Counting Down in till I Fail
I feel nothing,
I feel lost…
I have to do this,
But how I do not know.
I have not done this before,
Even in the past…
I have not.
I am the first.
I want to do this,
But I'm afraid I will fail…
Fail my friends,
Fail my family,
Fail the world.
Words can't say how I feel,
Not now,
And maybe never.
Ever one says,
'It will be okay'
It won't!
No matter how many,
Times they say it!
It won't be 'okay'
In till I take him down…
No one understands,
No one ever hears me.
At least when I say,
I can't do it.
I know I have to try,
Even if I go down to.
It would not matter,
Even if I do fail…
I will know,
Everyone will know…
I at least tried.
