A/N
So I was listening to "If today was your last day" by Nickelback and I had this idea for a story. (Which it's not all that theme, but it was a starting point) Please tell me if it is downright awful, but I'm trying here! *crosses fingers* Well you don't want to listen to me so here you go!
By the way sorry if it's confusing, but it starts with Jem talking!
**I do not own any of Mrs. Cassandra Clare's beautiful works, if I did I would not be writing crappy fanfiction based off of it, I would be laughing manically as I crushed the reader's souls and watch their hearts give out... I mean writing City of Heavenly Fire! Yeah, that's what I meant**
And on a side note I strongly ship Will/ Tessa but I might take this story a different direction totally I haven't decided yet, let me know what you think!
"Tessa, if I wasn't dying, if I didn't have this.. this expiration date, can you honestly say that you would have accepted my proposal? When people are dying others tend to feel sorry for them and try to do whatever makes them happy, even if it doesn't mean your own happiness, and please, please don't do that for me."
"Jem, why would I do that? I accepted your proposal because I love you, not because it would make you feel better until you die! What a morbid reason that would be too."
"If you honestly mean that, can you tell me this?"
"Anything."
"If Will had found out there was no curse sooner, would you have chose him over me?"
"Jem! Don't think that way, I chose you!"
"Answer the question, please Tessa."
"No."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, that would have never worked anyways."
Tessa could hear the sigh of relief as Jem pulled her in close to hug her, but thee only other noise she could hear was her heart pounding. How could she lie to Jem like that? I mean, it wasn't completely a lie, she did love Jem. By now she could feel the tears stinging the back of her eyes and excused herself to prepare herself for dinner.
She contemplated Jem's questions a few times. If Will had not been cursed, would she have been with him? I mean he certainly caught her eye and heart first, but does that mean she wouldn't have eventually fallen for Jem as well or even before. She also thought about his first question. Tessa had noticed that people always treated Jem differently because of his disease, but was it really so much that he would think someone would lie to keep him happy? Or was that exactly what she was doing, putting his own feelings before her own because he was dying. If tomorrow was the last day they had together or if today had been, would she have treated him differently?
Tessa was so busy crying into her pillow she didn't even notice someone else had walked in until he cleared his throat.
She hastily looked up from her pillow and wiped her eyes, before she looked up and whispered, "Will?"
I'm sorry this is so short, it will get longer I promise! And sorry that this is crap... I will work on the writing and editing from now on, I just wanted to see what people thought of this.
If anyone can think of a new title for this it would be greatly appreciated, seeing as mine sucks and I can't ever think of titles... anyways leave it in the comments section, or inbox me, whichever you prefer!
