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Dear Diary, Today was just another ordinary day. Spike is still not back and I am worried. About him.worried he's never coming back. I guess it's alright to admit that to you. You won't judge, not like them. My friends. Especially Xander. I can't believe it, I am in-love. I love Spike. But now, it's probably too late. He loved me. He was willing to change his whole entire being, for me. And he doesn't even have a soul! Damn my friends! Damn my pride! If I could just hold him again. But he's gone, I drove him off, like the rest of the men in my life. All except Xander, I wonder, when he will leave. Probably soon. And to think, all the years I put in on trying to make Spike go away, and now that he has, I want him back. I've hurt him so much, but you always hurt the one you love, it's just like he said. I miss him so. It's been soo long since he's left, actually, just 2 weeks, but it feels like it's been an eternity. Many eternities. Why was I so foolish to not realize my love for him? Why? He's known it for so long, why didn't I listen? He was right, I belong in the darkness, with him. He is the one. Not the only one, but definitely the one. THE ONE. When I was dead, he stuck around to help and protect my friends, I wonder if Angel even visited Dawn to make sure she was fine. Spike, no-soul, stuck around, even after I was dead. Now, that's love. I love him. I do. I can admit it now. He made me feel alive, just by being there, he did. Just the thought of him. I love that bleached bloodsucker! Except, I don't know why he did the whole "Doctor" thing. But for some reason, I don't care.
Buffy
Dear Diary, Today was just another ordinary day for me. Me and my tortured soul. I don't know where to go. Should I go back to Sunnydale? That's where Buffy is. I wonder if she could love me now that I have a soul. Maybe now I can explain why I betrayed her just when she was starting to trust me. "Doctor" and all of his purposses was to be able to support her and the little bit. So she wouldn't have to work at that awful place. So she wouldn't have to suffer. So she wouldn't have to swallow her pride and go and do something that is beneath her. .Like me?
SPIKE
Dear Diary, I have been thinking, what if Spike did have a soul, like Angel, would I love him? I mean, I loved Angel, vamp-w/-a-soul, but not his alter- ego, the vamp-w/out-a-soul, Angelus. So, would I LOVE Spike w/ a soul? No, I love Spike, the way he is, a fool for love. Which, actually makes him a lot wiser than me. I hope he comes back, oh, please. Everybody has that certain alter-ego about them. How they would be like if they were turned to a vamp, yet this is him, turned and all, but I guess they are still two different beings. Wow.
Buffy
Dear Diary, Today was just another ordinary day. Spike is still not back and I am worried. About him.worried he's never coming back. I guess it's alright to admit that to you. You won't judge, not like them. My friends. Especially Xander. I can't believe it, I am in-love. I love Spike. But now, it's probably too late. He loved me. He was willing to change his whole entire being, for me. And he doesn't even have a soul! Damn my friends! Damn my pride! If I could just hold him again. But he's gone, I drove him off, like the rest of the men in my life. All except Xander, I wonder, when he will leave. Probably soon. And to think, all the years I put in on trying to make Spike go away, and now that he has, I want him back. I've hurt him so much, but you always hurt the one you love, it's just like he said. I miss him so. It's been soo long since he's left, actually, just 2 weeks, but it feels like it's been an eternity. Many eternities. Why was I so foolish to not realize my love for him? Why? He's known it for so long, why didn't I listen? He was right, I belong in the darkness, with him. He is the one. Not the only one, but definitely the one. THE ONE. When I was dead, he stuck around to help and protect my friends, I wonder if Angel even visited Dawn to make sure she was fine. Spike, no-soul, stuck around, even after I was dead. Now, that's love. I love him. I do. I can admit it now. He made me feel alive, just by being there, he did. Just the thought of him. I love that bleached bloodsucker! Except, I don't know why he did the whole "Doctor" thing. But for some reason, I don't care.
Buffy
Dear Diary, Today was just another ordinary day for me. Me and my tortured soul. I don't know where to go. Should I go back to Sunnydale? That's where Buffy is. I wonder if she could love me now that I have a soul. Maybe now I can explain why I betrayed her just when she was starting to trust me. "Doctor" and all of his purposses was to be able to support her and the little bit. So she wouldn't have to work at that awful place. So she wouldn't have to suffer. So she wouldn't have to swallow her pride and go and do something that is beneath her. .Like me?
SPIKE
Dear Diary, I have been thinking, what if Spike did have a soul, like Angel, would I love him? I mean, I loved Angel, vamp-w/-a-soul, but not his alter- ego, the vamp-w/out-a-soul, Angelus. So, would I LOVE Spike w/ a soul? No, I love Spike, the way he is, a fool for love. Which, actually makes him a lot wiser than me. I hope he comes back, oh, please. Everybody has that certain alter-ego about them. How they would be like if they were turned to a vamp, yet this is him, turned and all, but I guess they are still two different beings. Wow.
Buffy
