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He had decided, he couldnt exist like this anymore, the pain made Venom a walk in the park. He worried for Bella, needed her and tried to forget how easily she wrote his love off, and believed he would ever leave her. Did she not know him at all? He had said he would stay as long as she was safe with that. Couldnt she see the birthday incident would tear him apart. Bella was endlessly oblivious to his feelings. It made him wonder if she ever really knew him, and how much of the allure was the draw of a vampire to its prey.

Still he had to know, Alice had been very evasive in his last phone call home, and Rosalie had been unspeakably smug, which was nothing new, but it put new fears into his nightmares. Part of him wanted her to move on and forget him, but it was a very small part. He didnt really want it at all, it would destroy him. But the sad truth was that Bella mattered more to him than he mattered, and he just needed to know...

So he was sat on a plane, lost in memories of his Bella, as he flew back to America. He drove across country, not needing sleep was at least useful for that. It made the last months an even worse hell. But if Bella had moved on and was happy, he could strip one nightmare away, and replace it with another.

He had not told anyone he was returning, but Alice would know,. Still he couldnt face going home. So he booked a room in a motel a little out of town and tried to adjust to being so close to her again. The urge to run to her, was almost too much to resist. So he walked, through endless woods, telling himself this was resisting, it was a lie. His need to see her, led him closer to Charlies house, and before long the inevitable happened, he was standing out of sight in the woods opposite Charlies house.

He heard her old wreck of a truck before he saw it, it was so damn slow. He wasnt breathing, in anticipation,. And there she was, laughing, that beautiful smile, as she stumbled from the truck, and Jacob raced around and caught her, with inhuman speed, she wrapped her arms around him and held him tight "my hero, my Jacob" she laughed as she pulled him close.

Edward became ice, He smelt werewolf, and Jacob groped her a bit as he chuckled and looked directly at Edward, a sly callous grin on his face. "Well you know I love you Bella" he said, his eyes locked on Edward"I will protect you from anything, even yourself" he said.

"What would I do with out my own personal bodyguard" she said standing on tiptoe to kiss him. Jacob turned it into a make out session on the drive shoving her up against the truck

"Jake, you know its friends only. Ive told you I am not quite ready yet.. " she half heartedly protested

"You love me really, just admit it, we are perfect together" he insisted as mauled her. Edward thought he would vomit

"Ok.. I love you, but your going to have to behave, just because Charlie would give you space in my bedroom, doesnt mean I am ready to do whatever you want, you take a lot for granted" she scolded, but there was no force to it.

"Compared to that vampire leech I behave, and I act, not run away like a girl. You need me Bella Swan, and more than that you know want me" he said sliding his mouth over hers.

Edward could hear her groan of pleasure, and felt it snap his soul in two...

Bella laughed and dragged Jacob into Charlies house saying "Not on the street, Jake.. Behave until you get to my room at least"

Edward ran, without mind thinking, he just ran.

He found himself somewhere in the dark, looking at the stars, wondering how a vampire got to die. He couldnt live with this feeling.

He was lost in a pit of this pain so he hardly heard someone approaching. They were too silent to be human, he expected it to be Alice, and he really didnt want to hear about Bella's happy ever after. He wanted to be needed or wanted by her. He couldnt even pretend he had a reason to stay silently watching and pining for her, because she already had supernatural protection; that stinking animal the werewolf Jacob.

He didnt look when another Vampire sat next to him, but he sensed who it was. He was slightly shocked that it had been Rosalie that had followed him, but he was too numb in his agony to realy care. He turned his head away from her, he didnt want to have another one gloat over this, Jacobs expression as he met Edwards eyes was quite enough for him just now. But all she did was slide her arms around him and held him too her, as he sobbed, without tears and without sound