A/N: First of all this will be an LOST story, but…it will taken place as if some of the plots in Seasons 2 and 3 did not happen. Although all of the character deaths will remain the same. If you have any questions you can ask. Oh and this story happens after everyone has been rescued.

Rating: Rated M for Adult content and situations. There will be sex, so if that bothers you don't read this story.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything that has to do with LOST, I just like the characters.

Characters: Most Characters make an appearance, but it will mostly be between Kate, Jack, and Sawyer.


Chapter 1: Futures and Pasts

"You still mad aren't you freckles?" asked Sawyer as Kate walked away from him. He had walked into their bedroom, wrapped his arms around her and kissed her neck. "I asked you to marry me didn't I?"

"You did Sawyer," Kate said with a nod, "You did."

"And you're still pissed?" asked Sawyer frowning, "What the fuck do you want me to do?"

"Hell Sawyer," said Kate turning around and glaring at him, "Maybe act like you actually want me to marry you. We have been together for almost five years…it just seems like that should be the next step. But you don't want to move forward, your happy with this aren't you?"

"Shit yeah," said Sawyer rolling his eyes. "Why aren't you?"

"There is more to a relationship then sex," Kate said simply as she headed for the door. "But I think you've been thinking with a different head lately."

Kate slammed the door and rested her back up against the wall. She wanted Sawyer to come after; she wanted him to apologize to her. But she knew Sawyer better then anyone. He wasn't going to come outside. He would wait until she came home from work and then he would use his smooth words and Southern charm to win her forgiveness like he always did.

Hadn't he realized everything she had been through for him? She had not committed that murder she had been convicted of before ending up on that fucking piece of land. Once they were rescued she had been forced to serve three years in jail for the bank robbery. She had been lucky; she will even admit that, she had been lucky to get away with such a lenient punishment. Sawyer had waited for her through it all. He visited her every week; she received a letter from him everyday. In them he had promised her marriage and the life she had always wanted. But it had been two years since then and they had just gotten engaged. And that was only after she had complained, bitched, and moaned. Deep down she knew that she loved Sawyer and wanted to be with him, but she did not know how much longer she could go along with his little games.

Okay, she knew that no one in their right mind wanted to hire a former inmate, a felon you could even call her, but it couldn't be this hard to get a job. It was just a job, she didn't want anything fancy, she just needed something to do during the day, while Sawyer sat at home living off the money they had received from Oceanic Airlines. Kate was restless, she had to be busy. Always had to have something to do.

"Miss Austen?" asked a young woman whose hair was bleach blonde with pink highlights.

"Yeah," replied Kate following the room into a pure white room, nothing on the walls, just an oak desk with one chair behind it and the other in front. Kate sat down and waited for the woman to speak.

"Welcome to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center," she had routinely, "The largest non-profit hospital in the Western United States."

"Thanks?" said Kate uncomfortable. She looked down at what she was wearing. It was not too impressive. Just a pair of jeans a nice shirt, she had only applied for one job before, when she was sixteen. Everything pretty much changed after 18.

"You applied for the secretary position right?" asked the woman flipping through Kate's application.

"Yeah," Kate said cracking her knuckles nervously.

"You have been convicted of a crime?" asked the woman raising a pierced eyebrow at Kate. Kate nodded nonchalantly and the woman gave her a meek smile. "Well I think you'll work. Follow me."

The woman led Kate out of the office and into the orthopedic department. She pointed to the desk in the front of the unit. The whole unit was not very busy. Doctors were walking up and down the hallways checking on patients. The nurses almost seemed bored, they were all sitting at their station, some were text messaging other were talking rapidly to each other…one even seemed to be falling asleep.

"This will be your desk. Answer the phone calls, make the appointments, and keep track of the charts. It's all very simple, if you have a question just call down to the main desk and ask me," said the Pink haired woman as she walked away down the hallway, "And by the way, you start now."


"And she made you start right then?" asked Claire shaking her blonde head in disbelief, "What a bitch."

"Tell me about it," said Kate after taking a drink out of her soda. "And if was hard work too, I felt so overwhelmed for most of the day, it was pretty bad. The best part was lunch."

"It will get better," said Claire nodding wisely, "Your just not used to work, schedules and all… AARON GET OUT OF THE TREE!"

Ten-year-old Aaron yelled at his Mom through the open window. Claire was standing in front of a sink full of dishes. Kate was sitting at the small island in the middle of the kitchen. Claire had moved to Los Angeles right after the rescue. She had gone to school so she could support herself and her son; she was now a fourth grade teacher at the nearest Elementary School. Claire had been able to buy herself a house on the outskirts of the city. She was thirty and living the perfect life. Kate was jealous of her best friend, everything about Claire's life made her jealous.

"So have you even started planning your wedding?" asked Claire sitting down across from Kate.

"Um. No." said Kate simply. Her words were harsh and bitter; "I am not planning anything until I know that this is what Sawyer wants. A part of me thinks that he loves me and wants to marry me and then there is the part of me that knows him and knows what he would rather be doing. He doesn't want to settle down…he likes this life. He likes just being together."

"But you deserve happiness too," said Claire.

