of this wonderful man. "Thank you. I love you too." He whispered as he kissed the top of my head. I hugged him tighter, and he sighed.
"Well I had better go and see if they need any help at the house. Plus I have to explain to Bella about the vase. I guess we will just have to go back to Venice to replace it." I looked up at him and smiled. No matter how many centuries we all lived, I would always be my Daddy's girl. "You better go get yourself cleaned up too. I am sure that Alice will be sending someone for you soon."
We stood and after one more hug he was out the door, leaving me alone with my thoughts and my ache. Jacob assured me that he and the pack would be there tonight. I had decided, even before my talk with my Father that I would try to be subtle about letting my feeling show and let him have time to adjust. Chicken way out, I know, but I didn't want to make things awkward either. If he was not ready to see me as a woman yet, I didn't want to throw myself at him.
I decided that I had better take a shower and give Aunt Alice the "best canvas" possible as she always put it when we had one of her parties. Since my Mom turned, I had taken over duties as "Guinea Pig Barbie". I enjoyed it though. It was fun to spend time with Aunt Alice. She always made everything so much more than you thought it could be. After my shower, I put on a simple little sundress I knew that I could pull it over my head without ruining my face or hair. I put my flip flops back on and grabbed a sweater. I knew well enough by now, to not go up to the house before I was summoned. I sat on the couch and put on some music. I just hit the play button on the remote and Debussy filled the cottage. I lay my head down on the arm rest and let myself drift. I must have fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew, there was a knock on the door and I looked at the clock on the mantle. Two hours had passed.
I quickly went to the door and Seth and Embry were standing there with huge smiles on their bronze faces. "Happy Birthday!" they yelled together, each taking a turn giving me a big hug. I pulled them into the cottage.
"Alice sent us down here to get you." Seth said quickly looking over at Embry.
My heart started to crack; normally this as Jacob's job. He would always race me to the house and once we were there he would pick me up and carry me in with one hand over my eyes.
"So are you guys all back?" I was trying to be a casual as possible. I was trying to not see too much in the fact that Jake had not been here yet.
"Yeah, Alice has everyone working like crazy. That's why she sent us and not Jake, he has his hands full right now." Embry looked at the floor while he spoke kind of chuckling the words out.
"Well let's get this show on the road." Seth said as he opened the door. They didn't offer to run, but I knew the faster I saw Jake the better I'd feel. I took off with them laughing behind me. I didn't run at full speed, because I didn't want them to have to phase. Seth caught up easily and we only had to slow slightly for Embry to be on my left. Before we reached the house they each grabbed one of my arms to stop me.
"We're here" Seth yelled towards the house. We were still far enough in the woods that I couldn't see anything but trees.
"Keep her there. No peeking Nessie." It took all my self-control to not break free from them as Jake's voice echoed through the trees.
In a flash, Aunt Alice was standing in front of me. She giggled as she tied a blindfold over my eyes.
