TWOSHOT

ELI'S POV

We were outside of school when it happened. It was about 6:45, the sun was setting. Clare and I had stayed after to help out with the drama production, like we normally did. Her being the stage manager and me just assisting back stage. The show was in a week, so we had to stay late at school practically every day. As everyone was on break, we snuck outside and sat on the degrassi steps. We were making out, it was incredible. No many how many times we kissed, it was with as much passion and lust then the first time, and even more each time. Suddenly, she pulled away. I looked at her, even in her plain Degrassi Drama t shirt she looked incredible.

"You're beautiful" I said, then leaned in to kiss her more, it was like a drug, once I started it was pretty dificult to just stop.

She then just blushed, look into my eyes with her perfect big blue ones, and then said the three words that would change everything

"I Love You"

I was a moron. A complete, absolute total moron. You know those tv shows where that one jackass guy replies to his girlfriend finally confessing their love for him by saying someone along the lines of "thank you, or nice to know" because of freak out mode, well that was me. After she said she loved me, I completely froze. The words that flew out of my mouth were "Oh" That's right, that's it. Oh. I instantly regretted it, as soon as I saw the look on her face. Her eyes completely lost all shine, she stood up, and said "Never mind, I guess". And then she just walked away. I tried to find her backstage, but she just stayed locked in the sound booth, refusing even look over in my direction

I had felt horrible. Throughout our relationship, I had unfortuantely, seen her broken so many times. But this was possibly the worst, I felt horrible for being responsible for that. What kind of person was I? To cause such a perfection person pain. The worst part was, it wasn't that I didn't love her, I was 90% sure I did, how could I not, she was clare, my clare. We had been through so much together. She was there for me when I had to deal with my anexity with coming to turns with having to give up my indiviusuality, and I was there for her when she was coming to terms with who she really was. We were perfectly imperfect. There was only one thing holding me back from saying those 3 words, those 3 short, ever so complex words.

"Why can't you say it Eli, we'v been together for 4 freaking months, if I can say it why can't you"

"Jules, you're not being fair, I just need to think straight for a second"

"What is there to think about? you either love me or you don't"

" It's not that simple, I Love You are three such major words, you know how I feel about you"

"No Eli, I don't think I do...I shouldn't have to deal with this, after all we'v been together, are you even capable of emotions"

"Please jut calm down, I'll say it when I'm ready, you know I'm bad with this stuff"

"What stuff? you need to let go of your whole tortured soul mantra and just learn to feel, Eli Please"

"I don't need this, I don't need to be pressured like this, why are you being such a bitch?"

"Nice Eli. Real Nice. Do you know what go to hell, Don't talk to me again, I'm done with this"

And that was it. The last conversation I ever had with Julia. The last conversation I would ever have with her. The conversation that killed her. I Love You were three words that could kill. I always thought I would be ready to say it to clare. Deep down I knew, as close I had been with Julia, as much as I liked her, maybe even loved her. It was different with Clare. Clare had quickly become everything. Somehow she managed to get me, and I managed to get her to.

Suddenly, after having this mental rant, I wasn't 90% sure I loved clare.

"You Have Pretty Eyes"

"I wouldn't expect anything less"

" assigned us as partners because she thought you needed to take risks"

"You don't have to impress me"

"There's something between us Eli and You Know it"

"Twist my rubber arm, girlfriend"

"Could you be more smug?"

"Scared to keep up with me?"

"I can't believe this"

"I Don't Know who I am"

"Come On, Live Dangerously"

"I Love You"

I was 100% sure, I was in love with her.

That's it, I wasn't going to lose her, the way I lost Julia. I loved Clare with everything in me, and it was about time she knew.