The love of my life

It had been two years since Jackson Walsh left Emmerdale two years since he left the love of his life. Aaron wouldn't say he loved him was the main problem. After Jackson paid off Mickey it took a turn for the worse in there relationship. It was one night when Jackson went to talk to Aaron that done it. Jackson went to smithy cottage the place he called home for many months now Jackson was at Andy's to give them space. He hated leaving his mum at smithy but truth be told he knew if he and Aaron had a massive bust up he could still come see his mum which meant still seeing Aaron.

Flashback

As Jackson walked up to Smithy he could hear shouting from inside he knew who the voices belong to it was Aaron and his mum.

Aaron: Just stay out of this it has nothing to do with you.

Hazel: It has everything to do with me I am his mother.

Aaron: One of the many reasons him and I aren't getting on.

Hazel: No I am only trying to help I hate seeing my boy so upset.

Jackson was already inside and as he walked into the kitchen neither one of them notice he was standing there.

Aaron: What and I'm not Aaron shouted back.

Hazel: Then sort it out.

Aaron: Oh just shut it and leave me alone you interfering old bag.

Jackson: Aaron

Just the both of them turned round shocked at seeing him.

Hazel: How long you been there.

Jackson: Long enough.

Jackson turned from his mothers gaze and turned to Aarons.

Jackson: Who do you think you are speaking to me mum that way?

Aaron: Stop overreacting I just told her to shut it.

Jackson: Mum can you please leave us alone for a bit.

Hazel: But Jackson….

Jackson: Mum please

Hazel: Okay but you're wasting your breath

Aaron: what the hells that supposed to mean Aaron yelled.

Hazel: It means you will never admit to how you feel because you are to busy trying to be a hard man. You don't care that Jackson loves you because you care too much what people think that you being in love with a man is weak. But I will tell you something the only thing weak is you not facing up to being a better person and letting people who care about you getting hurt cause you are hurting my son.

Jackson and Aaron just stood there looking at the ground taking in Hazels words. It was then Hazel walked out and left the boys alone.

Aaron: What you not talking that's a first bloody hell maybe I should let your mum have a go at me more often.

Jackson looked up at the eyes at the man he loved so deeply.

Jackson: what are we going to do Aaron?

Aaron nervously swallowed the lump in his throat.

Jackson: I mean every time we see each other we just fight. Since I told you I loved you. You have been so nasty and well like the old Aaron not caring just trying to be hard and closed off. It's like back to square one I feel as if I have lost ya.

Aaron leaned back against the kitchen counter took a deep breath.

Jackson moved forward and looked at Aaron with pleading eyes.

Jackson: Please just tell me how you feel the truth. No nastiness just you and how you feel cause I know how I feel.

Aaron looked up at Jackson. Jackson caring eyes staring back the truth was Aaron didn't know for sure if he loved Jackson or not he knew that he didn't want to lose Jackson ever and cared so much about him. But love he wasn't sure because truth be told he still wasn't sure what that word quit meant yet.

Jackson: Please Aaron talk to me.

Aaron: What do you want me to say Jackson. Tell you if I love you or not tell you how pissed I still am with you for paying off Mickey the man who killed Clyde.

Jackson: Aaron please this is not still about Mickey is it?

Aaron: How can I love someone who goes behind my back and pays the bloke who killed me dog?

Jackson: Aaron for god's sake we have been through this I did it because I was scared that he would come after you.

Aaron: Well you shouldn't have bothered.

Jackson: Okay I am sorry for going behind your back but you know why I did it and there's nothing else I can say I can't take it back and to be honest I wouldn't.

Aaron then crabbed a glass and through it at the wall

Aaron: You make me look stupid weak like a coward who couldn't fight his own battles who his boyfriend had to do it for him.

Jackson: Oh it's because I am your boyfriend that's why you are so bloody worked up because they are really gunna think you are gay now.

Aaron: who's they.

Jackson: Everybody Aaron you scared that if you let your guard down people are going to thin you are less of a man. Well you know what the only thing that makes you less of a man is the fact you are not true to yourself.

Aaron: what are you on about everybody knows I am gay.

Jackson: I don't mean that I mean about how you really feel about me.

There was silence both taking in there own words.

