Counting Down in till I Fail

I feel nothing,

I feel lost…

I have to do this,

But how I do not know.

I have not done this before,

Even in the past…

I have not.

I am the first.

I want to do this,

But I'm afraid I will fail…

Fail my friends,

Fail my family,

Fail the world.

Words can't say how I feel,

Not now,

And maybe never.

Ever one says,

'It will be okay'

It won't!

No matter how many,

Times they say it!

It won't be 'okay'

In till I take him down…

No one understands,

No one ever hears me.

At least when I say,

I can't do it.

I know I have to try,

Even if I go down to.

It would not matter,

Even if I do fail…

I will know,

Everyone will know…

I at least tried.