Sometimes it's fine to be alone. It makes you visualize to cause less trouble and disappointing for people who are trusting you. However, all those treacheries people that I have confronted with since my childhood are no longer my what I should call 'friends'. That's what happened to me when I realized it myself after what I had done by hurting them. From developing to hate everybody who appears to be deception and malice, I was no longer allowing myself to trust them. Not just trusting, I also stopped talking too and it led me to get bullied. Every day when I was walking to school, I could hear all of those laughing and gossips from people when they are appointing me like,

"Useless"

"Disgraceful."

"No talker."

"Tiresome woman."

"Gloomy one."

All of those ugly talks... Why can't they just shut the hell up already? It's just too bother! No matter how much I endure it, it makes my heart rip into pieces from all of those hatreds that I was receiving from. Additionally, it almost felt like a joke playing apart whenever I was around. Every morning when I'm waking and looking myself in the mirror, my feelings were filled with self-conscious, meaningless and ugly too. What kind of life was I living? Why does it have to turn this way? Why was I born in this cruel world, anyway..? It hurt so much whenever I thought about those negative minds. But, it was one thing that I hated most was myself. I wanted to leave this world when I eventually realized that I was already done with my idle circumstances. Maybe it was the good way to let all of this sadness and that I have been holding back in the century go away forever... I wanted to keep myself distance from the rest of my life.

But when I saw a twinkling star starting to rip off all the misfortunes and coldness in the darkness when I meet Yamato. The charming guy that I didn't tend to talk to him so much until something unexpected happened at that midnight when he caressed me while defending me from my stalker as I can recall my first kiss. It's odd. For some reason, it was very awkward. But if I have to be honest, I was feeling warm inside too... So at the following events, everything started to change. I felt less self-conscious like I was before. I even began to smile more like I hadn't done it for a long time. I was being encouraged by Yamato. As I have noticed something different when I didn't think this clearly, I wasn't even bullied. Was it a dream? I thought to myself. But then, I recognized that I wasn't dreaming after all. It was then I understood that I wasn't alone anymore. It was all of all because of you who led me to the path of light. I don't know what I should have done with my blackness and dishearten years if you weren't my twinkling star... Yamato.

Thank you… For giving me reason to exist in this world… Thank you… For letting my loneliness go away... Thank you... For being my faithful one… for learning me to become stronger…. To teach me to trust people more... Even Asami-san and everybody I had befriended with is no longer my opponents … Most of all with all of those things, thank you.. for letting me hold your hand. For comforting me whenever I was crying. For helping me to become from being suicidal to an approvement to everyone. Also if I have to put this more, thank you for loving me unconditionally.

I don't know what I should do if you didn't come for me with such a ray of hope. Although you have my back, it's now my turn to step up for you for your destiny, for our relationship and for healing your pain...