Jackson: Maybe its not quit love you feel but I know you feel something towards me or maybe the last 6 months together have been all about sex and nothing else call me crazy if that's how it is.

Aaron: of coarse that's not all it is mate.

Jackson: Then talk to me share because if you don't I not sure I can carry on the way things are going Aaron.

Silence again after a few minutes' Aaron spoke.

Aaron: You are the best thing that's ever happened to me I feel happy when you're around but I don't know if I love you because the truth is I don't know what it is.

Jackson: I don't understand.

Aaron; I am not used to it love I mean. I am used to people not loving and caring because I have pushed them not far but you love me after all I have done you still here. It scares me that you do.

Jackson walked over closing the distance between himself and Aaron. Jackson cupped Aaron face. And gave him a gentle kiss on the cheek.

Jackson: That's for telling me the truth I know me and you weather its love you feel or not we got something special something worth holding on to. That night Jackson slept in Aaron bed for the first time just over a week before he told Aaron he loved him.

The next Morning things were still icy between Hazel and Aaron. Jackson then had an idea he was going to treat everybody to lunch well not everybody just Chas, Paddy, Hazel himself and Aaron to start over leave the past behind them move on to the future. Chas hazel and paddy were more then happy getting a free lunch. It was Aaron who he had to deal with. Although they had a nice chat and the night had ended really well. Aaron still hated family lunches with questions about Jacksons and his relationship his two loud mouth mums trying to play best parent.

With it being a Saturday so no one needed to work Jackson fought this was the prefect way of showing their loved ones that himself and Aaron are still going strong and that's the way he wanted it to stay. He ran this idea with his mum and paddy. Paddy insisting he would pay for himself Jackson declined saying he wanted to treat everybody.

A call to Chas was made and buddy and happy about spending time with her son as most of the time he avoided her. Now all that was left was the man himself. Aaron was in the shower so he crept in and was planning on telling him but once he saw his boyfriend sexy body he had other ideas. Once the were done in the shower with Aaron still on a high from fun in the shower Jackson thought now was a better time than any.

Jackson: There's something I thought we could do today

Aaron: Oh aye.

Jackson: (laughs) not just that I thought me you me mum and paddy and your mum could go to lunch together.

Aaron: no tell me about your other idea I think I would prefer that.

Jackson: Aaron come on it will show that we have sorted things out all have a laugh like we used to.

Jackson's big brow eyes looking into the baby blue eyes of his handsome younger boyfriend. As Jackson moved towards Aaron and closed the distant between he knew like himself couldn't resist what each other wanted.

Jackson: I will be so ever grateful (kissing Aaron's neck)

Aaron: Fine only for you (laughs) so the woolie?

Jackson: no I was thinking that new restraint in town.

Aaron: okay let me get dressed then.

Half an hour later a happy Aaron and Jackson come bouncing down the stairs looking fresh and clean well not strictly truth because after Aaron agreed to come they both couldn't keep there hands off each other. As they made there way down stairs paddy, hazel and of coarse Chas were looking at them with big grins on there faces ready to go.

As they made their way into town Jackson just wanted a moment with Aaron to himself as he pulled Aaron back he shouted ahead to the three oldies as him and Aaron always teased we will be in a sec. All three just nodded with Chas shouted back something about keep your hands off my son you and then the three laughing and heading in the restraint.

Aaron: what you doing?

Jackson: hopefully you later (laughs)

Aaron: (laughs) come on out with it you idiot.

Jackson: aye you I was just about to say something nice.

Aaron: well I aint getting any younger mate.

Jackson love into he eyes of the man he truly loved with all his heart.

Jackson: thank you Aaron for coming I know you don't like this family stuff either with it just being paddy and are mums it means a lot you would do this for me.

Aaron: you know I do cared about you I think the world of you and I hope I can sort my anger and my issues out cause I know I wont be losing you.

That was then Jackson saw in Aarons eyes that love was very close he grabbed Aaron face moved closer and gave him a tender slow kiss but all good things had to come to end knowing there mums would come looking for them at any moment.

Aaron: come on then before they sent out a bloody search party (laughs)

As they moved into the restraint they hear the voice which made they blood boil

Mickey.

TBH