She had told Kate on the island that she did not think the relationship between Kate and Sawyer was the best of ideas. Kate had told her to trust her and she knows what she was getting into. It was about the sixth month of captivity (that's what Kate called her time of the island) when and Sawyer became a couple…she guessed that what's you called it. They broke themselves away from the rest of the castaways and just stayed together… it was exclusive. No one was allowed into his or her world. It was kind of sexy how Sawyer only wanted to be with Kate, but then sometimes it became smothering.

"I am happy," stressed Kate, "I'm just a little confused. I just need some time to get everything figured out."

"Just do it fast," said Claire, "Because you're my best mate and I want you to be happy."


"Hey Baby," said Sawyer as Kate walked into the apartment. She threw her car keys onto the kitchen counter and kicked off her shoes.

"Hi," said Kate after yawning. "How was your day?"

"Fine," said Sawyer. He was sitting on the couch, an open beer on the one side of the couch, a bag of potato chips in his lap, and the remote control in his hand. It looked like he had been sitting there all day.

"Good," said Kate walking towards the bathroom. She closed the door behind her and locked it; it would prevent Sawyer from strolling in during her shower like he was known to do. Tonight, she just wasn't in the mood.

Kate walked out of the bathroom a half an hour later. Her hair dripping went, water getting the top of her nightshirt. Sawyer was in the bedroom. He was sitting up in bed, shirt, the blankets covering his boxer shorts, he was reading a book. Sawyer had brought his hobby on the island, off the island; his bookshelf covered an entire wall of the apartment.

"Have a nice shower?" asked Sawyer as Kate sat down on the edge of the bed. She grabbed her hairbrush from her bedside table and began brushing her hair. She sighed deeply and put down the brush.

"Yep," said Kate simply. Lying down in bed, she covered herself with a blanket and closed her eyes. She knew it was coming, she felt Sawyer's hand on her shoulder, His fingers tracing shapes into her pale smooth skin. "Sawyer." Her voice sounded annoyed, "I am really tired, please let me sleep."

"What the fuck have I done now?" asked Sawyer angrily.

"Are you mad because I don't feel like messing around?" asked Kate sitting up suddenly.

"No," said Sawyer half honest.

"Because I am tired," she said rolling her eyes as she looked away, "Because I have a job…where you work…instead of sitting around the house all day."

"Do you want me to get a job?" asked Sawyer eyeing her "Is that is what shitting you Freckles?"

"Yeah, I want you to get a job," said Kate firmly, "And I don't want you to marry me unless you want too. I am not going to force you into doing anything."

"Your not forcing me into anything," said Sawyer, "No one forces me into doing anything."

"Okay," said Kate lying back down.

"And now you are okay?" asked Sawyer slightly confused.

"Sure," said Kate.

"Do you need me to fucking get down on one knee and ask you to marry me and have me read you some well written poem from the heart?" asked Sawyer.

"No," said Kate, "Because I know that is not you. I just want you to be you. And I want you to want to be with me."

"Well I do want to be with you," said Sawyer.

"Why Sawyer?" asked Kate sitting up again, this time seeming more frustrated. "Why?"

"Because I love you," said Sawyer quickly, "Because I am in love you with you, okay?"

"Okay," said Kate as he leaned in and kissed her. Kate ran her fingers through his hair and kissed him back intensely. Sawyer's hands were on her breasts…he was massaging her nipples with his thumbs. "Sawyer" Kate moaned out deeply. "I really need to sleep…"

"But I want you…"Sawyer said as he broke away their lips. He kissed her neck and down towards her collarbone, "I need you…"

"I need you too," said Kate. Kate loved this man, no matter his faults, she loved him…she wanted to be with him, "But I need you to understand that everything is not about sex, baby. Please, I need to sleep, but I promise tomorrow I will make it up to you."

"Promise?" asked Sawyer wrapping his arms around her.

"Of course," said Kate giving him a quick kiss, "I usually do, don't I?"


"Kate!" called the pink and blonder haired woman, who name was Mariana.

"Yeah?" asked Kate. After a week at this job she was getting pretty good at it. Everything at home was improved, Sawyer had gotten a job at a lumberyard and their relationship seemed to be mending. To Claire's delight, Kate had finally chosen her bridesmaid color…indigo.

"There is a new doctor starting today, he is going to be working up here," said Mariana quickly looking through a pile of papers in her arm, "A doctor Shephard."

"Oh," said Kate her heart beginning to race. She did not know why she was acting this way. Shephard was a common name; it wasn't necessarily Jack who was going to be working here. It couldn't be Jack. She couldn't let it be Jack. He hadn't spoken to her since she and Sawyer had hooked up on the island. She had liked Jack first, she would admit that to anyone, but she had quickly realized that she would never fit into his world. She had given up on him and in the end he had given up on her. But still, everyday she thought about him and how he was doing. Sometimes she didn't realize she was until she was asking Sawyer if he knew anything about him…and then sometimes when she was driving alone she would think about him…

"A Jack Shephard," said Mariana handing Kate a bunch of files. Kate stood there in shock as Mariana walked away and the elevator door open. Standing there looking at her was Jack Shephard, he looked good too, clean-shaven and handsome. He was wearing a pair of navy blue scrubs and a doctor's jacket. Their eyes met immediately and his mouth opened slightly in shock. He was walking towards her; Kate's heart flew towards her throat.

"Hi," Jack said to her.

To be continued…