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This has gay bois in it. Go away if you don't like it. They talk about sex but there is no sex in the story... yet.

Enjoy.

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Sitting on the little sofa in his living room, I looked down at the floor, trying to push back my tears.

He looked at me with annoyance and disbelief, "What do you mean that you LOVE me!?"

I kept my sight on the floor and played with the watch that was on my left wrist, trying to keep my attention away from Kaiba's anger. Anything was better than looking at him in the eye at the moment. If I did I'd only see the vacant, uncaring look I always saw.

"What the fuck do you mean, 'you love me?'"

That sentence punctured my very soul.

The way he spat it out, the anger...

...I didn't want to think about it.

Trying to gather my composure together, I tried to reply in a straight, calm voice, "... I... love ya, Seto. I don't want to keep doing this anymore. It's killin' me."

The taller man sighed and ran his hands through his soft, thin, brown hair and let his arm drop to slap his leg, then said "Look... Jounouchi, you knew the deal... all of this meant NOTHING. It was just FUCKING okay? We said we weren't going to have feelings or anything."

Is that all it was to him? I mean, when we first started all of this, sure it was all fucking. In good fun, boredom, or just plain horny... but after a while, it felt like it meant so much more to me, not just me, but more to him too.

At first, when we'd fuck, he'd pound into me, not giving a shit if it hurt me or not, after a while, it just felt like he wanted me really, really bad. I clung on to my little dream, that one day he'd turn round and sweep me off my feet, but nothing ever changed. He got what he wanted out of me and disappeared.

I was a fool to think otherwise.

And now, my stupid, stupid little fantasies lay shattered around me, along with my heart.

Silence was all that was heard in the Kaiba mansion.

The eerie silence and the uncomfortable feeling I had being there made me want to leave.

I stood up, took a deep breath and started walking towards the door. Kaiba said nothing as I left, I said nothing...

I escorted myself out of the labyrinth of a mansion and went home...trying with all I could not to cry.

So many random thoughts ran through my head... 'I can't let Kaiba do this to me...' what the fuck am I talking about!?

He just did!

He played me for a fool and ripped my heart out of my mother fucking chest.

There isn't a goddamn thing I can do about it... Did we just break up? I guess I was his unofficial boyfriend, I find it strange that he'd get mad if I was interested in any other guys... possessive prick.

I finally made it to my apartment building, a little relieved to leave the darkness that this July night had to offer.

Usually walking does me some good to get my mind off of things I guess, but it doesn't seem like enough this time.

I walked all the way to the top floor and entered my apartment building to hear my dad singing. He always sang when he was drunk, "I've got a bunch of little coconuts, lined up in a roooow!--- JOU!!! SUP HOMIE!?"

I just ignored him and went into my room to left myself cry.

"That's messed up man!" I heard my father complain in the other room.

My dad is just plain weird when he's drunk.

I closed the door and tried to believe that there was nothing that could hurt me, I wanted the ground to swallow me up.

Rejection always sucks, and it's not like it's not happened before, but this was different.

I loved Seto, I loved him more than I can say.

And he used me.

All I ever was..a quick fuck.

I slumped against the wall, and sobbed. I cried harder than I ever had before. I cried until every muscle in my body ached.... I cried myself to sleep. I won't be going to school tomorrow.

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Mmmkay, that was the little intro thinger. Depending on what people think of it, I just might continue. Well, I am continuing with this anyways, but I mean like... how recent I will update, ya know?

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