It was raining. Castiel held a umbrella over Dean and him. Sam were crying looking at his mother laying in her coffin, and thought: after all this time and all of what they have been through this is how she died, a job gone wrong and for once he knew, they couldn't have done anything for her. Mary didn't have lots of friends but they all come, Sam said something about how he was proud of her, that she was an amazing hunter, and that he was glad he could have known her, and then he looked at her body one last time, and it was just flammes now. Dean was standing in front of the fire, without a word, no tears, trying to be the strong.
On the road back to the motel, Sam was sleeping at the back of the car while Dean was driving in silence. Then Cas who couldn't bare the calm anymore started the conversation: ''-How are you holding up? You didn't say a word...'' As usual Dean respond with his sarcastic voice, a little bit more offensive that he wanted to sound ''-What do you want me say, Cas that I'm okay, that I didn't lose my mum for the second time, that everything is fine and that I should be used to see people I love dying?! Guess what I'm not alright, how do you want me to be!
-I know... I loved her too. But you can't blame yourself for what happened, it wasn't your fault''
Dean looked at Castiel, he noticed how blue his eyes were, and how beautiful they were even wet by the tears before he look straight and drive in silence all the way long.
Back at the motel, Sam decided to take a shower, and as it was already late and everyone was exhausted they went to bed.
Dean was outside, sitting on a bench, looking at the stars. Cas join him. ''-You can't sleep?
-No...you?
-well, I don't sleep, I'm an angel.''
Even in the dark of the night Castiel saw a glimpse of a smile on Dean face.
Then Dean still looking up, apologize to Cas about earlier: ''-I'm really sorry about the way I answer you in the car earlier, I just miss her.
-I know you do, but you aren't alone, you still have your brother...you still have me Dean.''
They stayed here in the quiet of the night a little longer, until Dean finally stand up and went inside trying to get some sleep before dawn. Before opening the door of the motel's room, Dean turn away, looked at Cas and said: ''Thank you..you know being here for us, for me''
